Monster

Summary: Beast Boy looks like a bright, green ball of never dying energy on the outside… but on the inside? He has a secret that's been haunting him for his whole life. When Slade kidnaps BB, will the Titans be able to save him from Slade and himself? Robin/Beast Boy one sided Slade/Beast Boy

Monster

Chapter One: Haunted

Jump City, a city guarded and protected by the fierce young heroes called the Teen Titans. The team was made up of five teenage heroes. Three boys and two girls. Their leader was famous for working as the sidekick of Batman. Robin was the determination of the team.

Cyborg, his name pretty much told of what he was. Half man, half robot, a cyborg. He was the strength of the team. Raven, the mysterious girl from Azarath. She was what made everyone calm during battle.

Starfire, the pretty alien from the planet Tamaran. She was the confidence of the team, always trying to get everyone to be brave and continue to fight. Beast Boy, the young green skinned changeling. He was special to the team. The "kid brother" to everyone. Beast Boy was the enthusiasm of the team. He would make jokes during battle, causing everyone to remember to take a step back and think.

Now Beast Boy and Starfire were the innocent ones on the team, they were almost like little kids and Cyborg and Raven were like their older siblings. The older siblings that would always look out for them and protect them in battle. Raven would never admit it, but she does defend Beast Boy in battle. Not just to protect him when he's down, she and her other fellow Titans try to make sure he can't get hurt.

Robin was extremely protective over Beast Boy, how could he not be? I mean, they have been going out for over eight months. They knew everything about each other, well… at least Robin thought he did… but he didn't.

Beast Boy wouldn't tell them. Heck, he won't tell them what's haunting him on the inside. And Beast Boy kept it so well hidden inside himself that Raven can't detect it not matter how hard she tried. Yes, she knew something was wrong with him, but he'd never tell anything what was wrong with him.

I'm rambling now, time to get back to reality. Beast Boy and Starfire were playing Dance, Dance, Revolution together, and of course they were singing along to the song. Raven was on the couch reading a book, Cyborg, was dancing along on the couch waiting for his turn to dance against BB, and Robin was in the kitchen watching the two from a distance.

Star and Beast Boy sang together as they danced, "You put it down like New York City! I never sleep! Wild like Los Angeles! My fantasy! Hotter than Miami! I feel the heat! Oh! Miss international love! Oh, Miss international love!"

Suddenly the screen read 'GAME OVER' below that showed that both Beast Boy and Starfire had tied and got the same scores. They looked at each other and smiled, they sang well together. Robin smiled, he loved it when his boyfriend sang. He always thought the changeling's voice sounded like music.

Cyborg playfully shoved Starfire out of the way and beamed, "My turn, BB!" His little green friend looked up at him and smirked, "Think you can beat me, Cy?" The cyborg laughed, "Anytime, anywhere."

"Right here, right now, any song."

"You're on, BB!"

The screen on the TV changed to show them what moves were needed to dance. The green boy smiled as he realized that one of his favorite songs was on. He jumped for joy for a moment before starting to dance with his friend.

Raven looked up slightly as Starfire clapped when Beast boy sang with the singer of the song, "You make me this, bring me up, bring me down. Playing sweet, make me move like a freak, Mr. Saxobeat. Make me this, bring me up, bring me down. Dancing sweet, make me move like a freak, Mr. Saxobeat!"

Before Cyborg could sing his part in the song an alarm went off and Robin shouted, "TROUBLE!" Cyborg whined, "I didn't get to sing my part…" Starfire grabbed her friend and flew off with him so they could catch up with the others.

Once the Titans were in the city they spotted Johnny Rancid riding his motorcycle at them at full speed. He was laughing like a mad man as he took Starfire and Raven down by punching the alien into Raven, causing them to fall to the ground.

Robin yelled, "TITANS GO!" Beast Boy morphed into a pterodactyl and picked up Cyborg as Robin ran after Johnny Rancid. Robin couldn't run fast enough to catch up with the villain so he took a short cut through an alley to catch up with Rancid.

Cyborg shot at the villain from the air, but each time Johnny would avoid each attack. Just as Cyborg was about to fire again, Rancid shot Beast Boy with his gun, causing the two of them to crash land to the ground. They watched as Starfire and Raven flew after him, but they were both shot into a building.

Johnny Rancid turned the corner and that's when Robin jumped out and punched the villain, almost causing him to fall off his motorcycle of doom. Beast Boy flew over in eagle form, watching the fight from the skies. He knew better than to get in the way of one of Robin's one on one fights.

But suddenly things took a turn for the worst as he saw his boyfriend get punched in the face, then punched in the stomach, and then he was thrown into a lamp post getting the wind knocked out of him. Johnny laughed as he saw Robin motionless on the ground, he walked over to the young leader with his gun aimed and ready to kill.

"Time to die, bird boy!"

"STOP!" screamed a voice.

"What?"

Johnny turned to see Beast Boy glaring right at him, anger in his usually bright emerald eyes. The green Titan growled, "Don't you dare touch him!" Before Rancid could think of something to say back, he was tackled to the ground by a green tiger.

The green cat roared, showing off his large, sharp white teeth. The villain tried to escape Beast Boy's grasp, but it was no use, he couldn't get free. The Titan roared again before taking a claw and slashing at his foe.

Rancid cried for mercy but Beast Boy ignored him, he wanted him to pay for what he did to his lover. Blood was pouring out of Rancid's wounds, Beast Boy knew not to kill but he knew to cause minimal damage without it being too serious.

But suddenly he stopped attacking when he heard scared civilians crying, "Monster! He's killing that man! A Teen Titan is killing that man! Help! Monster!" Beast Boy changed back to his human form and got off of Johnny trying to defend himself, but how could he when he was covered in the villain's blood?

"MONSTER!" shrieked a civilian.

"Monster?" whispered Beast Boy.

"Get him out of here! He's dangerous! He's a monster!"

"No… no… NO!"

He grabbed his head and fell to his knees screaming as all of his dark, twisted memories came back to haunt him. By now the other Titans had arrived to see Beast Boy covered in blood, grabbing his head trying not to cry. Then they looked around to see Robin trying to stand up and Johnny twitching on the ground.

Beast Boy looked at his teammates, then the terrified civilians, then to Robin… they were speechless, they were shocked… they were scared. The green boy stood up and slowly backed away from everyone, he thought they hated him… he thought Robin hated him.

But as soon as they tried to step towards him and calm him down, he morphed and flew off as a crow. He didn't look back, he didn't want to look back. He was too afraid to see the looks on his teammates faces, to see the look on his lover's face… they must not want him anymore.

He flew to the top of a mountain, one of the mountains close to where they first met Terra. Terra. The girl he thought he loved, but he was truly in love with Robin. She knew he loved Robin, even though he didn't know it. Beast Boy didn't know it, but when Terra broke free from her stone imprisonment, she remembered him. She didn't want him to think he loved her, so she pretended to forget him so he could love Robin without her interfering.

Terra was a good friend, and the two would always be good friends no matter what. He still didn't know that she remembered him, and Terra knew it was for the best that he didn't know it. He and Robin were meant to be, him and her just weren't.

Beast Boy didn't realize how long he had been sitting on top of the mountain until he saw the sun start to set. The sky looked so beautiful, it had blue, pink, purple, and orange in it. He was about to smile, but he instantly flashed back on everything that had happened to him in his past… and then what happened only hours ago.

"Monster…" he whispered to himself.

Little did Beast Boy knew, Robin had found him. But just as Robin was going to say something BB started to sing softly, "My little whispers, love me, love me. That's all I ask for, love me, love me. I battered my tiny fists to feel something, wondered what it's like to touch and feel something."

Robin was missing something, something important in Beast Boy's life. He pondered as he listened to his boyfriend sing, "Monster, how should I feel? Creatures lie here, looking through the window…"

Something must've happened to Beast Boy in his past and he was letting his emotions go as he sang, "That night he caged me, bruised and broke me. He struggled closer, then he stole me. Violet wrists and then my ankles. Silent pain. Then he slowly saw my nightmares were his dreams."

How could he not know everything about Beast Boy? BB knew everything about him, but he didn't know everything about his lover. He just stood there watching as his green boyfriend sang, "Monster, how should I feel? Creatures lie here, looking through the window. I will hear their voices, I'm a glass child. I am Hannah's regrets…"

Hannah? Who was Hannah? He was awakened out of his thoughts when he saw Beast boy looking at him with tears in his eyes singing, "Monster, how should I feel? Turn the sheets down. Murder ears with pillow lace. There's bathtubs, full of glow flies. Bathe in kerosene…"

"Their words tattooed in my veins."

Robin rushed to Beast Boy and held him to his chest as the green boy cried. He whimpered, "I never meant to him that bad… I didn't mean to… don't hate me… don't leave me… I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I'm a monster… I'm sorry… don't hate me… I love you… I'm sorry…"

The boy wonder just held him closer whispering quietly, "I love you, Beast Boy. I won't leave you, it's okay. He's fine, he's going to be alright. I'll never leave you, never. You aren't a monster, it's okay. I love you, I love you so much."

"Don't leave me alone… I'm scared."

"Scared of what?"

"My past."

The Next Morning….

The doors opened to the main room of the tower and he shuffled in ignoring his friends' worried looks. He sat on the couch staring at the TV, nothing was on since the TV wasn't even on. Starfire floated and sat beside him asking, "Friend Beast Boy, are you okay?"

He shrugged and slumped down lower on the couch, trying to avoid her. But she sighed and looked over at Robin, hoping he could help her. He sat down on the open left side of Beast Boy and wrapped an arm around his lover's shoulder.

Raven floated in front of him with Cyborg sitting on the ground beside her. Beast Boy joked weakly, "Is this a Dr. Phil moment we're going to have?" Everyone smiled weakly, at least he was still trying to be the Beast Boy they all knew and loved.

"Beast Boy," started Robin, "we're worried about you. We know you're hiding something from us." Raven said emotionlessly, "I've known you were hiding something since the day I met you, but you hid it so well I couldn't tell what you were keeping from everyone."

His sad green eyes just stared at her, and then they looked at Cyborg as his best friend said, "We just want you to feel better, man. This isn't you." Starfire added, "Yes! Where is our tofu eating friend?" He shrugged at them, not wanting to say anything but he knew he owed them an explanation.

"I just never wanted anyone to know about what happened to me…"

"Beast Boy, we are your friends. We will be here for you." Smiled Starfire.

"So you all really want to know about my past?"

"Yes."

He sighed before telling his story, "I wasn't always a green freak. I was once a normal human with no powers. I lived in Africa with my mom and dad. They were scientists. I was in the jungle with them when suddenly this green monkey with a virus called Sakutia bit me. I had forty eight hours to live before the virus killed me."

Everyone was pretty interested as Beast Boy continued, "They used an untested cure on me, saving my life but turning my skin, hair, and eyes green. My ears pointed and I grew small fangs. The cure also gave me my power to transform into animals. But they didn't care about what I looked like or what I could do, they just cared that I was alive."

He cringed as he went on, "Then we were on a boat, and I don't know how it happened but the boat crashed into something and it started to sink. A large part of the ship fell off and fell on my parents, making them sink to the bottom of the lake. I swam after them as a dolphin, I tried to get the thing off of them, but I was too weak. I saw my parents air bubbles slowly stop and in my mother's closed hand was her gold cross… her hand opened, like she was trying to tell me to take it… so I did."

Robin held his lover closed as he kept going, "I kept trying and trying to save them, but I was too weak. No matter how hard I tried, I could never save them… I lived on the street for a while until two people, a man and a woman, took me in as their son. It took me a year to finally love and trust them, but that's exactly what they wanted… they knew what I could do… they knew I was a shape shifter…"

Starfire put a hand over her heart as her friend went on with his story, "They were scientists and they forced me to use my powers for evil. But I always refused, and when I refused they would beat me and try to experiment on me. But I was saved about a year later and put under the care of Nicholas Galtry. When I got a little older, he hired people to kill me since he was afraid I'd inherit his fortune, but I really didn't want the money… I just wanted to be loved…"

Raven looked down at the ground as BB continued, "The killers were stopped by the Doom Patrol, and that's when things slowly started to get better. Mento, or Steve, and Elasti Girl, or Rita, adopted me and I became a member of the Doom Patrol. Negative Man and Robot Man were like my big brothers, and each time Mento would get mad at me, they'd try to defend me… it didn't take long for me to leave the Doom Patrol, it wasn't right for me… so I met you guys and joined the Teen Titans."

Robin held his boyfriend closer as he asked, "What happened to you when the scientists had you? Who's Hannah?" Beast Boy closed his and then opened them saying, "Hannah was the name of my mother…"

"But what did the scientists do to you?"

"Caged me, beat me, cut me, tried to open me up, burned me, and… raped me…"

"Oh no! Beast Boy!"

"It was like all my nightmares came to life… and I couldn't stop them…"

Starfire grabbed her green friend's hand and said, "Your past is most upsetting. I am sorry, friend Beast Boy." Robin looked at his boyfriend and whispered, "You are not Hannah's regret." Raven and Cyborg looked at each other, confused at where Robin got that.

He buried his head into Robin's chest crying, "The scientists called me a freak, a monster! Said I was nothing more than a test subject! Called me a waste of space! They told me I shouldn't even be alive! They told me I should just bathe in kerosene and light a match so I'd catch on fire and die! They told me… nobody loved me... nobody could love a monster like me…"

Robin kissed his lover's head and said, "I love you. You're not a monster… whatever they told you, they were wrong. Because I love you, Starfire loves you, Raven loves you, Cyborg loves you, everyone here loves you."

"Everyone except myself."

Suddenly the alarm went off again causing Robin to jump up with Beast Boy in his arms. He yelled, "TROUBLE!" The three other Titans ran out of the tower, leaving Robin and Beast Boy alone for a moment so they could quickly talk.

Robin lifted Beast Boy's chin up so they were looking at each other. Robin kissed him passionately before pulling away and saying, "No matter what happens today, just know that I love you." Beast Boy's eyes looked like they lit up as he heard Robin's words.

"Even though I'm haunted, I love you too."

In The City….

"It can't be…" whispered Cyborg as he saw Slade walking towards the three Titans. He said in his usual calm voice, "Ah, the Titans. You seem to be missing two of them though. No matter, I shall just wait for their arrival."

"You don't have to wait anymore!" cried a heroic voice.

They all looked up to see Beast Boy in pterodactyl form carrying Robin. When the younger Titan was close to the ground he released Robin and morphed back to human form beside his leader. Slade stated, "Aw, you brought your pretty little boyfriend, Robin… good."

Beast Boy quivered as he said, "Dude, that is so creepy…" Robin glared at his enemy and shouted, "TITANS, GO!" And they were off, one by one they attacked and one by one they were each tossed aside like they were nothing.

Each of them laid motionless on the ground after Slade shot each of them with his gun. But suddenly Beast Boy struggled to stand up, and once he was on his feet Slade grabbed him and held him against his chest so the Titans could see their green friend's face.

Robin instantly shot up when he heard his lover scream, "ROBIN! HELP!" Robin ordered, "Beast Boy, change!" He made his best effort but it was no use, the blast from the gun made him too weak to morph into any animal.

By now the other Titans were up and ready to attack. Robin growled as he watched Slade caressed Beast Boy's cheek and said, "Now look at the hate in all of your eyes as this pretty little monster is in my arms and not yours. I'll be taking him as my pet, where you will never see him again."

Just as Robin took one step forward, Slade put a gun up against BB's head and threatened, "One more step from any of you and I'll blow his head right off!" The Titans stepped back, not wanting any harm to come to their friend.

Beast Boy mouthed, "I'm sorry" to Robin before he said seductively to Slade, "Oh Slade, I love it when you act all bad, it just turns me on." He noticed Slade put the gun away and his grip loosened as he said that.

"Mmmm, does it really?"

"Yes, you're making me so hot…"

"Good, I'll make you feel even hotter in the bedroom…"

"Oh, but you forgot one thing..."

Before Slade could even ask what Beast Boy broke free of his grasp and punched him in the face. He stated, "I'm a Teen Titan, not a play toy." Slade growled, "Oh but you are to me, mark my words I will be back for you… and your little body too."

Robin grabbed BB as Slade threw a smoke bomb on the ground, allowing him to make his escape. When the smoke disappeared the green Titan apologized, "Robin, I' so sorry I did that… it was the only way I could get free cause I couldn't change into-"

The leader's lips cut him off as he melted with the kiss. Robin pulled away and whispered, "You scared me. Not because you were fake flirting with him, but because he wanted to take you away and… deflower you…"

Beast Boy hugged his boyfriend and whispered, "I only want you to deflower me… I love you." Robin returned the hug by wrapping his arms around BB's waist and replying, "I love you too."

That Night In Beast Boy's Room….

It was 10:44pm but Beast Boy couldn't sleep, he was having flashbacks about his parents, especially about his mother. He hopped out of bed and turned on his iPod to shuffle. Music started to play as he walked over to the window to look out it. Robin had his ear up against the door so he could hear what Beast Boy was doing and so he could hear the song.

"I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom to make it all better.

I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom who will love me whatever."

Beast boy's ears dropped, he wanted a mom that would last forever. His real mother didn't, and he knew Elasti Girl wouldn't last forever either. She wasn't immortal. But he wished she was. He sighed as the song continued.

"I want a mom that'll take my hand,

And make me feel like a holiday.

A mom to tuck me in at night,

And to chase the monsters away.

I want a mom that'll read me stories,

And sing a lullaby.

And if I have a bad dream,

To hold me when I cry."

Robin knew Beast Boy's heart was slowly breaking as the song played. The green boy opened the window and let the breeze of the ocean surrounding the tower blow against his skin. It felt nice, like his mother or Elasti Girl was holding him in their arms.

"Oh, I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom to make it all better.

I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom who will love me whatever, forever."

He closed his eyes and allowed the flashbacks of his real mother to consume his thoughts. And then he let the flashbacks of Rita come into his thoughts. When he opened his eyes he realized that he was now crying.

"When she says to me,

She will always be there.

To watch and protect me,

I don't have to be scared.

Oh, and when she says to me,

'I will always love you'.

I won't need to worry,

Cause I know that it's true."

His body started to shake as he let the tears fall freely. He knew it wasn't like him to cry, but this song just made him remember everything about his mother. All the good times they had when she was alive. Rita thought she couldn't compare to Beast Boy's real mother, but little did she know BB thought she was just like his real mother.

"I want a mom when I get lonely,

Who will take the time to play.

A mom who can be a friend,

And a rainbow when it's gray.

I want a mom to read me stories,

And sing a lullaby.

And if I have a bad dream,

To hold me when I cry."

By now Robin had walked into the room and wrapped his arms around Beast Boy, allowing the younger Titan to cry into his chest. Robin wouldn't say anything, he'd just rub his lover's back and listen to the song.

"Oh, I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom to make it all better.

I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom that'll love me whatever, forever.

I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom to make it all better.

I want a mom that will last forever,

I want a mom that'll love me whatever, forever."

Beast Boy looked up at Robin with teary eyes, neither of them said a word. No words were needed since their eyes did the talking for them. Beast Boy's eyes showed Robin he loved him, and Robin's eyes showed BB he loved him, even though his eyes were covered by a mask. Beast Boy snuggled up against Robin whispering the lyrics to the song.

"I want a mom,

I want a mom.

I want a mom that'll last forever,

I want a mom that'll last forever.

I want a mom,

I want a mom.

I want a mom that'll last forever,

I want a mom.

I want a mom that'll last forever,

I want a mom that'll last forever…"

Robin leaned down and kissed his boyfriend's head. He murmured, "I want my beautiful boyfriend to be okay again." BB replied, "I want to feel okay again, Robin… I love you." Robin kissed him again and said, "I love you more than you could even imagine." The green boy closed his eyes and sang the last words of the song:

"I want a mom that'll last forever."

Yay! It's my first Teen Titans fic! I love it! And Beast Boy and Robin paired together as well! Sorry if no one likes singing in the chapters, I like it so I put it in every once and a while in my stories. Some chapters might not have singing, just letting everyone know. Sorry for any mistakes!

PLEASE REVIEW SO I KNOW THAT PEOPLE LIKE IT! :)

Songs in order of appearance: "International Love" by Pitbull featuring Chris Brown, "Mr. Saxobeat" by Alexandra Stan, "Monster" by Meg & Dia, & "I Want A Mom That Will Last Forever" by Cyndi Lauper.

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