I watch down from StarClan every night. Every Day. All the time. I see your sleek black pelt shine in the moonlight. I miss you. My body aches to be with you, to feel you, to smell you.

I watch in jealously as you rub pelts with Nightcloud. I see your awkward silences with Leafpool. I wish I could be there with you, by your side.

I glare at you discipline Breezepelt, I wish we could of have kits, You'd be such a good father. Deep Down, I know the reason your so grumpy is because you miss me. But I hate it you are too hard on the poor tom.

I still understand you. Just like we used to back in the day.

Everything was perfect, then I died.

But I am happy I saved your life from that mountain lion. Besides, we couldn't be together. I am from RiverClan and you are from WindClan.. But Crowfeather, we would make a way. Belive me, We would.

I see you come to the mountains, I watch closely over you in case an accident happens and you fall off a cliff, then we can be together… But I know that would be selfish of me to want you to die, You have a family. What am I to you now? A fling? Or a love?

I cannot help but follow you, to rub pelts with you, of course you can't feel me. But I can feel you. I can smell your scent. I, I can feel your emotions. You miss me as much as I miss you.

You sit by the waterfall and look at the rushing water, where my body is buried. It is just bones by now, but in StarClan, I am whole. My gray tabby pelt is shiny and beautiful.

I whisper " I love you Crowfeather."

I see your dark ears perk up.

Did you hear me? I look in wonder at you, I feel my eyes grow big as I gawk at your beautiful body.

" I love you too Feathertail." He speaks in a voice that only I can hear. It is husky and

I wrap my gray tabby tail around your body. I nuzzle against you. I hear you purr. We sit by the rushing water for a long time. I turn my head around, Breezepelt looks furious at his father..I guess he is jealous that you loved me before you loved Nightcloud.

I don't want to but I know I have to return to StarClan. I slowly shift away from your warm body.

" Feathertail, please don't leave me.." Crowfeather pleads.

I stare at you, my sparkling blue eyes shimmer " I have to Crowfeather. Don't worry, we will be together…one day."

" When will that day come!" You say a little bit too loudly.

I nuzzle your face with my snout. I softly lick your ear. " Only Time Will Tell."

" I love you. I miss you. I want you to come back." He meows like a kit.

I cuddle next to you. " Crowfeather, You have a family. Please take care of them."

" It's all Breezepelt's fault. You would stay with me if it weren't for him!" Crowfeather hisses.

I shake my head " Crowfeather. I love you. I am watching you everyday and every night. I watch your every move, your every breath…Everything." I smile as I lick your face.

"… I love you Feathertail." He playfully swats my fluffy tail as I slowly rise up to StarClan.

" I love you too. So much." I sweetly whisper.

I watch in sadness as you walk away from the waterfall. You walk past your son and flash him an angry glare. Oh Crowfeather, as much as I love you. I wish you were nicer to Breezepelt. It isn't his fault.

Crowfeather yowls " I love you Feathertail!"

" Crowfeather, I think your nuts." Breezepelt grumbles.

The black tom swats at his son and walks away.

I shake my head. I am back up in StarClan.

" You did the right thing.." It is my mother, Silverstream.

I look at my mother and purr " I did."

" I had to be happy for your father and Mille, Be happy for Crowfeather and Nightcloud." Silverstream trills.

" But I miss him so much." I cry out.

My silver tabby mother says nothing. I walk off and look down at Crowfeather. Again, he is being mean to Breezepelt and Nightcloud.

When will he get it through his mind that it isn't their fault I am not with him.

Only Time Will Tell….