an: this is my first fan fic and i do not currently have a beta so please give it a chance.
The Pull
Chapter 1
I awoke screaming in a cold sweat once again. Not that it was a suprize , not to me and not even to Charlie. This had become the norm over the past four months since Edward left. Maybe if it had been just him, i would have been able to move on. But when he left he took my whole world with him. he took everyone who was essential to my life - with the exception of Charlie. he took my pixie like best friend and sister Alice. he took my big brother Emmett who i never knew i needed but couldn't seem to go on with out. he also took Carlisle and Esme, the only real parents i had ever known, you know the kind that took care of me instead of the other way around.
i sat there in bed with my eyes closed as i do every morning - sending up a silent prayer to who ever might be listening - that when i open my eyes i would see that the last four months was all just a dream. no scratch that , a horrible nightmare and everything would be back to the way it was. but as usual it didn't work. so i forced myself to get out of bed and go down the hall to get a shower. after all it was friday and i still had to go to school. i should be excited that today was friday like all the other kids would be but the problem was they were happy because their weekends would be full of dates to the movies with their new boyfriend or trips to the mall with their girlfriends - while mine would be filled with ... NOTHING. for some reason this was still depressing even though this had also become the norm over the past four months. in fact it had taken less than a month for my human friends to abandon their attempts to bring me out of depression at the loss of Edward Cullen.
After my shower, I put my hair into a ponytail, pulled a hoodie over my head, threw on my skinny jeans and decended the stairs. Charlie had already left for the station. No big suprize, it seemed like he almost lived there now. So i sat in the kitchen and ate my breakfast in silence, while i once again lost myself in thoughts of my time with the Cullens. When i was finished, i washed my dishes. Then grabbed my bag, pulled on my boots and headed for the door. I grabbed my keys on the way out and locked the door.
It was pouring again but i took no notice. I walked slowly to my truck and took the scenic route to school. Not for the scenery but because if i was late for school, there was less of a chance that someone would try to talk to me. Talking to people other than charlie was something i now avoided at all costs. my plan worked and by the time i arrived at school everyone else was already in class. the school day passed as it always did. i sat in my desk day dreaming until it was time to write down my assignment and move on to my next class. the only exception was gym.
When the school day was over I walked straight to my truck and headed to the grocery store to pick up a weeks worth of food for me and Charlie. I tried to waste as much time as possible at the store, knowing that Charlie would be working late. the last thing in the world i needed was more time alone with my thoughts.
When i got home i went to the kitchen and put away my purchases. then i started on charlie's dinner. when i finished i realized i had only managed to waste less than two hours since school had let out. I sat at the table and started on my homework. I was actually thankful for the extremely long trig. assignment. It kept my mind on the complicated math problems and off of the Cullens and the huge hole they left both in my heart and in my social life. When i was finished I moved on to the book report that wasn't due for another three weeks. I had decided my subject would be Wuthering Heights. it was my favorite book and though i had already read it at least a thousand times, it was still easy for me to loose myself within its pages. Even if it was only temporary.
When Charlie got home I quickly cleared my homework from the table and returned my bag to my room. i then returned to the kitchen and set the table for our dinner. When we sat down to eat, i tried as i always did to appear as content and happy as possible. i know i wasn't fooling anyone but i had this idea that if i kept up the act, maybe one day we would both believe it. after dinner charlie informed me he would be leaving in the morning for an all weekend fishing trip. i wished him luck then i said goodnight and headed up to my room.
when i got to my room i changed into my pajamas, grabbed my book and climbed into my bed.i read for about an hour then i realized i couldn't put it off any longer. i sat my book on my night stand , shut off the light , curled up on my side and cried myself to sleep like i do every night.
When i woke up the next morning i knew something had changed. at first i couldn't remember where i was. after a few moments had passed, it started to come back to me.
- leaving Arizona to allow my mother her happiness - coming to stay with charlie in forks - a new school - that beautiful bronze haired boy in biology - edward saving me from the van - discovering the truth about the cullens - james' attack - my disasterous 18th birthday - edward leaving me in the woods-.
the realization was horrible, i could feel the pain , abandonment , loneliness , and heart break ripping open the forgotten hole in my chest. but at the exact moment i thought i was about to snap under the pressure of it all, i heard a loud knock at the door.
that was strange, the only person who ever comes over was billy to see charlie. he should know charlie wouldn't be home. he always goes fishing on saturdays. i went downstairs to look out the window - i didn't see any cars - that was weird. but the person at the door kept knocking , so i went to answer it.
as soon as i opened the door, i regretted it. i was starring straight into topaz eyes. the only problem was they weren't the eyes i had been praying for every morning for the last four months. i tried to slam the door ( although i don't know why , its not like i could out run him) but something in his voice stopped me.
"bella please just give me a few moments of your time"
an: please review and let me know what you thought and if you think i should continue
