(Angela and Jordan are making out in his car when Angela breaks away)
Angela: I don't want this to be a lie
Jordan: Oh
Angela: I know you didn't write the letter
Jordan: He told you?
Angela: no I kinda just figured it out myself
Jordan: so..you didn't think I could write that?
Angela: well I don't know, it just didn't really sound like you, come on you know what I mean (laughs)
Jordan: What do I sound like?
Angela: just, you know, different
Jordan: I'm not good with like words
Angela: yeah it's okay
Jordan: So do you uh forgive me?
Angela: Yes, even if you didn't write those beautiful worlds, you're still beautiful to me, (laughs) your soul is like beautiful
Jordan: Oh thanks, uh you too
(Angela laughs and Jordan laughs too a little uncomfortably)
Jordan: I did an unforgivable thing, I created a prison for myself that I had to exist in (looks dramatically off into the distance, but smiles like he's making a joke)
Angela: Oh shut up (at first Angela looks confused and realizes he didn't come up with that either and then she laughs)
(Jordan smiles and kiss her)
(At night Angela is rereading the letter from brian sitting looking out her window)
Angela: So Brian and Delia have become friends again and Delia has a crush on him and I guess he has a crush on her. I don't love Brian Krackow, but I cant stop thinking about him. I think I'm in love with his words. I can tell myself I don't care, but I wish, I wish more than anything that Jordan had written it
Looks out window and sees Brian holding hands with Delia
Brian: So tomorrow at eight
Delia: Yup I'll see you there
Angela: I didn't love him, but I didn't want him to love anyone else either. My legs started walking, maybe it was dream I couldn't tell
Mom: where are you going it's late
Angela: Just right outside
Mom: take a sweater
Angela: I'm fine, should I like take the garbage out or something?
(Patty looking both shocked and amused, hands her a garbage bag)
Patty: who are you and what have you done with my daughter?
Angela: oh she's asleep I think
Angela: My mom always says things like that, but now it meant something because I didn't feel like myself, like I had control over what I was doing, and the weird thing is with Jordan everything was so cautious, calculated
(opens door, Brian is hugging Delia)
(Angela makes a lot of noise with the garbage can but looks down as if she is oblivious to the fact that Brian and Delia are standing right in front of her)
(Brian looks up)
Delia waves smiling
Delia: Hi!
Angela: hi, my mom forced me to take the garbage out, can you believe her? Isn't that like child labor or something? (laughs)
Brian: yeah technically but it wouldn't be considered that like legally...
(Brian staring at her)
Angela: yeah
(Angela goes back inside pretending she doesn't care about Brian but listens at the door)
Brian: so Delia, I had like a lot of fun today, I cant believe we spent 8 hours and 30 minutes together (talking really loud so Angela can hear and with exaggerated enthusiasm)
Delia: yeah a week ago i would have considered that like torture
Brian: but you see now that I'm not like that, right? I don't usually use people
Delia: yeah you're not as bad as i thought you were
(Delia walks off smiling and Brian smiles than looks over at Angela's door
he takes his bike and starts riding around)
(Angela is back next to her window doing homework and sees him)
Angela: It didn't feel like a dream anymore, I knew what I was doing now, I was going down to talk to Brian Krakow, but maybe it was just because anything would be better than doing geometry, even talking to Brian Krakow
(walks down the steps again)
Brian: Angela, so why are you here?
Angela: I live here
Brian: why are talking to me?
Angela: I wasn't I just came out to get fresh air, I was bored
Brian: oh so I'm just your source of entertainment when Jordan's not around
Angela: I didn't know you were still out here
Brian: But you just like saw me with Delia before
Angela: so
(pause)
Brian: So you know, Delia and I are friends now again
Angela: yeah I can see that
Brian: so I guess you've been like watching me
Angela: no you just make it so obvious, like your trying to show it off, like you're using her again
Brian: what! no! how?
Angela: like to make me jealous
Brian: No I'm not, you're the one that uses people, you use me all the time.
Angela: so then do you actually like her? because if not you're just using her
Brian: I like her
Angela: so are you going to be officially together?
Brian: I don't know, like Jordan and you?
Angela: yeah he asked me to be his girlfriend, well actually he asked me if I was his girlfriend
Brian: that's not the same thing
Angela: but that's what he meant, he's just not good with like words, he says things but I know what he really means
Brian: and so it's okay with you that he didn't write the letter? That's plagiarism you know
Angela: so? you like let it happen and besides there's more to him than you think, he's just not good at expressing his like true feeling or whatever
Brian: why do you always give him the benefit of the doubt?
Angela: I don't have any doubt, I know, I know him. I mean (laughs) I don't think anyone can really know him
Brian: Oh yeah Jordan Catalono is so mysterious
Angela: (looks thoughtful) Well, I think that he's like a little lost and confused, that's how he is and I lo-
Brian: But why cant you see that I don't have any doubt?
Angela: what do you mean?
Brian: you know what I mean
Angela: you mean with the letter
Brian: yeah, you know it so why cant you address it already?
Angela: I thought we already did address it
Brian: no there's so much more I want to tell you but I feel so trapped
Angela: Like you've built yourself a prison that you have to exist in now?
Brian: Yeah (laughs)
Angela: say it then
Brian: but you know
Angela: know what?
Brian: stop playing dumb
Angela: but I guess I want to hear it
Brian: because you're like starved, you crave words don't you, my words, the ones Jordan never told you, you want me to like compensate for him
Angela: that's like so accurate, almost like my conscious was talking to me, you know that feeling, it felt like I was in a dream again and it even actually hurt a little feeling like I would wake up and find out none of this had happened
Brian: and I can say it, I can say what Jordan could never say, but I wont
Angela: fine, and not really I was just like curious or whatever
Brian: because you don't deserve it, I wont give you that satisfaction
Angela: fine
(silence)
Angela: I don't want to go back inside yet, so are you just going to like stay out here until I leave?
Brian: I was here before you
Angela: fine I'll go (slowly starts heading to the door)
Brian: Wait I kind of thought we were getting somewhere
Angela: getting where
Brian: closer to the truth
Angela: maybe, who knows what the truth is
Brian: yeah but I'm not confused
Angela: I think I am, I think I've lost myself in someone who's lost themselves
Brian: that was like really profound
Angela: Actually my mom said that
Brian: oh I was like really impressed for a second
Angela: Oh god I cant believe I just quoted my mom
Brian: everyone does that, where do you think I get all the smart things I say? Since my parents are psychologists they say a lot of stuff like that
Angela: Jordan's parents aren't psychologists, they're not like your parents or mine I don't even think they you know take care of him
Brian: yeah I know, but i don't feel like sorry for him (pause)
Angela: I do, I don't blame him for being like the way he is
Brian: obviously that's why you love him
Angela: well that's not why I love him
Brian: isn't? Because he's like attractive and seems confident but also he's helpless because he's illiterate or something and so he's like this tragedy that you want to fix.
Angela: he's not, he's just challenged and besides that's not why I love him
Brian: right, so why?
Angela: I don't want to talk about it with you right now. I'm not going to tell you the reasons why I love Jordan Catalono
Brian: It seems like you're just in love with the idea of Jordan Catalano, you know like he's a symbol to you
Angela: what are you talking about?
Angela: I knew exactly what he was talking about.
(pause)
Angela: But isn't everyone just an idea to someone else,
Brian: Am I just an idea to you?
Angela: sure, in a way, you're good old reliable but annoying Brian Krakow always riding around his bike at weird times
Brian: oh I see
(pause)
Brian: But I could tell you right now the reasons why...
Angela: why what?
(suddenly Brian kisses her, at first the kiss is hesitant, cautious and Angela is startled and isn't sure what to do but then she then suddenly she grabs him and they kiss passionately, holding on to each other's necks and embracing)
(Brian's mom calls him for dinner, Brian jumps startled, Angela laughs and then looks mesmerized, dazed)
Angela: Wait, why what?
Brian: You know, well I got to go I mean, I'll tell you, should I like write you another letter?
Angela: I'd like that (does her signature goofy smile)
(They smile at each other and Between the Bars by Elliot Smith plays as they go back to their houses and Angela goes back to her window and looks out thoughtfully at the sidewalk below)
(Episode ends)
