Hermione held the note tightly in her shaking hands. She knew somewhere deep in the back of her mind that it was too good to be true, but she hadn't wanted to believe it.
Hermione,
I lied to you Hermione. I lied to you a lot that day, and I lied a lot the whole time we were together. I couldn't tell you if it was intentional or not. I didn't feel like I was lying, but now I know the truth. I lied because I wanted you and I couldn't deal with being turned away. I couldn't deal with the disappointment. I always get what I want. I was fighting with myself the whole time, as I'm fighting with myself now. At first I didn't care about your feelings, but that was the selfish part of me. The part of me that cared, wanted to be with you and to truly love you. But a lot of the time we were together all I wanted to do was fuck you into the mattress. You can hate me all you want, I don't have a problem with that. I can handle the hating, it's normal, what I can't handle is you still wanting me. I can't understand why you're not mad. And maybe you are mad now, but at least now I don't have to see the look of disappointment on your beautiful face. I'm not going to lie to you and say that it was a moment of weakness, because that's not what it was. I knew what I was doing from the start, I knew I would end up hurting you, but I did it anyway. I hardly feel sorry for most of my actions, I had a fantastic time, but I feel sorry for being so selfish.
Wish you the best
~ Draco
Hermione sat down at her desk and pulled out some parchment.
Draco,
How could you do this? I'm not some toy that you can play with and then put away in the closet when you don't want to deal with me. You should have been more straightforward and said right off the bat that you didn't want anything long term, that you only wanted a should to cry on. I thought that you had changed, I thought that I could trust you, but I guess I was wrong. And how can you go about doing that? Telling me that nothing was real and that you didn't really love me and then complement me like you lied to yourself. You disgust me. I hope Astoria knows how wicked you are. I hope to god that you do this to someone again, but this time you get hurt.
Hermione
Draco knocked on the door so hard he thought his knuckles would bleed. He held the note tightly in his hand. He really hadn't been expecting to get a note back, he was hoping that she would just forget about him. Hermione yanked the door back just as Draco was about to knock again.
"What do you want?" She asked coldly.
"I want to talk"
"I don't" she said, slowly starting to close the door. Draco reached out, grabbing the door and holding it open. "Go away" Hermione said halfheartedly.
"I want to talk" Hermione let go of the door now.
"You had plenty of chances to talk, but you didn't want to and now I don't want to"
"Please Hermione" Hermione folded her arms across her chest.
"Talk" Draco sighed.
"Look I know I was horrible to you," Hermione nodded "But I'm sorry, really I am and I don't care that you're mad at me, I expected that, what I care about is you" Hermione rolled her eyes.
"What a bunch of bull" Draco raised an eyebrow "If you really cared about me you wouldn't be standing here right now" Draco shook his head.
"I know I made a mistake, a big one"
"What are you saying?"
"I'm saying sorry"
Hermione,
Please forgive me. I know what I said in my other note but really I didn't mean to hurt you. I thought we were on the same page. I never meant to rip your heart out or anything of the like. I just wanted to be with you before my engagement. I should have told you that I was betrothed but it didn't come to mind and it only became a reality a few weeks ago. I'm sorry that I hurt you, really I am. I hope that one day you can forgive me for my misdeeds.
Love,
Draco
