Hey y'all! This is my first fan fiction so lay off me! Don't be hurtful, be critical please. I tried a lot and wrote for hours on end. It's not too long, but the next one will be longer. I'll update over Christmas break when there's no school and there's no fucking school projects. I swear teachers schedule them together! But anyways, read this and while I typed it I listened to Nirvana. It's a great band. Listen to All Apologies that's my favourite one. Just listen to them all, I'm obsessed with them! So read loves and review for some freshly baked cookies!

~Alice's P.O.V~

I should have never trusted Hamish. He is a bastard. He lied to me.

Where we pick this story up, I've wondered about for years. I sit and look at myself, wondering why? Wonderland should have been good for me.

Everyone in town knows what I did. They laugh at me, some look in disgust.

What exactly did I do?

Well, after I slayed the Jabberwocky, and proved myself the "real Alice", I returned from Wonderland with a heavy heart. For kneeling Hamish asking my hand, was more than an apparition. Poor, awkward Hamish stood there wondering why I fled that gazebo.

His blue eyes remained wide open, treasuring my presence. I wasn't deserving of his gaze. I remember looking into those dull blue eyes and saw a feeling in them. Almost like hunger.

My love for him didn't exist, as it never would.

My gut was telling me to say yes, but my heart disagreed.

Maybe my love would suddenly appear out of nowhere as I overlooked my family, and finally saw that spark with him.

It's never too late to try.

"Hamish."

He tried to smile.

I'm so sorry.

"Yes." So, so sorry.

The gazebo shook with applause. My sister looked proud, as if her advice had worked its way into my brain. Others looked.

They knew.

I avoided all gaze.

I never knew I could kill a heart so easily.

From then on I knew what it was going to come to.

Hamish and I never truly had love. I evaded him for months, so he wouldn't touch me. Lies could only go so far. But Hamish can be persuasive, forceful.

Nothing could sting worse than his tough love.

Before this time, my flesh was that of a porcelain doll.

Pale, flawless, delicate.

Now it lay riddled with welts. This was my doing. I had never been honest.

What if I hadn't followed my gut but my heart at that gazebo?

This is why I'm going to Wonderland. Something went wrong last time. The smoggy abyss lay ahead of me. The soil feels cold and spongy between my toes. I sensed a familiar presence. The slimy pink bushes rustled. Is it possible?

"Hatter?"

Dun dun dun! Haha crazy cliff hanger right? Ha the next chapter will be really long, plus there will be lots of P.O.V's from lots of different people including Hatter, and some other characters I added. Review for some delicious cookies!