I didn't understand how it could happen. How we could go from our imperfect perfection to torn apart in a matter of days. How what we had so carefully constructed could fall apart so quickly as if we had spent no time at all building it up.
We were never perfect, but we worked better than anyone we knew. I never completely understood how you could feel the way you did no matter how many times you explained it to me. My heart, which was normally guarded, was wide open to you. That will never happen again because now it is nothing more than a crumpled piece of paper.
I was torn apart, broken inside. You, on the other hand, looked like nothing had happened. Being the idiot I am, I put on the bravest face I could and treated you worse than everyone else. I watched you enjoy the world while mine was burning down; that is what hurt the most.
When I finally got my ray of sunshine in all the darkness, you caused a hurricane. You tried to kiss someone else. I thought maybe I was starting to feel better, get some kindness back into my heart, but if all fell the second you leaned in.
I gave up the performance of a lifetime for someone I was barely even friends with. Your only response to my not so random act of kindness was a smile. That smile gave me hope that we would get back together.
Now I am waiting for the day that you may return to me. I hope that you will take the paper that is my heart and smooth out the bumps and crinkles. My heart may never heal the damage, but it could if only you were the one to fix it.
I may not be there anymore, but I do still love you. That is why I hope you find this when it is too late. If you knew and still nothing happened I would end up much worse. Just know that I am gone, but I am happy now. I am probably reliving old memories, my favorite and my least favorite. Know that all of these memories are of you.
I am starting to feel the pills kick in. I am surprised I have lasted this long. Goodbye, I love yo-
A/N: This is just an idea that popped into my head. I haven't written anything on here in a while. Please tell me what you think. Reviews are much appreciated.
