Prologue
Why should I give you a second chance?
The only thing you've given me was a plastic heart,
While you lead me away in iron chains.
The feelings you portrayed were fake, fraud, illusions.
The gifts you gave were simply part of your plan.
The 3 words you said were absolutely meaningless.
I foolishly walked in the dark
And it wasn't until I stumbled,
When I would see the light
And the true man, who hid under the mask.
It had only been 3 months since I met him. It only took 3 months to fall madly in love. I admit I was very naïve to believe that he felt the same. Why did I believe him? How could I believe him? He never wanted me for me. He wanted me for the money.
Stabbed from the behind,
I thought I could believe in you.
This pain is overwhelming me.
And you know I've never been a masochist.
So why did you do this to me?
Wouldn't you wonder how I'd feel?
Oh wait, I forgot that you just didn't care.
I cannot explain to you how it feels to be stabbed in the back by someone you loved. You probably wouldn't understand by reading a small description, unless you've experienced the same pain yourself. I cannot explain to you how it feels to be used by someone you loved. Again, you'd probably wouldn't understand unless, you've experienced it yourself. But you must understand, I loved this man very much. I would have done anything and everything for him if it made him happy. You must understand that I didn't realize that he simply wanted to rob my family's greatest treasure for a profit.
You're like a song stuck on repeat.
You're flashing in my head over and over again.
I just want you out of my head
And as I'm driven to madness,
I'm also driven off the edge,
Into this dark pit called death.
I can't seem to live without you.
When he left with the family ring, I made no effort to stop him. Instead I feel to my knees and cried, while he left my family compound. The days following his departure, the rest of the members said it wasn't my fault and that there was no way I would've been able to stop him. He was too strong. Yet still I cried rivers down my cheeks, not because I let the family ring get away, but because the love of my life left me.
I couldn't take how lonely I felt, now that he was gone. I couldn't take anymore of this life, because I thought that a life without him was no life at all. And so, with my kunai I took my own life.
Kakuzu, I cannot live without you.
