BPOV
"Bella that does it, you're going to Jacksonville. I cannot take it anymore. He is not coming back. You don't do anything and I don't know what to do with you. Maybe your mom will have better luck than me… at getting you to do something," Charlie said, slamming his hands on the table.
I just sat there stunned. "You don't want me here anymore?" I asked, not sure want to think. Did no one want me? First Edward didn't want me and now my dad wants me to leave. Would my mother think the same?
"Right now, no… I don't want you here. It's not healthy for you to live like this Bella. You need to move on and you can't seem to be able to do that here. I already talk to your mother about this. The plane leaves in two days, so I suggest you start packing.," Charlie said, calmly.
Two days later, I'm on a plane to Jacksonville. When I go there, my mom tried everything to make me happy, but all I could think about was Edward.
Then after about four months of being there, Ian comes in to my room.
Ian is my older brother. We look almost exactly the same – minus the seven inch height difference and his body builder physique. Oh and not to mention the fact that he was a vampire.
"Ian" I yelled, as I ran to hug him. I missed him so much!
"Bells, it's so nice to see you smiling! I've been watching you since you've gotten here. Now tell me what has you so sad? I can't take it anymore; seeing you so sad." Ian said, picking me up and sitting us down on the bed.
I sat there on his lap and told him everything. About the Cullen's, the first time I saw him, and then when he left me in the forest. Ian growled when I told him about James. He grabbed my hand and looked down at my scar, tracing it with his index finger. He wiped my tears away when I got to the end.
"Bella I should have been there for you. Can you ever forgive me? I have been a horrible big brother to you. I wasn't there for you when you need me the most. It's my job to look after you and I failed" Ian said as he rocked me back and forth as he dry sobbed.
"Ian I don't blame you at all," I said as I tried to calm him down. Thankfully my mother was at Phil's game and I didn't have to worry about her walking in and finding us in tears. "Hey Ian do you remember that song we used to sing to cheer each other up when we where sad?" I suddenly asked.
"Bells of course I remember that song, I taught it to you" Ian said laughing at me. We stared to sing:
Chiquitita, tell me what's wrong
You're enchained by your own sorrow,
In your eyes there is no hope for tomorrow,
How I hate to see you like this,
There is no way you can deny it,
I can see that you're oh so sad, so quiet.
Chiquitita, tell me the truth,
I'm a shoulder you can cry on,
Your best friend, I'm the one you must rely on,
You were always sure of yourself,
Now I see you've broken a feather,
I hope we can patch it up together.
Chiquitita, you and I know,
How the heartaches come and they go, and the scars they're leaving,
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end,
You will have no time for grieving,
Chiquitita, you and I cry,
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you,
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before,
Sing a new song, Chiquitita,
Try once more like you did before,
Sing a new song, Chiquitita.
So the walls came tumbling down
And your love's a blown out candle,
All is gone and it seems too hard to handle,
Chiquitita, tell me the truth,
There is no way you can deny it,
I see that you're oh so sad, so quiet.
Chiquitita, you and I know,
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving,
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end,
You will have no time for grieving,
Chiquitita, you and I cry,
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you,
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before,
Sing a new song, Chiquitita,
Try once more like you did before,
Sing a new song, Chiquitita,
Try once more like you did before,
Sing a new song, Chiquitita.
"Bells get some sleep. I will be here when you wake up and then we will talk about you becoming a vampire." Ian said as he tucked me in to bed. Soon I fell into my first dreamless sleep in months.
True to his word Ian was still here when I woke up, sitting at my desk writing something. "Morning Bells" Ian said without turning around.
"Morning Ian" I replied, stretching as I got out of bed. "What are you writing?" I said, looking over his shoulder.
"Just writing a song. It's a great way to get your feelings out. You should try it; it will make you feel better." Ian said not looking up. "By the way you are going to meet the rest of the coven today. Well you already know Pam, but there are two more to meet, my mate and Pam's mate.
"Why didn't Pam come with you?" I asked.
"I wouldn't let her; I wanted to see my baby sis by myself." Ian said as he turned around look at me.
Pam was my favorite cousin, and the reason I hated shopping with Alice. Once you go shopping with Pam, there is no comparison. She was slightly taller than I, with very long curly black hair.
"When are we going to see them?" I asked excitedly.
"Well you might want to get dressed, eat and tell mom you are going out so she doesn't worry about you." Ian said, laughing. I and ran into the bathroom to get ready. Once I was ready, I quickly ate and left a note for Renee. I went upstairs to get my shoes and find out from Ian how we were going to work this.
"Ok Bells thankfully it's cloudy today, so I will meet you in your car and I'll tell you where we are going." Ian said, as he stood up.
I ran and got in my car. Renee and Phil had bought me a black 1970 Shelby Cobra GT500. It may be old but it runs better than my truck did, and I love it. Sure enough when I got in, Ian was laughing his ass off.
"What's so funny?" I asked.
"I can't believe they bought this car for you! Do you remember what my first car was?" Ian replied when he calmed down. That had me laughing as well. I had comply forgotten that Ian's first car was a 1970 Shelby Cobra GT500. They had gotten me an exact replica of his first car. I don't know how I could have forgotten I loved that car.
After about twenty minutes, we were at his house. It was nothing special, just a nice farmhouse right outside of the city.
As soon as I stepped out of the car, I'm in Pam's arms and she is rocking me back and forth, dry sobbing. "Bella I missed you so much! Ian told us everything last night while you were sleeping. We should have been there for you. I'm so sorry we didn't know!" Pam said still dry sobbing as she rubbed my back.
"Pam, it's ok. I'm not mad at you or Ian. So, who did you meet and when are you going to take me shopping?" I asked trying to calm her down. "Shopping with anyone else is no fun," I said pretending to pout. That got Pam laughing.
"Ok after you meet everyone else. You, Sophie, and I will go shopping." She said, ruffling my hair.
As we walked inside, I noticed two vampires I had never seen before. Probably the one's Ian had mentioned last night.
The man was at least six inches taller than Ian, with olive skin and long red hair pulled into a low ponytail. He was slender, but you could still see his muscles under his thin black sweater.
Standing next to him, bouncing up and down, was a short, blond vampire that could easily put Rosalie to shame – in the looks department anyway. Her energy on the other had could give Alice a run for her money.
"This is Jason and Sophie. I'm married to Jason and Sophie is married to your brother" Pam said.
"Before you guys run off shopping, don't you think we should talk about Bella becoming a vampire? And where we are going to live next?" Ian said, behind me.
"You are not joking about me becoming a vampire are you?" I asked, turning around to look at him.
Before I could blink, Ian grabs me around the waist and stares me straight in the eyes. "I'm only going to say this once, so I suggest you listen closely. I am not joking, pulling your leg, or messing with you in any way. I missed my baby sis like crazy and there is no way I am about to lose you again, got it? Besides, I always thought you wanted to become a vampire?" He growled, his gold eyes darkening.
"I made a promise to you a long time ago, that I would never play head games with you and that I'd never lie to you or hurt you in any way. Do you remember that promise?"
"Yes, I remember that promise," I quietly said.
"Good" Ian said, removing his arms as he kissed my forehead. "Now then let's go into the living room and figure this out," he said as he calmed down.
The living room was open and full of dark earthy colors. In the center of the room were three large, dark leather couches. Ian put one arm around me and the other around Sophie as we sat down. Pam sat on the couch next to us curled into Jason's side.
"So how are we going to work this? Death? Runaway? Leave and never keeps in touch or just disappear?" Jason asked, pulling pen and paper out of his pocket.
"Death is out of the question. It would kill both Renee and Charlie," Ian said.
"Well they won't like any of them….but you are right; the other choices will still gives them hope that Bella will come back. Of course she won't, but the heart ache is less." Jason said, running his hand through his hair.
"I say no to leaving and never keeping in touch. That will take too long. Bella has to move out, which she doesn't have the money for. I don't want to wait that long for her to be changed." Pam whined.
"Why don't I just write a note and leave tonight?" I asked.
"That's a good idea Bells. Write the note and by tomorrow afternoon, you'll be going through the change." Ian said, ruffling my hair.
Pam was suddenly in front of me with a pen and paper. "Here you go. We can help you with the note."
I thought carefully about what to write before quickly writing something down.
"How does this sound?" I asked.
Mom,
I can't take it anymore. You and dad both want me to be happy, but how can I do that with someone constantly watching every move I make? I'm leaving, so I can finally heal and live my own life. So this is good bye, I don't want you to worry about me; I will be fine. I love you, both of you. Even if he didn't want me there anymore.
Love, Bella
"That's good Bells," Ian said. "Ok next matter at hand - where will we move?"
"Somewhere far away from people, with plenty of animals around!" Sophie said. "What about the cabin up in Michigan?"
"I guess that'll work. We should probably go shopping – since it'll be Bella's last trip for a while." Pam said, jumping off the couch.
Shopping with Pam and Sophie was so much fun. I wasn't forced buy or try something on I didn't like. After spending about three hours running around the mall, we went back to the farmhouse so I could hop in the car and drive home.
That night when everyone was in bed, I put the note on the counter and slipped quietly out the door with a small red bag.
Ian and Pam were waiting in the car for me. The car ride over to the farmhouse was rather quiet.
Pam grabbed my bag as we got out, giving my brother and I a moment to our selves. "Are you sure you want to do this Bella?" I nodded and he continued. "When I bite you, we're going to pump your body full of morphine to help ease the pain."
"I love you Bells," He said hugging me tightly. Then I felt his teeth against my neck, before I felt the sharp pain as he sank his teeth deep within my flesh.
AN: The song used in this chapter is ABBA : Chiquitita. And I would like to thank
