Ch. 1

I felt a searing pain deep inside me,I screamed with immense pain and yelled for him to stop and kill me.

He pulled out of me and threw me down on the floor. I gasped in rapid pants and shook from the pain that grew in my womb.

"Get up you whore! Clean yourself up and go back to your room before school starts."my father yelled.

When I didn't get up fast enough he grabbed me by my hair and pulled me up.

I screamed from the pain as his grip tore my hair from my scalp. He through me with force against the door frame and crushed my head to the wall. I yelled and then stumbled from the room.

Tears fell from my eyes and I sobbed as I walked into the bathroom.

The water made all the cuts on my body sting. The water that ran from my body ran down red. I fell against the wall and sobbed.

My father did this to me whenever he was drunk,or if he just was angry. Even if he just feels like it.

There's nothing I can do about it though. He threatens to kill me if I tell anybody. So I suffer through this...in pure fear everyday.

I turned off the water and dried myself off,and wrapped up the worst of the cuts. The pain rang out from all over my body,but I ignored it and left from the bathroom.

I got down to the kitchen,and as usual it reeked of booze and cigarette smoke.

My father was sitting at the kitchen table,with a lit cigarette in hand.

"I'm having company over tonight Rose."he said,taking a puff.

I tried not to act frightened. I walked stiffly to the kitchen sink and started cleaning the dishes.

"Rose,I want you to cook a nice dinner tonight."he growled.

"How many?"I asked,trying to keep my voice from quivering.

"Well...it's that new family that just moved here. Dr. Carl isle and his family. And he has....5 kids. So for 8 people. Since you won't be joining us."he said.

I rolled my eyes in disgust. "Fine."I spat.

I heard his chair push back. And his fist hit my head. I yelped and tried to catch myself on the counter but my hand slipped and I hit my head on it instead.

I crumpled to the floor and sat there,shivering in pain.

"Rosalie....you'll never learn will you? Don't act stupid like your mother did. Or you'll have an unfortunate accident just like she did. Or you'll even commit suicide. Now get up and get out of my sight." he growled.

I got up weakly and walked out the door. When the door closed behind me I ran to my car.

An old mustang that was completely ancient,and loud. He always knew when I was home,or when I left.

But I'm not going to school. I can't right now.

So I drove on,not knowing were to go.

Even though it's the 1st of November,snow fell from the sky in clumps and covered all of it in already 2 feet. My shoes crunched against the snow,as I walked through what Forks called a park.

With only a swing set,with 4 swings,and a small slide. No children were here,perfect.

I sat down on one of the swings and put my head in my hands.

Blood dripped from an open cut on my forehead. Yay,another one. The blood stained the snow between my feet,leaving it turning pink. Tears came to my eyes and fell down with the drops of blood.

Why....why can't I ever just die?

I've tried before....I tried to slit my wrists,but I lived through it. Damn him to hell for not letting me die.

I heard the rumble of snow mobiles coming from the forest,I sat up and looked in the direction.

5 of them came tearing out of the woods and slid to a stop. I've never been snowmobiling before. But I heard it was fun.

The people got off and were laughing hysterically. Two of them,obviously girls took off their helmets.

Their beauty was astonishing. One had a pixie cut and looked a pixie herself,the other had brown hair that blew gently in the chilly wind,and she was just as beautiful as the other.

The other three,were bigger. They took off their helmets,all them are boys,and all beautiful too.

They all were smiling and laughing. The hugest one out of all them ruffled the hair of the pixie girl.

They must be the Doctor's children,because I've never seen any of them.

I looked away from them and noticed that blood was now running down my face and dripped off my chin to the ground.

The laughing stopped then. I turned to look at them again. They had spotted me and were staring at me with curiosity.

The biggest one noticed the blood then.

"Hey are you alright?!"he yelled at me.

I bit my lip in hesitation. I got up and started the opposite way. "Hey!"he yelled after me.

His voice was closer now,and the next thing I knew he was in front of me.

I jumped,and backed away a few steps.

"It's okay. I won't hurt you. I just wanted to know if you were alright or not."he said soothingly.

The tears had stopped now,and the pain was replaced by fear and sadness. He reached out to me. But I tore away from him. Then took off running toward my car.

He didn't come after me,but that didn't stop me. I got to my car and started it and drove away.

I drove to the library this time. I needed to get out of the cold,and I still wanted to get some much needed peace and quiet.

The library was pretty much empty,except for some people in the front,and the librarian. I hid my face and ran into the bathroom.

I looked into the mirror and held back a gasp. Blood was all over my face,coming from the left side of my forehead,then it bloomed down across my face in a bloodied mess.

Tears sprang into my eyes,and I bit back sobs. I took some toilet paper and started to wash off my face. Once I was done I wiped away the tears that ran down my cheeks.

I'm so tired of crying. That's all I'm able to do. Just sit there and cry,because I'm not strong enough to stop it.

I walked out of the bathroom and looked at the small digital clock on one of the walls. It read only 11:00.

I couldn't go back home yet. Even though I dropped out of school,I still had to pretend that I went still. I just turned 17 last month on October 5th. I dropped out on the twentieth.

That's when I finally got enough guts to do it. I've been out of school for only 11 days. And I'm still not used to it.

I sighed and slumped down into a chair. Now I just have to wait till I turn 18 then I'm gone.

AN~

I started writing this...and just kept going. I hope you like the 1st chapter. I guarantee that it will get more exciting as it goes along. Bye!!