Rachel knows this is all wrong. Knows she should not have asked for that very first drink. Knows the man sat next to her should not be. Knows she shouldn't look down at her lap and rub her thighs together in an attempt to relieve some of the pressure that has built up there. Knows his, Will's eyes should not darken in the way that they do as he takes in her movements. Knows he should not pull her chair closer to him. Knows that he is so clearly not thinking that she should stop the hand that is running up her thigh and working on relieving some of the pressure for her. Knows is should not feel so deliciously right. Rachel Berry knows all this and yet she makes no effort to stop any of it. Because she also knows that this is exactly what she wants. Knows it is what she needs from the man she should not love. She cannot love. Knows she does so anyway. And she knows this is the only way to resolve the tension between them. A tension so thick that it shimmers between them at every Glee practice, so noticeable now that everyone wonders what has happened to make the appear to hate each other so much. Rachel Berry knows it is not hate but lust that keeps them from looking at each other, from touching each other for fear of the fire they both feel. She knows that there is no stopping this now; like a train wreck that you rip yourself away from. She knows full well that, one way or another; this is the end of everything they know. And she knows it is everything she has ever wanted. And because she knows all this, when Will stands up and offers her his hand, she takes it, placing her heart and soul into his hands. Because she knows this is the one man she can trust with them. And she knows that what is about to happen can only be beautiful. She knows, teacher or not, William Schuester is the one she will give her self to for the rest of her life.
