1 A/n: this is my 1st fanfic I thought of it today while spacing out in 2nd period. I hope you like it!

disclaimer: I would never be able to come up with something as amazing as mediator everything belongs to Meg Cabot

Ch.1

Suze's POV

It's been a week since that amazing kiss in the graveyard, and it's even worse than after the first time Jesse kissed me. At least then he still talked to me this time he just vanished. He went to live in the rectory and now he never comes to visit me. Well not when I'm awake anyway, I know he comes at night because when I wake up my window is closed firmly to make sure I don't freeze to death every morning. And its not like school is any easier. I can't get this Jesse thing off my mind plus there is the whole spawn of Satan giving me shifter lessons thing. Paul just told me that I would have to start lessons with him tomorrow or as he put it- would be forced to exorcize Rico Suave. And then of course he had to go and grab my butt being the asshole that he is, so I got detention for kicking him in the groin.

"Suze, Dinner!", Dopey yelled up the stairs. I knew when I got down there mom would start in on me for getting yet another detention so I feigned sickness (cramps of course) and started my homework. I couldn't really concentrate though. I was too nervous about starting lessons with Paul. I mean what if he tried to kiss me again. I sure as hell don't want his lips coming anywhere near mine. And any way last time I came to his house I ended up with completely disfigured feet. Tomorrow I would make sure to where the most comfortable shoes I own.

Finally I decided I wasn't getting any where on my homework so I got ready for bed, but I couldn't fall asleep for hours. I kept thinking of all the bad things that could happen to me while I was at Paul's house. I was also thinking about how much better life would be like if Jesse was here holding me in his arms, calling me querida, and kissing me. I was thinking about this til about three o'clock a.m., when all of a sudden I heard Jesse appear at my window. I moved so that I could watch him but he couldn't see that I was awake. I didn't want him to go away, which is what he was bound to do if he knew I was awake and watching him. When I looked over at him and saw Jesse's oh so hot body, what I saw shocked me. He was sitting on the window seat petting spike (who showed up the second Jesse appeared) and here comes the shocker: he was looking at me with what could only be described as longing. But why was he longing for me? He could have me! I'm sure he knows that! I couldn't figure it out. All these questions were going thru my head. Did Jesse love me? If he does then why has he been avoiding me all week?

All of a sudden Jesse put down spike and started walking toward me. I quickly shut my eyes. Then I felt Jesse stroke my cheek in the same way he had that time I was in the hospital when the RLS angels beat me up. My heart started beating really fast..

"I love you Querida," Whoa! Am I hearing right? Did Jesse just say he loves me!?! and right then Jesse leaned down and kissed me. Right on the lips. So I did what any girl who had a hot guy telling them he loved her would do. I kissed him back. At first he was extremely surprised that I was awake but he got used to it quite soon considering that he stuck his tongue in my mouth. Not that I minded at all. It was amazing, I felt like I was in heaven. This was how I wanted to spend the rest of my life, In Jesse's arms, preferably making out with him. I pulled him down onto the bed with me. I broke the kiss for about a half a second and told Jesse that I most definitely loved him back. This must have made him happy because the next thing I knew he grabbed me up and started kissing me all over again .

We must have made out for like 10 minutes before Jesse came to his senses and realized he was making out on a bed with a girl he wasn't even engaged to.

"Susannah, we can't do this. A relationship between us is a dead end. It can go nowhere! I am dead and you are alive, querida. Remember! You need to find someone alive." God this was annoying! Here we were making out and having a very good time when Jesse has to start up with that whole "you need to be with someone alive" thing again.

"Didn't we already go over this?" I said exasperated, "I don't want to be with someone alive, Jesse! I want to be with you!"

This caused him to swear in Spanish but then he kissed me again so it was ok. After that he just held me in his strong arms. I fell asleep like that and the best part was when I woke up Jesse was still there holding me and in his arms. I felt safer with him than I had ever felt in my entire life.