Before reading: This may confuse you but, each chapter is going to be a personal tape where each character confesses something. I think it makes the theme of this story a lot better and interesting. I hope you enjoy this.
Brittany.
Confessing
Interview #1 Summer Finn:
I confess, I'm messed up. There, I said it. Even worst, I confess, I messed up. Go ahead, say what you have to say. I know you already read me like a book. You pretty much know everything about me. I mean I didn't even mention my name and you already probably know who I am. But all I can ask for is to let me explain, my side of the story. Not Tom's.
My name is Summer Finn. Yes I know, what kind of name is Summer. You're probably thinking, where you're parents green-smoking hippies? Well, I can't actually answer that but, all I can say is, I kind of like my name. It's different and, well… if you did noticed yet, I'm pretty different.
Now, what do I mean by different? Not by the way I look but, the way I look at things. I was always different as a child, more a rebel, I guess. I don't believe in stupid things. I am my own person. I live by my own rules. I could never stay with one idea; one plan, for the rest of my life. That's why I moved to L.A. That's how I meted Tom. I mean, no one plans to be a greeting card writer. It just happens.
I remember the first day I talked to Tom; on the elevator going home. He was listening to The Smiths, My favorite band. I remember the music thumping out of his headphones. The beat hit my ears, and my heart pounded. HOLY SHIT! I KNOW THAT SONG, I told myself.
"I love The Smiths".
"Sorry?"
"I said, I love The Smiths".
"You, you… like The Smiths?"
"To die by your side, such a heavenly way to die".
The face he gave me, when I told him I liked The Smiths, showed total shocked. Wow, a girl liked a band like The Smiths, shocker. Not like I'm the only girl who does. But, it made me giggle. Was it that uncommon? But I have to admit, he was adorable. The dimple he had when he smiled. Or the gorgeous brown eyes that sparkled in the light. Just thinking of it still puts butterflies in my stomach. If only… never-mind.
Here's another confession. I am never quite sure of the path I take. Once I take it, I always regret something. I am never sure if I made the right choice of not marrying Tom. I always think of what it would be like being Mrs. Tom Hansen. I always wonder what if he would take me back. After all the things I did to him, I would be shocked if he did. I wouldn't if I was him. I would just enjoy my life with my new partner. What's her name again? Autumn? HA- HA. You have to be me kidding me. Are you serious? Her name is Autumn…. Oh my god, who's next, Winter, then Spring? Does the kid have a thing for seasons?
Okay, enough of that but, honestly, not everything is entirely my fault… maybe you should get Tom to do some of these confessions too. I bet he has tons. But then again I promised to go first, so I'll end with one more confession.
I confess I still have feelings for Tom. There I said it. It's off my shoulders. Tom opened up the believing in love, to me. Without him I would still be empty hearted. And I can't wait for him to see this tape. So he can see that it's true I still love him and, I always will.
