Title: Death of Me

Rating: T (subject to change)

Pairing:Edward x Bella

Genre: Romance/Drama

Summary: Post new moon. Edward has been gone for a year, and Bella can't wait anymore. The hallucinations, they've lost their magic touch. She needs him, or nothing. He made her choice when he doesn't come back. Seattle's death rate is sky rocketing. And suddenly, Bella has a need to visit town, where she awaits her fate. What she doesn't know is her fate, is his fate as well, and what's even worse…she is the one who has to reveal it to him.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, or Breaking Dawn. They are the inspiration for this however.

AN[1]: I hope you enjoy : D its very short, but its just an opener.


Letting Go

"I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head

I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead

I still see your reflection inside of my eyes

that are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart

that's still beating in the pain there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day…

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He was gone. No matter what I did to consume my time, I always knew he was gone. How could I go on knowing that? Knowing a part of me had left, because I was unwanted. I knew it was never right for him to love me. I just wish he would've never found that out.

"Bella?" Charlie's voice snapped me out of my depressing reverie.

"I'm sorry, what?"

"I just asked if you minded me going fishing today. It's nice and bright outside, and you know we don't get many of these days. Why don't you go out and do something nice? Call some of your friends from school or something. Jacob called, maybe you could go visit him?"

"Yeah, sure." My automatic response to anything anyone says. 'Come to a concert?' 'Yeah sure.' 'Help me with Biology?' 'Yeah sure.' 'Get attacked by vicious Grizzly Bears?' 'Yeah Sure!'

"Come on Bells, I don't like seeing you moping around like this, especially on a day like this."

"I'm not moping! I'm fine. I'm dressed, my teeth are brushed, my hair is combed, I'm making breakfast, you can hardly call that moping!" I sounded like a crazed maniac. But I wasn't moping. That was too hard. Moping only left room to think and I just couldn't think of E-, of him anymore.

But Charlie just couldn't let it drop. "Jake called."

Oh Jacob. Jacob, Jacob, Jacob. He takes care of me too much. Jumped on the ship I got pushed off of. I should be happy for him, and I am, Carlie is such a sweet girl, but people in love, I can't stand it these days. And imprinting? Ugh. That's just being so much in love, you're out of love, and way beyond that, you're onto a whole new definition entirely. Forget lovesick. More like love-jaded.

"So aren't you gonna call him back, Bells?" Just like Charlie to get right to the point.

"Yeah, Dad, sure."

He sighed. Exasperated. I know he just wants me to be happy, but it takes so much out of me just to be complacent. Still, he's put up with my antics, or lack thereof, for a year, I owe it to him to be able to feel relief once in a while.

"You know what Dad? You're right, it is a beautiful day out, I think I might go driving around town, pick up a few clothes, some books maybe."

His face brightened. "Really?"

I nodded. "Mhmm," I picked up my car keys and followed Charlie out the door, then realized the sun had only come up about an hour ago, and the only clothes I'd find in the stores that'd be open is Lacoast, with a tree logo instead of a crocodile, Pollo, with an actual chicken logo (oh wait no I'm sorry, Rooster), and this little shop called Geez! Jeans. And you say 'geez!' for a reason, and definitely not 'wow' or 'amazing'.

I took my keys out of the ignition and when back to my small quiet house. I didn't know what to do. I went back to our breakfast table and picked up the newspaper. I was heading straight for the crossword when a bold heading caught my attention. 'SEATTLE TERRORIZED BY SLAYINGS' suddenly, it wasn't feeling early anymore, and I got this aching need to visit Seattle.

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just to see what you will throw my way

And I'm hanging on to the words you say

You said that I will be ok"

Broken, Lifehouse


Sum it up: Edward left Bella a year ago. Jacob is a best friend of hers, but he's not in love with her, so he's out of the love triangle! Basically all we learned in this chapter is that Bella misses Edward, and she'll do what it takes to stop missing him.

Author's note [2]: So what do you think? Yes very short chapter, but the next will be longer. I've got this whole thing planned out, except I'm not totally sure on its length. Maybe 12 chapters? Maybe 22. Not so sure. Anyway, no, I'm not done with my other fanfic, nor is it on hiatus. Its just that this plot has been nagging me and its been on my mind for forever now, I just had to get it all down. And now that I do, I can't wait to work on it more. Since I have two fictions out whatever gets the more support, I'll probably update sooner, or more often. This is just something I'm messing around with, but I don't know if I should continue it. 5 reviews or Alerts, or Faves says yes.

Thank You for taking time to read it !!!!

x3 - Mariel.

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