Well here's some
midnight-mush i cooked up for you guys, enjoy!
disclaimer: I don't
own naruto.
Sometimes, If I think really hard, I can pretend we are normal. That we are just two normal lovers, just like all the other coupls out there. But we aren't normal. We are so odd compared to everyone and everything else. Our love doesnt make sence. You know that, right? Why doesn't it seem to bother you when it plagues me night and day? Why me? Why not someone else? What did I ever do to deserve your love? I hurt you, too many times. You're too forgiving. But I love you for it. I hate the way I feel so confused when I think about you, when I think about us. I hate that vulnerable feeling that crawls up my spine when I realize what everyone thinks of us. Why can't they just accept us? There's another thing that never seems to bother you. You're always happy, always smiling. Sometimes I feel like wiping that goddamn smile off your face.
I know I should be grateful for it. Sometimes I am. Why don't we ever talk? How can we truly call what we have a realationship if words are never exchanged. Is that a bad thing? Does that make our love wrong? How can something that seems so wonderful be considered wrong. Does this mean we aren't in love? Is it all just lust? No. I love you, regardless of how you feel about me. If one person loves does that make it okay? What if they don't mind that the other might not love them? I've thought about this a lot. In many ways it seems you're just using me. You needed someone when you felt down. You needed reassurance that you could still dominate someone, be better at something. Was I just the person you happened to see first? Is that all I am? I don't mind if that's the truth, because I still love you. Things would be a lot better if you loved me back. But if you don't, I'm still okay with that. I can still be content. In a way knowing you needed someone and I was the one you chose is good enough. To know that I was able to help you, even if I feel like I'm the one that needs you, makes life worth living.
You're not going to get
bored of me are you? Even if you are just using me, you're not going
to get rid of me? Go off to look for someone else? Am I good enough?
Sometimes I feel like I'm not. I feel like my confidence turns to
mush when I look at you. Don't you deserve someone stronger, more
reliable? You seem so sure of yourself. It makes me ashamed when I
look away in fear or tears stream down my face. I don't like crying,
you know that. But I don't mind it as much if it's you who makes me
cry. In a way I am eternally grateful that I'm the one that has to
cry, that I'm the one that has to be scared. It was good for me. It's
not good for someone to have such a large ego. It wasn't good for me
to be so stuck up as to think I could never submit to anyone.
Sometime I need to thank you for making me submit. For showing me
that I was wrong.
Whatever this love is, I like it. And I want it
to stay how it is. I want to continue our silent midnight meetings. I
don't care how you see me, how you see us. It doesn't really matter,
beacause I love you, Naruto.
Love,
Sasuke
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(A/N)
So, was this uber lame? Yeah, I know it was. But if it was that bad,
then review and tell me that it sucked please. Oh and watch out for
spelling mistakes, my system with spellcheck decided to commit
suicide and it will be a while till ive got it back up and running,
and i have yet to get myself a narusasu beta
reader
anybody?
luff,
Emiyasha.
