This is somthing that I thought about while reading New Moon. My thought was what if Bella left instead of Edward.
I own nothing. Stephenie Meyer is sole owner of Twilight, Edward. Bella, and all the chachers we love. Enjoy! I might add to this but I'm not sure.
Moonless Night
It was hard for me to think about what I was going to do, not only because I knew it was going to hurt both of us, but because I couldn't stand the look of guilt on Edward's beautiful face. Last night he had stayed but today I had felt him withdraw from me. I could feel him pulling away from me. This morning I had decided to go to Jacksonville with my mom. I knew that by now Alice had seen my decision if she was watching, if she wasn't then better for me, I didn't want Edward to know before hand. I sat beside him in his car think about how to bring the subject up but sitting there I didn't see any other way but to be completely honest. As he was pulling up to my house, I undid my seat belt and turned to face him. His beauty had always taken my breathe away and now was no exception, I studied his face, this would be the last time I saw him. I heart ached every time I thought about what I was about to do.
"Edward, I'm leaving." I said in a rush. He looked shocked, he was about to say something but I put my finger to his cold lips to silence him. "I'm going to my mom's and I don't want you to follow me."
"What? Why?" He asked in a low voice.
"I know you feel guilty about what happen with Jasper and the last thing I want is for you to have to hurt on of your brothers, on a count of me. I know you do so don't try to tell me different. I have felt you pulling away from me these last couple of days. I would rather leave than keep hurting you." I told him somberly.
"But…"
"But what Edward? Are you seriously going to tell me I'm wrong? Are you going to tell me that if it came down to it you would hurt one of your siblings? Why? For what? You've told me that you don't want to change me. You told me you wanted me to stay human. Staying human would mean I would constantly be in danger, not only from other vampires but from your own family members. Tell me I'm wrong."
"You're not wrong, but it's something I can control. I have protected you this long. You know I can protect you, Bella." he assured me.
"I know you can, Edward, but I don't want to be a burden on anyone, not even you. I love you and it's ripping my heart out to know that I have to do this…." a sob stopped me for a second " but I don't leave then you will and that will kill me. You are everything to me but I hate to see the look of guilty on your face. Jasper did what any vampire would have done. He did nothing wrong. Please tell him and Alice that I'm not angry at them. I love all of you so much but I have to leave." I started to open the door, but Edward reached across and held it shut.
"What about me? What do you want me to do?" he asked angrily. I could tell by the look on his face that he was angry and hurt.
"I can't answer that Edward. Please try to understand, what you're feeling now is what I would feel if you were to leave. Maybe one day we'll meet again and things will be different, but right now you have to let me go." I said. I was hoping my face would convince him I was right but I could tell from the way he was looking at me that reason was the last thing on his mind.
"Tell me Bella, was everything I lie then? When you told me you loved me did you lie? When you told me you wanted to be part of my family was that a lie?" he hissed at me. His eyes turned hard with anger and stay on my face. He was trying to intimidate me.
"If you want to believe that then go ahead Edward. If it will make you feel better and make this hurt less then yes it was a lie everything I said to you was a lie." I told him in a soft tearful voice. I looked at my lap to escape his eyes, I knew if I didn't then he would dazzle me and I would forget everything and stay.
"I'm sorry Edward but I have to go. Please I know you angry right now but try to remember that I do love you, like you told me once you are my life, but I don't want to keep hurting any of you." I leaned in to kiss him but he moved away, I reached out to touch his cheek but stopped mid way and turned and got out of the car. Edward revved to engine and sped away. I walked to the house and up the stairs, Charlie wasn't home but I had to finish packing.
The next morning I was sitting at the airport waiting for my flight to be called when I saw Alice walking up to me. She sat down next to me and smiled, I loved her smile, she was always so happy and bubbly. Alice took my hand and looked at me.
"So where are you going?" she asked
"Alice, I'm leaving, didn't you talk to Edward?" I asked her.
"Yes and no. I did talk to him and Jasper wanted to come too but he thinks it would be better for me to see you alone. As for why and how I knew you were leaving well I saw you doing so." she told me with a weak smile.
"Alice this is hard enough. I feel like a part of me is already missing. I know I'm hurting him and it's killing me to do this but I can't have him feeling guilty all of the time. I know it could change but tell me something Alice." She looked at me and smiled.
"Bella you and Edward are so much alike, no wonder he and you get along so well. I still see you as one of us, and to tell you the truth this will not work. The only thing you're doing is hurting him and yourself. "
Just then I heard them call my flight, I got up and felt her hand on my arm.
"Bella please don't do this." she pleaded with me.
"I'm sorry Alice but it's for the best. Give Jasper my best and tell him I hold no ill will toward him." I hugged her and walked away from her. I used all my strength to not look back at her. I found my seat and cover my face with my hands and just cried.
