There was a light. No. A sunshine. Before the darkness engulfed me, took over me. Her face. That's what it was. "Ellie! We have to get out!" The voice echoed in my head. The next time I saw the light it was…brighter too bright, but the heart wrenching panic also came with comfort. "Shepard," i felt the touch on my arm as if it was still there, "it's okay, calm down. Just relax." The faint voice in my head along with touch dispersed from existence. Leaving the bottle of whiskey and me alone.
Shepard took another shot, it was probably gonna be the tenth of many. Miranda, her second in command, right hand man, was probably watching her, Shepard had a feeling about this type of thing, she felt someone's presents, breath on her neck, "hi Shep." The accented voice whispered, Shepard turned to face the voice. Nobody was there. "Either I'm gonna even more insane or kasumi is here." Shepard mumbled running a hand through her hair. The figure appeared on her bed, of course it was the master thief, kasumi goto with a mysterious trademark smile on her delicate face. "Guilty as charged." Shepard didn't want to see anyone happy, it sounded selfish yes, but didn't she deserve to be a little selfish? I mean she's saving lives of trillions of people she didn't even fucking know but yet she gets shit in return. You get promoted and everyone thinks that's a great honor, no that's just more shit on your tiny little platter.
"I know you wanna be alone right now, but you can't be." Kasumi said, "look Shep, you see things people never will ever see, but you never do normal things that people take for granted everyday. For instance…love." Shepard looked up at the master thief, but kasumi didn't met her glare. "Shep. I know. We all know. You're head over heels in love with Miranda. trust me I've been there, but everybody also knows that we're docking at illium in at least three hours." And what the fuck did that mean? Just because liara was there doesn't mean everything's gonna be fucking cute and everything's okay. Shepard died. Dead. Gone. Maggot food. Rotting corps. And she's not the same as she use to be, or that's what liara was probably gonna think. "And so what goto?" Shepard clenched her fist. "I'm not going to reunite with anyone. I have a mission. Feelings are shit. And shit are feelings. She doesn't love me, nobody does, so called fans of me love me but don't support me, so why the hell am I doing all this kas? Shit. Might as well say its just to save my own ass, but even my own self support is slipping away." Kasumi got quiet before speaking, "anything can happen Ellie…you just have to see it through. I think you should talk to Miranda, about liara that is." Kasumi stood up, "I'll talk to you when you're not so philosophical and emoish." Shepard heard the whoosh of the door suspecting kasumi had let her self out leaving her alone once again. "Dammit." Shepard reeked of liquor, she became disgusted with her self. She stripped naked and walked to the bathroom she turned her shower water on hot, hoping to steam away her demons. Shepard hung her head in shame while the water poured over her sore muscular body. "Commander?" Ringed the AI, edi. Shepard groaned. "Yes?"
The AI took a while to answer, "operative lawson would like to come in, do you give her access?" Shepard turned off the shower, drying off quickly and changing into some gym shorts and a Cerberus thermal, it was night time on the Normandy and everyone had been asleep, of course not Miranda. "Let her in." Shepard said exiting the bathroom, she walked down the stairs to her bedroom area before The doors swooshed open revealing the operative in not her usual attire. She was wearing a Cerberus gown and rainbow fluffy bedroom shoes. Shepard sat on her bed looking up at the operative. "Lawson? Something you need?" Miranda nodded, her hands were still behind her back. "just checking on you before bed." Shepard smiled, something about Miranda just made her wanna hug her and keep her safe. "Is that really what you came for lawson?" Miranda smiled, "I…no. I just wanted to thank you for saving my sister again." Miranda brought her hands in front of her, she held a raggedy old falling apart at the seams teddy bear. "I know this is weird and very unprofessional…but this is Humphrey Horace. My teddy as a little girl, he helped me sleep and kept me safe from my father, I talked to him all the time and told him secrets…" Miranda blushed, "this is kinda embarrassing but…I still talk to him to this day. And I want you to have him. To help you." Shepard snickered, Miranda's the most adorable thing she has ever seen right now. Shepard took the bear gently, it had different color, blue and red,button eyes one hanging out on a string, it was dark brown and all stitched up, it had character it had been through a lot. "It reminds me of you." Miranda said softly, Shepard smiled. "I love it Miranda, thanks, but I can't keep it, it obviously means a lot to you." Miranda shook her head with a grin, "no…I have oriana…" Miranda blushed slightly, "and you in a way…like a friend." Shepard stood up and walked to Miranda. "So I'm your Humphrey now?" Shepard teased.
"Well…yes. Yes, you keep me safe, you always interrupt me from work so we can have our childish pointless conversations, and I feel like I can tell you anything." Shepard smiled, "what's your favorite color?" Miranda tittered, "really?" Shepard leaned closer, "alright real question, can I kiss you?" Miranda smiled and laid a finger on Shepard's lips, "goodnight Ellie." Miranda winked, swaying her hips as she walked out the door. Shepard plopped down on her bed with a goofy smile on her face, "…curse her and things she makes me feel." Shepard looked over, there was the old bear sitting with slouch beside her, she picked it up with care. "Well it's just you and me…you're kinda cute for a raggedy old bear, so about those secrets lawson told you." The bear stared "…and I'm talking to a bear," Shepard laughed. "How'd Miranda just talk to like its nothing? It's insane…but adorable." Shepard crawled into bed with Humphrey beside her, "lights off." The lights turned off one by one, the only light that was left was the blue calm illumination of the fish tank.
"So what's this about flaying people with your mind?" Shepard smiled, liara turned around, "Ellie I…" liara ran up Shepard and gave her big hug, "I thought…" she bit her lip told back the tears. "I can't believe you're here… I mean I knew you were alive but…I am so glad to see you." Shepard smiled her legendary smile. "Wow…li, I…" liara smiled so bright her face might have cracked, "I just…. I can't explain this feeling! It's like…I don't even know." Shepard chuckled, "joy? Happy?" Liara pulled Shepard by the shoulders and crushed her lips to hers, liara slid in her tongue and battled Shepard's, but she pulled away. "I can't…Ellie I just have something's to work out before we talk any longer." Shepard raised a brow, "what?" Liara placed a hand on her forehead, " just go. Please." Shepard shook her head and stomped out her office. A crew in tow. "Do you see how fucked up my life is?" Shepard yelled, kasumi threw her hands up, "what. The. Hell. Well that's women for you Shep they're a mystery and you just got to figure out the case." Shepard didnt care what fuck liara was, asari, book, toilet. There was no excuse to why she would kiss her and throw her out. "Fuck you goto."
Sender: Liara t'soni
Recipient: Miranda lawson
Operative lawson would you please inform Shepard I need her help and will be a boarding the Normandy tomorrow, I'm afraid she has blocked off all contact from me."
From, LT.
Sender: Miranda lawson
Recipient: Liara T'soni
I'm afraid I cannot do that. Have a nice day.
Love, ML.
Sender: liara t'soni
Recipient: Miranda lawson
Excuse me, but I'm pretty sure you have no involuntary control over commander.
From liara, with love.
Sender:Miranda lawson
Recipient: liara
I hate to be that guy to point this out to you, but with all due respect of course there's a reason there's a block list and friends list.
Xoxox, Miri.
Sender: liara t'soni
Recipient: Miranda lawson
I see…well I hope you know that there is a difference also between a hit list and a friends list and you are smart so I suppose you would know which one i will put your sister on if you do not give Shepard the essential information that I have passed on to you and please save us both some time and do not test me.
Heart, liara.
Sender: Miranda
Recipient: liara t'soni
Don't you dare touch her! I will have you dead in the next five seconds if you touch a hair on her head! I swear I personally will put the bullet right between your eyes."
From, Miranda.
No reply.
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