Unfamiliar Emotions

Aya

I do not own Weiss Kreuz and this is my disclaimer.

A/N: Yoji has taken a blow that was meant for Aya. He is now recuperating from his wound and Aya doesn't understand why he is feeling so guilty when they help each other all the time, so why…?

Chapter 1

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Aya stands by the window watching, as the dawn chases the night shadows across the sky. He is still trying to figure out why Yoji threw himself in front of the blow. Granted, it could have been more devastating if it had hit him but…what the hell was he thinking! Yoji is the last person he wants to feel indebted to.

There is a knock at the door right before it opens. He looks over his shoulder as Ken stands in the doorway. He turns back to the window as Ken tells him. "Aya, Yoji is awake, and he's asking for you."

Aya lets out a deep sigh, "Is he alone?"

"No, Omi is with him."

"I can't see him now."

"Why not, I don't understand." Ken looks at him in surprise.

Aya turns from the window with a strained expression on his handsome face. How can he explain to Ken why he can't see Yoji when he doesn't know himself? He has kept people at a distance for a reason and now with Yoji playing hero…

"He saved me I know, but in the process he was hurt. He should just concentrate on himself and not me. I don't have time for foolish people doing foolish things." He turns back to the window, "tell him…tell him, I'm sorry he was hurt."

Ken walks up behind him and grabs his arm, "You're sorry he was hurt! That's all you have to say!"

Aya glares at him as he snatches his arm away "Don't touch me! Give him the message or not, it's up to you."

Ken drops his hand and stares at the angry man, wondering why he is so cold. It's as if his heart is closed off from everyone. This makes Ken wonder what he thinks of him. Aya has always been his idol and Yoji too, but…

"Fine, I'll tell him you're sorry." He turns and leaves the room, closing the door quietly behind him leaving Aya alone again.

Aya sighs and turns from the window walking over to his small bed. He sits on the edge and puts his face in his hands as he groans. 'Why am I feeling like this? What's the matter with me? He could have died tonight and it would have been my fault. How can I face him when I'm the one that was foolish? I should have remembered there was another one behind me. I'm the one that should have received that blow, not him. Forgive me Yoji...please don't die.'

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Ken leans against the door with his head tilted, sighing as he wonders how any of them can get close to Aya. Even with Yoji getting hurt to protect him, he still acts as if he doesn't care. He pushes off the door and walks up the one flight of steps to Yoji's room. He pauses outside the door and takes a deep breath before going inside.

Omi looks up at him, "Don't tell me, he's not coming, right?"

Yoji closes his eyes, "Don't Omi. He has his reasons." He looks at Ken, "he was staring out the window right? He always does that when he is confused or needs to think things over. I'll see him later, he can't hide forever."

Ken walks over to the bed, "It's so unfair, Yoji. You risked your life saving him! He's such an ungrateful bastard!" He puts his hand up to his face trying to hold back his emotions in front of the others.

"I'm sorry you think of me as ungrateful, Ken." They all turn at the sound of his voice and stare. Yoji chuckles as he looks in Aya's scowling face "Give us a minute, will you guys. I need to speak to our fearless leader alone. You don't mind being alone with me do you, Aya?"