SINGER: Meatloaf
SONG TITLE: 'Keep Driving'
LYRICS: "Don't wake me up, don't ruin this dream, don't take me from my scene"
Sleep is a relief. When he is asleep he can pretend, inhabit a different world where Mr Crepsley is still living. (Where any of them are still living - Mr Crepsley, Arra, Gavner, Paris, Kurda. They're all dead and though it isn't his fault there is a writhing nest of guilt in his heart that keeps him from sleep.)
On bad nights, he can hear Mr Crepsley's screams as he lay impaled on the stakes, the flames biting into his flesh. He can see the blood pumping from the wound in Gavner's stomach, hear the rattle of Arra's breath as they waited for the battle to end. He wakes in a sweat, panting, and try as he may sleep won't come again.
On good nights, he is back at the Cirque performing with Mr Crepsley, or working alongside Evra. Gavner is with them as they travel to the Mountain, Arra is laughing on the bars.
If he never woke from that dream world, he could die happy.
