Alright so this is my first ever CSI fic, I've written lots of Greys Anatomy fics on other sites and 2 here, but I have decided that I can't stand watching Catherine and Grissom not get together anymore. So I have decided that I will have to bring them together in my own fic.
WARNING THIS FIC WILL BE VERY MATURE, NOT SUITABLE FOR ANYONE UNDER 18.
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Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
I watched her sitting at her desk head in her hands, and could tell by her demeanor that she was crying. I know this case was taking it's toll on her, she was attached emotionally and physically. I understand as it was tough on all of them, but this one was really hitting home for Catherine, it was a young girl been raped and beaten by someone she trusted and he could see it in Catherine that she was taking it to heart. I hate seeing her like this and not being able to hold her in my arms and let her know it will all be okay, and I know what I'm about to do is going to kill her but I don't have a choice, she needed to be removed from this case, for the best interest of the case as well as herself. Unsure of how she would react I decide to stand outside her office a bit longer, even after all these years, and even after the last few months and how much they've drifted apart I still know her well enough to know that if I don't intervene this case would ruin her, she would self-destruct and I can't NO I WON'T allow that to happen. Sighing I finally knocked on the door hearing her shuffle around.
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one
I felt my chest tighten and my eyes water as I was looking over the evidence trying to find something, anything to give us a clue as to who did this to this young girl, and I couldn't breathe anymore I had to get out of there. I excused myself looking at Warrick who looked concerned but didn't say anything, I walked down the hall everything around me a blur hearing the click clack of my shoes finally I made it to my office shutting the door leaning against it I broke down crying. Finally I made it to my desk and buried my face in my hands as the tears streamed down my cheeks, as I remembered my days as a stripper, excuse me an exotic dancer, remembering all the creeps and things that happened to me. Remembering my rape, and beating, but lucky for me I am still alive, unlike Marisole Evans, she was not so lucky. A case hasn't gotten to me like this in a long time, but she reminded me so much of me when I was her age, usually when a case gets this bad Gil is always there, he used to be anyways that was before Sam, before Sara, before everything in our friendship fell apart, before he stopped being there, my rock, my saviour. Thoughts of Gil only made it harder on me and felt my eyes stinging as I continued to cry harder. Suddenly I heard a knock at my door and it startled me as I jumped slightly, quickly wipe my eyes in hopes to cover up the tears that I have shed and grab some paper work pretending to be busy clearing my throat I finally respond.
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
Catherine: Uhm come in
Gil: Hey Cath
She looked startled when she heard my voice as if she wasn't expecting me to open the door. She looked at me and I could see the pain in her eyes, her once sparkling and bright blue eyes have now turned dark and gloomy it's killing me to know that she's been going through a lot lately and I haven't been there for her. Her best friend and I haven't been there, some friend I turned out to be.
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Catherine: Gil uhm how are you?
Gil: I just wanted to see how you were doing?
Catherine: I'm fine I was just.
I looked at him knowing that he knew that was bull shit anyone who knew me could tell I was lying through my teeth I'm not fine, but I will be I just need some time. I watched him walk closer to me seeing his hand reach out for mine, instinctively I pulled away, how dare he come in now? Now where was he when Sam died, where was he before? He hasn't been there he's been so pre occupied with Sara, but now that she's gone he has time for me no it doesn't work like that.
And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
Looking at her I know I had done something wrong, I didn't know what to do, I wanted to reach out to her, let her know that I was here for her now and forever. I guess I should have known that she didn't want to be touched I haven't been there for her in awhile especially when she needed me the most.
Gil: Catherine
Catherine: Just don't Gil…Don't
Gil: I want to help you Catherine
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised
As soon as I heard his words, he wants to help now he wants to help..HA it's only because he doesn't want this case to go unsolved, he doesn't want anything to happen to the case or his precious lab that's why he wants to help. I felt the anger boil inside me as I glared at him.
Catherine: HA you want to help
Gil: Ye….
Catherine: NO YOU DON'T GET TO HELP….YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT YOUR PRECIOUS LAB AND THIS CASE YOU DON'T WANT TO HELP ME.
And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
The words she yelled at him cut him like a knife how could she think that I only care about this case and the lab, she's my best friend and I know she's hurting I can see it in her. I walked over to her trying to get her to look at me and see that I care I care about her, that I love her and always have, that I need her to be okay because without her I don't know who I am and if anything happens to her I don't know if I'll be okay.
Gil: Catherine that's not true…please just stop and listen to me
Gently kiss your fears away
You can turn to me and cry
I pushed him away from me the anger still there I can feel my ears burning feeling myself ready to explode.
Catherine: I have to get back to this case
Always understand that I
Give you all I am inside
Hearing those words I knew what I had to do, and this was going to make her angrier at me but I have to take care of her, I have to because I can't watch this anymore I can't watch this tear her up inside and eat away at her I can't and I won't.
Gil: No Catherine your off this case
Catherine: NO GIL YOU CAN'T DO THAT…THIS IS MY CASE AND YOUR NOT MY SUPERVISOR ANYMORE YOU DON'T MAKE THAT CALL ON ME ANYMORE.
Gil: Catherine this is not me asking this is me telling you, your off this case. Nick and Warrick can handle it, I'll lend them Greg to help out if they need it, but you Catherine this is to close for you it's tearing you up inside you need to back off and take some time why don't you go home and be with Lindsey. I can't stand by and watch you do this to yourself Catherine I'm sorry but this is the best thing for you.
Catherine: The best thing for me….NO IT'S THE BEST THING FOR YOUR DAMN LAB…YOU KNOW WHAT GIL STOP THIS PRETENDING TO CARE ATTITUDE YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME SO JUST STOP. FINE YOU WANT ME GONE THEN I'M GONE.
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
I turn to grab my stuff and felt him right behind me feeling his arms wrap tightly around me, feeling his breath on my neck as I tried to fight him. Finally he let go knowing and sensing my anger.
Gil: Catherine I don't want you gone, and how can you think I only care about the lab you're my best friend and I care about you Catherine.
Catherine: YOU CARE ABOUT ME THEN WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU WHEN EDDIE DIED? AND HOW COULD YOU RIDICULE ME ABOUT CASHING A CHEQUE FROM MY FATHER, YOU ONLY CARED ABOUT YOUR DAMN LAB AND WHEN YOU FOUND OUT SAM BRAUN WAS MY FATHER I WAS NO LONGER CATHERINE WILLOWS YOUR BEST FRIEND FOR THE LAST 20 YEARS BUT THE DAUGHTER OF THE ONE MAN YOU DESPISED IN THIS WORLD. YOU WEREN'T THERE FOR ME ANYMORE AND THEN SARA YOU WERE WITH SARA AND I NO LONGER MATTERED AND SAM DIED HE DIED IN MY ARMS MY FATHER DIED IN MY ARMS AND YOU STILL WEREN'T THERE. YOU ARE A…A I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE BUT YOU NO LONGER CARED ABOUT ME THE DAY YOU FOUND OUT I WAS THE DAUGHTER OF SAM BRAUN. SO FUCK YOU GIL YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME.
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
Listening to what she said killed me I love this woman more then life itself, I would do anything for her, I want nothing more in this world then to see her happy. I can't believe she feels that I despised her because of who her father was, of course it shocked me to find out and I know I gave her a hard time about the money, but never never did I mean that I didn't love her or care about her anymore. Oh god what have I done to her, and Sara she keeps bringing her up? Why does she care that I was with Sara. God what have I done. I can't lose her I just can't. Feeling all the love I have for her, the love that has built up over the last 20 years I found myself walking over to her as I saw her run for the door, grabbing her I turn her around pressing my lips tightly against hers pressing my body against hers, wanting to feel her close to me. Her lips were soft and sweet with a taste I can't even describe right now. I felt her fight me at first, then slowly open her mouth granting my tongue the access it needed to explore hers, feeling her arms wrap around my neck pulling me closer kissing me back. Can this be happening is she really kissing me back, my Catherine the love of my life is actually kissing me back, my mind was all over the place this was unbelievable. The feeling of her lips, the way she tasted, the way her body molded into mine was everything I dreamed it would be and more.
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
I felt him run after me turn me around and press his lips tightly against mine, pressing his body against mines, feeling him against mine, sent waves of electricity through me, his lips were soft and I could feel the tenderness and need in his kiss, I slowly opened my mouth granting him the access he needed feeling his tongue intertwine with mine, sent me over the edge I moaned slightly in his mouth. The kiss of a lifetime, the kiss that I've waited the last 20 years for was finally happening, a kiss that I have waited for a lifetime to happen, the one that made me forget the rest of the world, the one that sent me into pure bliss a kiss full of love. This was more then just a kiss to her this was the coming together of the love her love, the only man that she wanted to kiss, the one she wants to spend the rest of her life kissing. All her anger slowly melted away as she lost herself in his kiss, lost herself in him. I pulled him closer to me wanting our bodies to be as one wanting to be as close to him as possible never wanting this moment to end. Finally I felt him pull back breathing heavily, both of us were left breathless. Looking deeply into his eyes I saw the love he had for me.
Gil: I love you Catherine
Catherine: I love you to
With that being said his lips were ravishing hers again neither wanting to break apart, and neither sure what was going to happen next, neither caring only wanting to live in the moment they were in right then in there.
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
