It Was Worth It In The End
By Jiberty Fan
Author's Notes: If I owned "Degrassi" Declan and Holly J would be the power couple that they are and deserve to be and running "DegrassI" during their senior year. They also wouldn't be "On A Break." I liked having Holly J work at the Dot because there is more room for storylines and so she's not working at the country western restaurant. This takes place after Holly J and Declan's break up and is set during this season's current storylines. As far as writing fanfic goes, I am more concerned with content than I am with the length of a chapter or chapters. The character's thoughts are Italics. I own nothing. Please read and review.
Holly J sighed after another long day at Degrassi. Senior year wasn't supposed to be like this. Yeah, that's the understatement of the year. Now because Sav and I acted foolishly during Vegas night we all now have to wear uniforms all the time at school. You're not entirely to blame. I did play a role in all of this. Stop beating yourself up over that. You've always been too hard on yourself. She tried hard to keep all of her memories of Declan from her mind. This idea of going on a break wasn't all it's cracked up to be now was it?
"Earth to Holly J!"
"What is it Sav?"
"Are you alright? Your mind seems to be elsewhere. I never thought that I'd say that about you."
Holly swallowed a sigh and tried to pay attention to Sav. He was her boyfriend after all and he deserved her attention.
"There's just a lot on my mind lately."
"What is it? I'm sure you've got some ideas about what to do about Degrassi being turned into a police state by Principal Simpson."
You wouldn't want to know and you wouldn't understand. He's just trying to help you out and you won't let him in. You can't or you won't? Both. Thinking about your ex when you're with your current boyfriend, that's not good. What else can go wrong today?
"Come on Holly J, I was just trying to lighten the mood. You seem so distant today."
"I know you were just trying your best to try and make me smile."
"You take everything so seriously, lighten up."
That's easy for you to say, Sav; you don't have to worry about money.
"It's just been a long day, that's all." Let's try a long few weeks. "Oh, no, I'm going to be late for work."
"Peter won't care Holly J."
"Yes, but, I care. I've got to go."
"Do you want me to give you a ride? It's the least I can do after all that you've done to help me with student council."
"No, I need some time to think right now." That's probably the most honest thing you've said to Sav since you started dating. Holly J left Sav with no kiss goodbye.
After leaving Degrassi Holly J feels the rain starting to drizzle. This is just great it's raining and I am running late. Holly J thought about calling Fiona for a ride since her mother had the car today. She quickly decided against that idea. I can't expect a Coyne to be around to bail me out all the time. You made that real clear remember the last time you saw Declan? Their fight still hurt like a fresh wound like it happened just yesterday.
Holly J isn't paying much attention to what is going on around her and is almost off of school grounds when she sees car that she recognizes but doesn't expect to see. The government plates are a dead giveaway. She secretly hoped that it was Fiona in the car but, given how things have gone of late she just knew that she wasn't about to get her wish. The door opened and Holly J got her answer.
"Where are you going in the rain Holly J? Declan saw Holly J and almost gasped not from her beauty but, from the fact that there was no glow in her cheeks or light in her eyes. She looked emotionally drained. He also realized that his face and the look in her eyes mirrored his.
"I come in peace, please. Just let me take you to where you need to go." Holly J hesitates for a second. She sighs.
"Alright, just to The Dot." There was no change in her tone which Declan noticed.
Holly J wants answers as to what Declan is doing back at Degrassi but isn't sure that she will want to hear what he has to say. There is an uneasy silence.
"What are you doing here Declan?"
"I'm here for Fiona, that's all." Well that's part of the truth at least.
"That's all?"
"Yes and I'm really sorry about pushing that money on you like that. It's just that's how I was taught to fix problems. If you throw enough money at a problem it will disappear or so my family thinks."
"Do we have to talk about this now?"
"When do you suggest we talk about this?"
Holly J sighed and gave up. She knew Declan won this time.
"I just wanted you to have the very best, only the very best for my girl. That's all."
"It's okay. You just wanted what was best for me no matter how over-the-top it was. You were a real prince charming." Declan's heart soared for a second and then he realized that there was still no light in her eyes and the sadness he saw just wasn't going away from her face.
"What's wrong Holly J?"
"What makes you think something is wrong with me?"
"The Holly J I know lights up any room that she's in and you didn't fight with me."
"I'm too tired to fight right now."
"Can we start over please? I want to be your prince charming and everything else that you expect me to be."
"It's complicated."
"You're worth it. Define complicated for me."
Well, he asked you a question.
"I am dating Sav right now." From the tone of Holly J's voice Declan knew this wasn't a joke even if it sounded like one.
"It must not be serious then."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You don't look like someone who's in love. He's probably a warm body to you and he can't make your heart race and make you feel all flustered and tingling just from his touch. Sav seems like a nice guy, but, trust me you're going to get bored if you're not already."
"Sav and I are doing just fine and are happy, Mr. Relationship Expert."
"Since when does doing just fine ever satisfy you? Do I have to spell it all out for you? I still love you and only you." With those simple words, Declan leaned in and gave Holly J a kiss. After Declan saw that she made no effort to pull away from him, he deepened the kiss. Declan heard a satisfied sigh from Holly J which made him never want to stop kissing her.
Holly J broke the kiss.
"Oh, great now look what I've done. What am I supposed to do now? Wow, I ever know how to complicate things!" Holly J put her head in her hands.
"What's so complicated? I want you and I can tell that you want me too."
"What makes you so sure of that?"
"You let me kiss you and made no effort to stop me once we started kissing."
"I thought that you would get over me. "
"So you tried to move on with Sav?" It took a bit for Declan to wrap his head around that idea.
"Yeah, I didn't mean to hurt anyone including Sav."
"That was inevitable, Holly J. So we will get to be the subject of high school gossip for a bit. We can deal with it. Bring it on. Sav isn't a child he can deal with a break up."
"What did I do to deserve you Declan?" Holly gave him a real smile for the first time.
"I was going to ask you the same thing."
"We're here and you're late today for work. I am sorry it won't happen again. "
"We got a little distracted."
"Don't worry it was all worth it in the end."
"I can get you a doctor's note Holly J."
"I know you could. You look adorable just sitting here looking so worried about me. You could come watch me work again. "
"That's a tempting offer, but not today after you're late for work because of me."
Holly J kissed Declan again before going into the Dot for what was left of her shift.
The End Of Chapter One. To Be Continued…
