To Be With You

I kissed him back. Why is this happening? I pulled away and looked at him. He was smiling so brightly, there wasn't even room left in his face for anything else but his teeth.
'Wow,' was all he could say. He didn't stop looking at me, I was kind of scared. I couldn't speak. Somehow the kiss felt so right and I've been longing for it for some time now but still something inside me screamed 'stop it, now!' I tried to ignore the feeling that was bubbling up inside my stomach.
Focus Beca, this is the guy you've been after for quite some time now and you finally showed him that you cared for him. Don't mess up now!
He took my hand. 'Thank you so much…,' was the only thing he said.
What was I supposed to answer to that? Thank you for what? Dude I just kissed you and you say 'thank you'?!
Kidding me? Who does that?
I really had no clue what to answer so I just smiled weakly and looked down to the floor again. I felt so empty.
The place was crowded, the people were screaming and cheering after our performance, Jesse was holding my hand and then there was me.
One of so many, right between so many happy people and I should be the most happy one of all of them.
I mean we just had the best performance with the Bella's ever and the guy I like just kissed me.
And yet I didn't feel that rush of joy.
Out of nowhere two hands found their way from my back around my waist and then someone was hugging me really tightly.
Jesse's face changed, I noticed that the smile was almost gone and his eyes widened. Just then I realized that those hands around my waist weren't even his.
Don't freak out, Beca. It's just fine… You will turn around slowly and take a glance at the person who is rubbing his or her body against your back. It won't be bad.

Whilst turning around, which I did pretty quickly because I was really confused and wanted to know who is invading my personal space, a known face appeared and next thing I know is her lips are on my cheek, placing a ever so softly kiss on it.
'This was the most awesome thing we ever did! I can't believe what happened up there! Can you?' asked the girl. I turned around completely to find out it was Chloe who was invading my personal space what was actually logical because she does that all the time.
All of the sudden I was speechless. I didn't even know why but I was so stunned by her presence. 'Come on, we're gonna party now! We're driving back in 10, so make sure to be outside then,' she smiled, stroked my hand lightly and walked out.
By now Jesse's smile somehow was gone and I was confused because I didn't do anything wrong and he seemed mad.
'Everything alright with you?'
'Totally, I'm just tired. It's been a hell of day. I think I'll go back to the buss now. I see you on campus, I guess?' he blinked. 'You don't want to spend th…?' I noticed he was already walked off on me and I felt like a total idiot because he just left me there while I was talking.
I didn't believe him a word he said. For some seconds I just stood there.

Suddenly someone grabbed my hand. I stiffened. It was Chloe again, pulling me closer to her.
'We have been waiting 10 minutes by now. What are you doing? Can we please go now, I wanna celebrate,' she darted out her tongue.
I laughed, 'You are right, I'm sorry. I don't even know what's going on right now. Let's go.'
She took hold of my hand and led me out of the building. While we were walking I became aware of the fact that I didn't just stand there for some seconds but for almost 7 minutes or something. I blushed at the thought and somehow Chloe noticed immediately.
'What's going on sweetie?' she asked, grinning at me.
'Oh... me? Uhm.. oh.. nothing. I guess I'm just exhausted... or something,' I blurred out.
Oh shit. She'll notice something is wrong and she'll ask you and torture you until you tell her.
But I don't even know what's wrong with me right now, how can I tell her?

'Oh honey, you can sleep in the bus. Then we'll get you something to drink and we just forget everything for a couple of hours and celebrate, ok?' she looked deeply into my eyes hoping to receive a quick, happy-sounding answer.
'Sounds like a good plan! But I'm not sure if I can sleep while the bus-ride…'
'Huh? Is the bus to uncomfortable for you, little princess?'
'No you jerk, it's jus…'
'Yeah, yeah sure, I know, you are just searching for an excuse to rest your head on my shoulder. I'm perfectly fine with it as long as you won't start complaining that I'm uncomfortable or something!' she poked my side.
And I blushed again. Turn away, quick!

Her arm slid around my waist – Damn she noticed.
'You playing a little shy today, or what? Well, I won't complain if you start showing your soft side. I knew you have one. I've seen through the tough Beca long time ago. You're really cute,' she smirked.
'I am not cu…'
Suddenly Chloe's finger was on my mouth, shushing me.
'Don't even start. I won't believe a word you'll say. Let's get you on that bus. I can't wait to dance with you when we're back!'
'Who said I would dance?'
Oh dear, this night won't end well. I can feel it.