I have been so frustrated lately. I can't seem to think straight. So I decided to use my frustration for a fic.

This is written in Hermione's POV and it takes place after the tournament. Cedric never died so AU. Also I fixed the age problem.

Disclaimer: If I owned Harry Potter than Cedric would have never died.

Not a chance

There he is again. Walking through the library. I drives me insane. The feeling I get around him. I hardly know him. I should not be allowed to like him this way. My diary is covered with his name. I have had dreams of him almost every night. That fuzzy feeling that gives me chills every time I see him.

I told Ginny about it. She says I have hormones just like every one else. She says its just an attraction to his looks and that it will pass. I think she is wrong as can be. It is his looks yes, but its his laugh, his scent, and his attitude.

Its completely insane. He is almost 17 and I'm only 14. That's three to four years between us. Honestly I don't have any clue why I think of him like this. Its so wrong. There is not a chance of him even acknowledging me. He hardly knows I'm here. He knows me from Harry.

Oh, bloody hell he's coming over here! What do I do? I'll act like I'm busy reading that's what I'll do. He won't notice me. I am just another face in the library. I mean nothing.

He passed me. Good. See he doesn't know I exist. And, no matter how incredibly hot and dreamy and sensitive that boy is there is no way I am even going to talk to him. I won't do it. Even if he talks to me. No matter how chivalrous he is. I do not care! No matter how much I would love to snuggle up into his chest or kiss those lips. I will not interact!

"Hermione, I don't mean to bother you, but can you help me?" He's talking to me! He knows my name! He wants my help!

"Sure, Cedric what do you need help with?" Even his names is driving my hormones insane! No, he's to old, to ahead of me, to…important. He's blushing! Why?

"Uh, I need a book on the effects of charming spells. Do you know where something like that would be? This place is so busy with kids trying to do all their work as soon as they can I can't even get to the door to leave!"

I giggled and he smiled. His smile is so charming. No, I can't think like that!

"Sure, I know right where they are. Is there any reason you want a book on charming spells?" In fact that was where I was. I think he has hexed one on me.

"I have a good reason to believe someone has hexed me with one." He looked rather flushed and I couldn't help but notice him shift his eyes away from mine. I nod and lead him to the shelf.

"There, charming spells and everything about them." He smiles his wonderfully dazzling smile and mutters a thanks.

I start to sweat. It is driving me insane. How cute he looked when he blushed. Oh and his eyes! I am in need of help. I sigh there is no way he is going to ever ask me out nor be interested in the slightest way.

Well? I know it might not be the best, but its my first Harry Potter. Reviews are highly appreciated. They boost my confidence and that makes me update faster.