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Chapter 1: And then he was gone...

Tommy and I shared something special. We felt a bond that we hadn't felt with anyone else. I had my big break and he only made me better. But he needed something too. He'd spent so much time with me and he deserved more than to help teenage girls produce their albums. By the time I turned 19, he was starting to be known again. He was about to make it big, on his own.

He left for his tour about a year ago. He was supposed to be back by now. I just suspect that he met someone better while he was on tour and decided to never come back. I guess it was for the best, maybe he's better off, maybe I'm better off. I just don't know. That's what Jamie and Kat keep telling me. They keep saying that little Tommy and I are better off without him.

I've tried to tell him about Tommy Jr. so many times. I've called him once a month since he left and he hasn't returned the call. I've emailed him but no response. I just figure when he realizes that I tried to contact him, he just erases it, not wanting his new girlfriend to know about me. Maybe he's thought about calling but he just doesn't know what to say. Maybe he just doesn't know how to react to the fact that he's a father.

But I doubt it. I was about one month in when he left. I didn't know until he was gone that I was pregnant. He was the first person I wanted to tell. I called him all freaked out but excited, of course he didn't answer. I've thought about giving up, just letting it go, forgetting about him and not telling him. It's a hard thought but it may be easier in the long run, just giving up. Which is what I'm going to do, if he wanted to be involved with our lives he would've called by now.

I know it sound cliche but, I remember him leaving like it was just yesterday.

"So a six month tour? That's big," I said to him.

"You've said that a million times," he replied. He had his bag slung over his shoulder as we stood in the airport.

"It's cool that I know an international superstar."

He placed a hand on my waist. "You are an international superstar, Jude."

"Well, I won't argue with you on that." I smiled up at him. "Hey, don't hold back, give it all you got. You should sing your version of 24 hours, it's really good and my favorite."

"I'll do my best. Look, you know about..."

"Being on tour? Yeah, I know. And I won't hold anything that happens on the road against you."

"And that's why your great. You're understanding. I love you, Jude."

"I love you too, Tommy."

He leaned down and kissed her in a long, passionate embrace.

I watched him as he waved good-bye and boarded the plane.

I should've known then that he would take advantage of my trust in him. When I said that I wouldn't hold anything against him, I at least expected him to come back. But what's done is done and there's no changing it now.

I finally decided to give up on contacting him.

"Jude!" Sadie called through my bedroom door. She came in uninvited and said, "It's the 15th. Half way through the month. The day you call Tommy, hoping he calls you back. Am I not being clear?"

"No, Sades, It's not that. I'm just not going to call him."

"What!" She shouted.

"Shh! Sadie, Tommy's sleeping." I walked over to his crib and looked down at the sleeping baby boy. "I've tried telling him so many times but if he doesn't call, then he just doesn't call. I don't see the point of trying to stay in touch if he doesn't want to."

Sadie walked over to me and hugged me. "You don't need him, Jude."

"I know that."

The truth was that I didn't know that I was better off. Like the Bowling for Soup song says, I hope he's happy, happy without me.

Little did I know, everything was going to come back and bite me in the ass.

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