Hallowed Be Thy Name

Hallowed Be Thy Name

"Forgive me Father, for I have sinned."

Matt's name flows as easily from his lips as the fervent prayers.

And as the other's fingertips slide over his pale flesh, he will moan, gasp, and God knows he will beg, just to feel more of the divinity Matt offers. And when his faux-prayers are answered, he shall respond to his Matt's kindness with a slew of expletives, lost in momentary rhapsody.

After, he will feel guilty for uttering the Lord's name in vain, for surrendering to the deadly sin of lust, for lying with the forbidden flesh of his fellow man. And that is when he shall murmur to the empty room:

"I firmly resolve, with the help of Thy Grace, to sin no more, and to avoid the near occasion of sin."

And yet, Mello will always break this promise to God, no matter how many times he must repeat it in the aftermath of passion. Matt is like a drug to him, and he just can't break the addiction.

"Wash me from my guilt and cleanse me of my sin. I acknowledge my offence; my sin is before me always."

So instead it befalls him to ask for forgiveness time and time again, lost in a never ending labyrinth of guilt.

"Lord Jesus, forgives us our sins, and save us from the fires of hell."

He must never tire of repeating these declarations of contrition and devotion, for that would mean he has forsaken Matt, and that is the one thing Mello cannot do, though God knows he has tried. He always ends up coming back to his only friend, seeking comfort in the carnal pleasures offered to him.

And the cycle begins again.

"Forgive me Father, for I have sinned."