(Isa's Pov)
Notice: The ... Between stuff is different memories!
"Isa...*Pant*...You came to see me again *Pant* Ryuuji gasped while I stood beside his hospitable bed.
"Indeed, sir" I said while I sat on the chair next to his bed.
"Please...Call *pant* Call me by my name! We're not at work, now" Ryuuji said managing one of his smooth and wide smiles even with his lack of engery.
"So...How things in the lad" he asked
"They are fine" I answered while I looked down to his pale and weak face
"Ahh good! *Cough**cough*" Ryuuji coughed
"Please do not over work yourself" I sighed.
"Hahah! Sorry, sorry! Now how things with you? How long has it been now? Two weeks? Have you met someone yet?" Ryuuji asked.
"Huh? No...No sir" I sighed while I looked away
"Isa...You...You need to *Pant* find someone. Someone to cling to and love" Ryuuji smiled while he slowly placed his hand onto mine.
"Someone...Someone you can hold dear and can't bear to be without" Ryuuji said softly and quietly.
"O...Ok" I sighed while I thought "I already had"
"Actually si- I mean Ryuuji. I...I think I already met someone" I stuttered while he looked up to me with his red eyes but they weren't so bright as I was used to.
"Oh? and...And who is this? Anyone I know?" Ryuuji asked with a smile
"I...I think you know them" I stuttered
"Oh? So...The name?" Ryuuji smiled
"I...I rather not say" "awwww! Come on! No far!" Ryuuji cried.
"Hohoho...I make you a deal" "Huh a deal?" "when you get out of here I shall tell them who they are" I laughed with a small smile.
"Ok! You better keep your word!" Ryuuji laughed
"I...I will" I smiled.
...
"Please...Can...Can you do that?" Ryuuji asked.
"Sure...What is his name" I asked
"Ryouta...Ryouta Kawara" Ryuuji asked breathless while his eyes were closing
"I shall" I knobbed
"One...One more thing" Ryuuji gasped
"Huh?"
"It's clear I won't be coming out of here alive...So...So tell me...Tell me who you like" Ryuuji gasped.
My eyes widened while I looked down at him in shock
"A month ago you told me you liked someone...*Pant*...Who...Who is she?" Ryuuji asked.
"He" I sighed
"Oh...Well who is he?" Ryuuji gasped.
"Huh? Aren't you" "going to say something? *pant* No...I shall not...If you love them then I shall accept it...It...It won't chance who you are" Ryuuji said.
"I...I" I stuttered while I closed my eyes and took a breath in.
I never thought about this! I...I never wanted to open to him! I knew he had a son and a wife! It...It was stupid of me to fall for him!
"I...I like" I stuttered
"I love y-" BBEEEEEP
"Huh?!" I sounded while I looked at his monitor while I single line was in sight.
"No!" I snapped
BEEEEEEEPPPP
"HEART STOPPED!" "GET THE MECAINE IN HERE NOW!" shouted the doctors while I felt my eyes water but then I was pushed to the side while the doctors tried to bring him back.
But
He was gone! Within a matter of seconds and before I could tell him, he slipped away right threw my figure tips.
No matter how the doctors tried he was dead and never coming back...I walked out before any of his family could see me and went straight to the lads to do research.
"If I do research the pain will stop! If...If I act like nothing happened it will not hurt!" I thought while I wrapped my watery eyes.
"I...I shall not cry! Crying won't fix anything!" I snapped but then I looked to the coat hanger.
Ryuuji's lab coat was still there so I walked to it and smelt it. It...It smelt just like him. I took my lab coat off and replaced it with his.
"This...This with the tie you have me shall be the only things left from you. Apart from that I don't want to be reminded of you!" I thought while I fastened the buttons. The material felt soft and it smelt of him.
"Isa... You need to find someone to cling onto and to love dearly" Ryuuji's voice sounded.
"How?! You were the only person I love!" I thought but then I shook my head and went back to the research.
...
"Erm...Doctor Iwamine?" sounded a voice while I moved my head from the computer to the door. However there he was! Ryuuji was stood in the door frame of the infirmary.
"No...Wait" I thought while I sighed and frowned.
This was not him! This...This boy was Ryuuji's son if not a spit image of him.
"Sorry to bother you...But I have stomach-ache again" he sighed while he said on one of the beds.
"Ryouta" I sighed while I thought "Ryouta... Ryuuji's son, his fleash and blood...Gosh how he looks like you sir" I thought while I stood up.
"Stronger medication is needed then...Since the last one didn't do anything" I sighed
"O...OK" He stuttered
He didn't know I had any connections with his father and that is how I like it. No one will know how I felt about Ryuuji. No one would understand!
I...I love him.
...
"Merry Christmas! Merry Christmas! (Miru and Kaku got some cake!)" shouted Miru and Kaku while they ran onto a infirmary bed and started to eat.
"Merry Christmas! (Thank you Papa!)" they both smiled.
"You're welcome" I huffed while I sat down at my desk.
"Even these two things remind me of you...However unlike Ryouta they...They make me smile like you used to sir. They have your kindness and loyalty... Something I will always love about you" I thought while I held my head.
"Why do I always keep thinking of you?!" I sighed but then I felt small tears go down my cheeks.
"Huh...So it finally happened...I...I lowered myself to cry, how festinating" I thought while I started to cry quietly so Miru and Kaku didn't hear me.
I placed to hands on my head while I cried however his voice sounded:
"That's it...Let all of the sadness and hurt go...Let it go...Only then will you truly move on"
"Huh" I cried however I removed my hands from my face and sniffed.
"I'm fine" I coughed while I shook my head.
But
Ryuuji, Ryuuji...
Ryuuji the first man I loved...I...I shall always miss you and love you deep in my heart, no matter what...
...Fin...
