Chapter One

'Rouge is dead,' Shadow the hedgehog thought to himself as he stood in the middle of a down pour while leaning against a wall in the city, 'she's dead and wont ever return.'

Many adults walked by him with umbrellas in hand, and their children in the other, but neither of them said a single word to him. They just quickly rushed home before the storm worsen.

Shadow didn't flinch from the cold, he gave off a slight shiver, but he ignored it. At this point nothing mattered to him, he had lost Maria, Gerald, and, now, Rouge. How much suffering was he to go through before he was happy? How many lives were to be taken from him? Shadow wanted to be with Rouge, but fate had a different plan for him, but he didn't know what nor did he care.

For a long time, shadow's silently endured the pain, stayed quiet, and not even told Rouge about his suffering. But now she was gone, he wanted to take out all of his pain on himself. He wanted to release it all through his wrists. He wanted to die, but his immortality let him live.

'For over fifty years I silently suffered,' he thought, 'watching everyone I care for die to soon. I'm tired of watching, I want it to be me. I want to die.'

Shadow already made up his mind, that would mean he would stick to it no matter what now. Somehow and someway he will find a way to kill himself. If he didn't succeed he would them take out all of his pain on himself.

Pushing his body lazily off of the wall, he began heading towards his apartment with one goal on his mind: to die.

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On Angel Island, Sonic the hedgehog opened the door to Knuckles's small apartment, and walked in. He had just finish his afternoon run, luckily, since it began to down pour out of nowhere. He was soaked.

He opened the door to a closet that sat next to the bathroom, and pulled out a dry, white towel, and began to dry off his spines.

"Damn," he mumbled, "it really started to rain."

He could hear the rain pounding on the roof, then, a loud noise that sounded like a gunshot, but it was just thunder.

Soon, he heard two sets of footsteps, then, the basement door opened.

"I don't understand why he's not answering the phone!" Tails exclaimed.

"Who's not answering the phone?" the blue hedgehog questioned with a look full of curiosity. He wanted to know what was up with all the commotion.

"It's Shadow," the red echidna, Knuckles, began.

Sonic flinched, and his eyes widen. Shadow? Just that name spoken alone made Sonic nervous. But why did they want to contact Shadow? What was so important that even he didn't know?

This made him even more nervous, whenever Shadow doesn't answer the phone, sonic always became a nervous wreck. Hoping that nothing was troubling the hedgehog.

Swallowing hard, Sonic opened his mouth to speak, "what about Shadow?" he became unaware of the shaky tone he had used.

Knuckles was silent as he tried to figure out a way to answer. He sighed, rubbed his head, and sighed again, "yesterday, Rouge was sent on a mission, and never came back."

Sonic's eyes widen, and pupils shrunk, "w…what?" he questioned, "but why did he tell you and not me?"

"He didn't tell me, Sonic," Knuckles answered, "the president told me."

"We tried calling to see if he would pick up, but we got nothing. It just went straight to voice mail," Tails replied.

Knuckles sat down on the sofa, "I don't think there's anything to worry about."

Sonic knew he was lying. He was just as worried as he was, but he wouldn't show it. He's stubborn that way, but Sonic couldn't just leave. So what could he do?

HURRAY! my new yaoi story! and surprisingly it's not rated M! OMG! lol! well R&R!

Cho