"How could I be so stupid? How could I let my guard down so easily? I need to leave, I don't care how much it's going to hurt everybody…I need air…" murmured Emily angrily. She was trying to run away from Morgan and hide her teary eyes. Nobody could ever know of her sorrows and regrets.
"Hey Em, are you okay? Aren't you happy for them?" asked Morgan smiling.
"Of course, I am, I'm just tired and you know emotional…It's that time of the month" replied quietly Emily.
"Don't worry, I get it TMI. Listen, why do you think it took JJ so long to accept his offer? She gave him two kids and is a mother. The only other person who can understand her prediction is Hotch, but he was married when Jack was born."
Emily stayed quiet, she could not let him in on her best guarded secret. Not now, not ever, he would only create more problems for her. "Maybe she didn't feel ready. Not every mother feels the need to marry the father of her child. That view is pretty paternalistic and obsolete".
"Why should it be a paternalistic view? Her kids deserve to have married parents. Maybe you see it differently because you come from a different life and social condition. You grew up rich and never wanting for anything, why don't you go fuck yourself and stop and get off your mighty horse for once." screamed Derek, getting flustered and angry with her subtle accusations.
"What do you really know? Only what I have let you see. Never talk about my past and presume of knowing everything. Just because two people have children, it doesn't mean that they are in love with each other…Go to hell!" she screamed and got up to leave. She never looked back to see him shaking his head, she just left the room and got up to go to the elevator. She even rejected the incoming call from London, she was in no mood to answer his request for her to move there and guide her own Interpol team. As soon as she got in, she called Alice telling her to go home without problems because she was going home and she would get Mckenzie from school. She was able to end the call before getting out of the elevator and crashing into Garcia.
"Hey Garcia! Where are you running of to?"
"Oh hey Emily! I am so excited, I ran down to call mrs Jareau and try to organize a surprise for JJ. She deserves it after everything. I am too busy right now. Sorry but I have to go. I am so so happy." She squealed, hugged Emily so tight she could hardly breath and left skipping inside the elevator.
Later that day she was spending the afternoon at the Natatorium Center in downtown Washington, cheering on for one of the girls from the Washington International School. At one point she got a call from David Rossi and had to leave the pool because of the noises.
"Why are you calling? Is something wrong? Do we need to come into work? Hotch promised us a free weekend" rambled Emily.
"No, no I was calling to ask your help. I am offering my home to Garcia and Sandy Jareau to surprise JJ and Will with a surprise wedding tomorrow."
"Oh, that is fantastic"
"Are you in bambina? Can you help us? You know Jennifer the best and could help us so much"
"Listen Dave, I am sorry, but I am busy right now and will be for today and tomorrow. I can't come and help you, I might be able to make it tomorrow night, but I can't promise you anything right now".
"Emily please, I know you think you are in love with JJ, but you don't understand that you would ruin her life, you are not made to be a mother, you told me the same after telling me about the abort in Rome. Please be careful! I will see you tomorrow." And he cut off the call before she could answer his horrible accusations.
She just decided to stop thinking about them and started to move back into the building when her phone started ringing again, she looked at the screen and saw that it was an incoming call from Easter. She decided to answer and explain to him that she could never jump on a plane and move to London, no she could never destroy her daughter's teenagerhood.
"Good afternoon Clyde, how can I help you?"
"You are a hard woman to find Emily, I have been calling you for a long time. I wanted to offer you a job, it comes with less field hours and a larger paycheck…"
"Clyde, I understand your offer, but I won't be moving to London! I cannot do it, not now and not ever! I am sorry but there are some complications, and I…"
"No, no you misunderstood. This time I am offering you to become the new director of the Washington office, you would report directly to the Attorney General. Less hours, a high salary. If you refuse this time, I don't know you."
"…"
"Emily? Are you still there?"
"Yes, sorry I zoned out. Are you freaking kidding me?"
"Of course not! I learnt of your nomination just yesterday and volunteered to call you to make the offer and tell you to report directly to the office next week and talk with the attorney. Emily this is humongous, it's really big. I know you love your team and enjoy working with them, but please…promise me you will think about it. It's a once in a lifetime opportunity. Listen I need to cut it short now, the job is calling. Have a nice weekend."
"By Clyde …" she started saying, but all she heard was the click on the other end.
She started walking back, while thinking about the offer, she started making a mental list on the pros and cons of it. Just as she sat down in the stands, she heard the speaker call for the 100m freestyle female 4th graders. That meant Mckenzie, so she stopped thinking too hard and enjoyed her baby's swim race. She must have been one of the loudest cheering parents, but she could not care less, and when her girl won she was so proud, that all her worries disappeared for a moment.
All her problems could wait till tomorrow, today she would spend it enjoying her family and her child's accomplishments. She started thinking how proud she was of Kenzie and how happy she was to have an opportunity of spending more time at home with her, maybe create a new life, who knew? But then she started imagining that she had Jenny with her and that would never become a reality now not unless….but she interrupted her train of thought to focus on the medal awarding of her beautiful angel and decided to let it go for now, she will think about everything later, right now there was only one priority and that was there standing on the highest podium smiling and waving at her
