I'm leaving tonight. Heading for greater good with my only other love who is living. I'm leaving him, my one true love. He finds my sister more attractive than his own fiancée. I guess it isn't love to him. It is to me. I pack my handbag – I won't need much. Just a picture of my parents, a picture of grandma and my snowglobe. I put on my angel necklace. I take one look into the kitchen. They still kiss. Oblivion.
I'm leaving tonight. I drive up the dirt track. Through the dark trees. I left a note. He might come after me. I stare through the window – it is dark. I stop the car and stand. I watch the sea. My eyes are misty. A chilly breeze. Breathe. Deep breath. I move forward slowly. I face the car. The lights are on. I see her. She's asleep, oblivious. I let myself fall. The frozen air hits me. Darkness.
I'm leaving tonight. I'm waiting here. Cold. Silent. Where is he? Why isn't he here? The waves crash against the rocks. I shiver – alone. My breath catches at the back of my throat as I try to see into the darkness. I heard footsteps on the sand. I spin my head around. Nothing. I let a tear drip and trickle down my breath. My breath is visible in the extreme cold. I look up. The cliff top… Nobody came. Nobody cared. This is my final destination. My breath is shaky. My legs are numb, bent in ways unnatural. I smile, it isn't long now. It'll end soon. He doesn't care. He's with her. He can have Dina. He can live his live now, now I'm not there.
I'm leaving tonight. My eyes close. My last breath is upon me. "Diannah…" My last word. I think of her. In the car. Blanket on, fast asleep. My last breath. Ragged. Strained. Cold. And then darkness, as the sea crashes onto the rocks and over my lying form. Darkness.
I'm leaving tonight. Goodbye.
