I put on my jeans and shirt and shoes the same

And I'll leave my house and show my face again

I thought that I could find a way to hide the truth

But everybody knows

Every day is still as it was before, Monday still follows Tuesday and Wednesday still follows that and so on, only things aren't as before. Not if you're not here. Every morning I get out of bed at 7 and throw on some clothes, occasionally I forget that everything's changed and make two coffee's in the morning. I still leave the house for work, I'm still occasionally late. I'm still trying to do all that I did before, I'm still trying to carry on as if I'm not heartbroken. So how is it that if to the outside I'm the same as before, that people can tell that I'm heartbroken and struggling?

I'm tryna smile

I'm tryna lie

I'm tryna live another life

I'm trying to smile and laugh and find a way to carry on as before, I'm trying to find a way to smile at the memories of our relationship and yet I can't. I'm trying to lie, to tell everyone that I'm fine and although they might not believe me I might as well keep up the appearance. I'm lying to myself too though, to tell myself that you're feeling the same as me and that you're thinking of me too. All it is, is a lie. I'm trying to live a new life, well I am living a new life, a life without you.

Tryna be the me without you

It's like driving in a car with no wheels

Flying through the sky with no wings

A needle in the eye that don't sting

When you're underwater you can't breathe

When I need to call you I can't reach

Tryna light a fire with no spark

No match and no fuse

Tryna to be me without you

You are the other half of me, well you were the other half of me. The tea in my mug, the ink on my page, the ground beneath my feet, my life partner. Well that's what I thought. Now you're gone and I'm wandering around lost, I'm half of a whole. I don't know what happened, first you were going off for drinks with Max, Strickland hade made you and next he'd offered you a job. Next thing I knew you were saying your goodbyes and moving off to France. I call you to try and catch up and you're never available, you must be busy or maybe you're just ignoring me.

Oh it's hard to find somebody new

When the only one I'm looking for is you

I thought that I could find a way to hide the truth

But everybody knows

Steve keeps trying to set me up with women he knows from... well God knows where actually. I tend to spend quite a bit of time with Brian and Esther or one of my daughters just to avoid him. I know he's just trying to help but it won't. It's you I love and I'm not sure that you can move on from a love on this deep. No other woman would be anything like you and there's no point raising any woman's hope because it wouldn't lead anywhere.

You aren't coming back anytime soon though, so I guess that I'm going to have to learnt how to be me without you, I'm going to have to function as a half.

A/N The song is Me Without You by Loick Essien