Envy

Envy

He truly envied them sometimes, the happy couples that seemed to surround him as of late. They had everything he would never have: a happy stable relationship built upon love. He knew they kept no secrets from each other: There was not a physical or emotional entity that lay untouched or unexplored by the other. He could never have that. Having been a soldier and an agent had ensured as much. Sure, he was proud to have supported his country but it came with a price. The memories of death, of taking a life haunted him and could never be redeemed. Those were secrets that best remained untold, and it wasn't as if anyone really wanted to hear about it anyway. Those thoughts and feelings were doomed to remain forever bottled up and that's why he envied them.

A/n:
As promised part 4: Wednesday. FYI: This doesn't refer to anyone in particular. I feel when it comes to taking a life, Booth tends to take it rather hard (who wouldn't) but he still is very proud of his country.

Till soonish!

Kat