Love Triangles are the Worst
"Have you even wondered what it might be like in your own head?"
Watching them is making me sick; their laughing, their smiles, both like knives to my heart. I can't believe it. How could he betray me like that? With my sister, no less. Betray? He didn't really betray me, did he? Can you betray someone if you don't know that they're in love with you?
Oh, look! There they go again with the longing looks and the holding hands. Disgusting. Oh no, they noticed my scoff! Smile. Like you mean it! There you go. Idiot. You can't let them know you don't approve. That's how you lose your best-friend forever.
Should I have told him? Probably. I've been through almost every situation in my mind about how that would play out and they all seem to end in heartbreak.
Hey did you do the
Astronomy homework?
Yep.
Great. By the way I love you!
What the hell!?
I love you.
What!?
Never mind.
I know you and my sister are kinda close now…
but, I was wondering if you wanted to dump her
and be with me instead?
Are you serious?
Yes?
No. Dude, I love her.
That last one could get better with:
No, Dude! I'm not gay.
Ah, yes. What a lovely experience. My mind is an excellent place to hang out. Sarcasm. I hate this so much. Not sarcasm. Why can't it be easy? Why can't I just like some random chic from my class, then I could ask her out and no one would give a crap about our genitals. Oh great, now he's looking at you with that beautiful face of his. Why did you have to exhale in a depressed way so loud!?
"No, I'm fine! Just tired."
Yeah, he should believe that because he's seen how restless you are. Aw, he looks concerned for me. Put that love-struck smile away, you idiot! Sometimes I can't believe we're connected, it's like you don't listen to me at all. Great now all I can see is him. His eyes, his hair, his lips… so kissable – Stop! Enough of that, we're in public. But his arms look so strong in that shirt, and that jaw… damn, boy! I just want him to – Woah, this is getting out of hand! You have to walk away. Now.
"I have to go."
Dead puppies.
He wants to know if he should come with me?
"No, I'll be fine. Just feeling a little ill."
Dead puppies.
Great, now he'll want to know if I'm better later and that always leads to me making a fool of myself.
Grandmas.
I don't think he noticed. Close one. Now all I need to do is get out of here so I don't have to endure watching my sister have what I can't. I do get why he likes her; she's funny, beautiful, and smart. But I'm funny! I have okay looks, and I'm practically a genius. But she has the one thing I don't have. Boobs.
Why do those girls keep looking at me? Look away, dumbass, or they'll think you're staring. Why is one of them coming over? Wait, what are you doing? Don't stop, someone might speak to us. Too late.
"Hey,"
Do I know her? I don't think so. Linda. She introduced herself, so I mustn't know her. So, now she's said her name, I should say mine… right?
"Albus."
She's smiling. I must have said something good. Smile back. Why is she talking to me? Oh no. is she asking me out? Oh Merlin. Hogsmead? No, I'm going with Scorpius. Aren't I? I was…
I should answer her.
"Uh… okay."
OKAY?! WHY IN MERLIN'S NAME WOULD YOU SAY OKAY!? God! You're an idiot sometimes. No, scratch that. ALL the time. What have I done? She's smiling again. Say good-bye before you accidently propose to her. Wow.
"Bye."
Idiot.
Hopefully we can make it to the room before I become the only gay guy at Hogwarts with five girlfriends. Maybe having a girlfriend will – no. That won't work if Scorpius thinks I'm straight. Argh this is so hard.
"Stop it, Albus. Stop being such a dumbass!"
"Who's a dumbass?"
Rose? Face her. Tell her that nothing is wrong.
"Me." Again with exactly the opposite of what I told you to say. Now she wants to know why. Great. I can't tell her that I'm in love with my best-friend, her ex. Nope.
"No reason. I'm just having a hard time getting used to Scorpius and… Lily."
She understands, it seems. She agrees that it feels weird, I can understand why. Can I tell her? Would she understand? Probably. Would things stay the same between us? Absolutely not.
Leave, you've already done enough tonight.
Wow. Today has been the worst day ever. At least I've made it to the room. That bed looks really nice to… mmmhhhh. Can I just sleep forever? Ugh, someone's here.
"Scorpius?"
What is he doing here?
"What are you doing here?"
He came to check up on me. That's so sweet. Stop it, Albus.
"I'm not with Lily anymore."
WHY?! Why? Why? Why would he do that? Oh Merlin, what's happening?
"Why?" Calmly. Nice touch, don't let him think that that fazed you. His eyes don't look red, so he probably broke it off with her. Why?
"It wasn't right."
What wasn't? Why wasn't it right? I don't understand. He's walking toward me. There is a smile there, a smile I've never seen before. My stomach is in knots, I don't like this. He's very close now. His eyes are full of… something.
"What…?"
Don't you hate the feeling of your voice stuck in your throat? I do. I – Breathe. He's too close. He's right there. He's –
"I realized something. You're the only one I've ever wanted."
What the – Oh GOD! His lips are on mine, his hand is pulling me closer. Do something! Literally anything! Okay, the hand on the cheek is a nice touch. But he's going to – and there he goes. He's pulled away. You've ruined it! Wait. Maybe not. He's smiling. I'm smiling. Maybe today isn't the worst day at all.
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'TV Quotes': 19."Wait, what are you doing? Don't stop, someone might speak to us." – Felix, Orphan Black.
'100 little things': 28. Tell her that she's [he's] the only girl [guy] you ever want. Don't lie.
'Story Tropes': Sibling Triangle
