Ana are you home?" I heard Kate, my roommate shout as she walked trough the door of my apartment. "Yes I just got back from school, why are you home so early?" Kate is my best friend, we have been friends since I moved to Seattle. I was 13 and talked horrible English, she took me under her wing and haven't left my side since.
" You seriously just got home from school? Do I have to remind you Anastasia that today is Friday and the clock is nearly nine" of course she doesn't have to remind me, not my fault that I am in a very unhappy relationship and is to afraid to do something about it.
" No you don't," I said "but you still owe me an explanation why you are home so early from your date with Mr. Old" I said teasing her.
She looked at me hesitating but smiling, not the look I got from her yesterday when I mentioned him. "You need to stop calling him that! He is only 10 years older than me, and we both know you have done a lot worse and older than that" she says laughing. Valid and very true point
"But it was awful" she continued "It was as serious as a job interview and as awkward as meeting your parents in-law for the first time"
I laughed out loud "That must be by far the worst dating description I have ever heard"
"I am glad you think this is amusing, not everyone can have the same boyfriend since they were 18 and still be happy" oh if that were true I would agree with her
" Yes, you should envy me very much, not only do I have the perfect boyfriend but I also have Vodka " I tease " oh, Anastasia Steele you sure do have the perfect life, but lucky for me you are my girl, and I do you remember saying something about sharing is caring, or did you just say that so you could sleep with my brother?" That's my girl, no need to sugar code it,
I stood up from my bed and walked to my closet, took the vodka out and said to my dearest friend jokingly " remind me again why we are friends". She took the vodka from my hand, took a shot, walked out of my room then turns around and said "because we are the same, now get dressed we are going clubbing, I need some serious drinking therapy after that date."
Then clubbing it was, there was no point in arguing with her when she was in that mood. She was in a very demanding mood, witch is unlike her but I could tell that she was disappointed from her date. She had high bedroom hopes for this date, I mean he was 10 years older, I would've had mine hopes too. I recall her telling me just yesterday about how long time since last. When I think about it, how long has it been since me and Jose were together? Yup. That long
I am not one of the girls who takes hours to get ready, I am good with quick shower, moroccan oil in my hair, basic powder and of course my lifesaver naked palette. The longer my hair gets, the easier it is to deal with it, so I am usually ready within a half an hour. Look at me one vodka glass down and my self-confidence is starting to kick in. I seriously look great though..
"Kate are you ready?" I shout, as I pored myself another vodka glass. She didn't answer me, I didn't care if we are late or not, she insisted going clubbing so she could take all the time in the world.
I walked to my bedroom, looked in the mirror happy with my choice of outfit for the night. No one can do wrong in black leather pants and white blazer, or so I've been told.
I sat down to my desk, opened my laptop and glanced at a photo at my desk. God I miss my parents. My father is from Sweden and my mother is from Iceland. I have lived all around Europe and not practically long in the same country. My parents are always traveling because of their business and frankly because they can. They own company that my father inherited from his mother's family, I haven't ever given the company interest. I just know that we are lucky and privileged, and I leave it at that.
When my parents told me we were moving to Barcelona after 6 years in Seattle , I set my foot down and begged them to let me stay.
It was a very hard decision for them but of course they understood me.
Seattle is the place I call home and they knew that.
"What are you thinking about? You look serious" Kate said as she stood in my doorway "Wow you startled me Kate, but just the usual missing my mama and papa, but you look very good by the way" I said changing the subject quickly Me drinking and missing mama and papa is something nobody wants.
"Thank you Ana, you too but then again when do you not?" Just what i needed after my self-pity moment of weakness. I smiled at her and said " tomorrow when I wake up after all this drinking"
Her phone buzzed our ride was here.
We arrived around 11 pm to a nightclub down town, Baltic room. I had never been to this club before but Kate is a regular. Before Ethan as in Kate's brother I was a regular in downtown seattle , knew every bouncer at the hottest places. Ethan was a good influence to me, he made me take my studies seriously and thought me not to take everything for granted. I was seventeen in love with my best friend older brother, what a classic. We dated for 9 months then he moved to Boston to take his masters degree.
I've seen him twice since our heartbreaking good-byes. Once at a christmas party 3 months after his departure, I was going to surprise him, but he came home with a new girlfriend, what a surprise! The second time was in a bookstore in Seattle, he was on a summer break from his studies, we had coffee that was nice. I miss him. Why am I even thinking about him? Ana get a grip! Oh yes, Kate mention him earlier..
"I got you your favorite, Bacardi Razz in Sprite Zero" Kate said as she hands me my drink and sits down next to me "Thanks I'll get the second round" I sayid " I don't think that will be necessary" she whispered and give two guys a wink and a smile " they are very eager to take the next couple of rounds". I laughed with her and glanced at the bar. I don't blame Kate they are both very attractive.
My phone buzzes I read
Jose: How are you? Hope you are as miserable as me.
I slept with her one time, Ana can you just let it go?
You know I care about you deeply and I know you care about me too.
Oh, yes my perfect boyfriend, oh how my life was completed. I was not even going to open his message, let him sweated for a couple of hours.
"Who was it" Kate asked "Just Jose" I answered, I hadn't even told her about this. "Oh, how is he anyways, is he on some business trip? it has been awhile since I saw him, is everything Okay between you to?. " She asked
"Yes I just need to go the bathroom quickly, I'will be right back" I stuttered
oh what I am not in the mood for this As I stood up and walked towards the bathroom she shouted " I'll meet you at the bar, my glass is empty" oh typical Kate
I walked down the stairs so very quickly, I didn't have time or strength to cry about Jósé now, I've used to much tears in him, to many thoughts Do not cry Ana I mean it, do not cry
As I saw the sign of the ladies room I was so overwhelmed and in such hurry that I failed to see some guy who I ran down, and suddenly I was laying on the floor along with all my belongings god I am a mess
" Miss, I am so sorry, you came out of nowhere" He said Oh god I can't even look at him I am so ashamed, lying there on the floor like a drunken teenager, but not yet ready to stand up. I stood up with out saying a word put my things back to my purse, glanced hesitated at him oh, what a beautiful man I cant even make words, and I am not even going to try. I straightened myself out took one second look at him, wow and said "thanks and sorry" and I walked straight to the bathroom.
And this was the reason I didn't go clubbing anymore, I get drunk, I see beautiful men and I couln't even make a sound. Get a grip Anastasia.
As I finished in the bathroom a glance at the mirror, I din't look so bad for a girl who just fell in front of David Beckham, well he was almost as good looking.
I walked to Kate who sat with these two guys from earlier, I smiled at her.
She is such a tease. Makes everyone fall in love with her, easily.
With that strawberry blonde hair and her perfect teeth. She was the only girl I know who I would seriously think about sleeping with, she has some vibe about her, not like that is news, but tonight she was especially glowing. God I must me very drunk, it has been a long time since i thought about Kate that way.
" Hi " I whispered to her ear as she pasts me a drink " what took you so long" she asked " I literally ran someone down right before I got to the bathroom, I am so embarrassed", " you are so clumsy Ana". She introduced me to her new friends. Elliott and Steve, One works in marketing the other works in finance, it was very awkward to sit there and watch them compete about Kate. If every word out of their mouth were true they would be as powerful as Obama, oh please guys.
As I listened to their conversation with one ear and drank my drink, I remember the text from Jose, wow.. he had so slipped my mind.
I reached for my purse and looked for my phone, after 3 minutes it is very clear that my phone wasn't there.
It was a small Marc Jacobs bag, no doubt about it.
It was time to call it a night, I told Kate about my phone and she understood, I told her to have a good time.
I got my jacket and hopped into a Taxi, "where to miss" " 98101" I answered. As I came home I looked at my watch, 01:50, no wonder Kate wasn't ready to go home. I was getting old. I walked into my bedroom and got straight to my computer, It' has been to long since I heard from my parents. I've been very emotional tonight and if I knew my mama right there is nothing that would make her happier than a corny,emotional E-mail from a drunken me. maybe not drunken but she would never know
To: Freyja
From:
Hæ ég sakna ykkar pabba svo mikið. Wow it's been a year or so since I've talked or wrote in icelandic. I know both icelandic and swedish, but I haven't rarely spoken either since I was 13. Not to my parents tough, specially when they talk to each other in english. When we moved I needed the practice in english either way. So I kind of stopped.
This is weird mama, I will just stick to English, but I haven't forgotten I word I promise, just saving it for afi and amma :) I just want'ed to say Hi and I miss you and papa. When are you coming to home? School is great, I am doing very well as expected I am starting my internship next week, I cant say I am excited but I will do this for dad.
Me and Jose are broken up, it's for the best. Oh did I just write that, I guess I did.
I am going to sleep now miss you tell papa I say hi.
I love you, ég elska þig, älskar dig
Your multilingual, well up raised and oh so well behaved daughter Anastasia Steele.
As I clicked send I could see my mother rolling her eyes at the same time she would read the last paragraph. What a humorist she has raised
I am as relieved as shocked that I wrote that me and Jose are broken up,
I need to deal with him tomorrow and my phone. As I stood up from the laptop I heard that I have received an email. Wow mama that must be a record!
Very exited to hear from my mama I begin to read.
And it is very clear that is not from my mama.
To:
From: Christian
Subject: Possession
Evening Miss Steele
I believe I have something in my possession that you aim.
Kind Regards C.G
WHAT THE FUCK ? As I read the e-mail over and over and over and over again, I couldn't find anything that was not wrong with it. Who is Christian? Where did he get my e-mail address? Who uses Gmail when you have a valid school or work email? What does he have in his possession that I aim? ugh I get the chills just my thinking about this. And who talks like this ?seriously tough
And the best part is by far "Kind regards" it must have been the auto corrector talking because I am sure it was supposed to say Creepy regards.
I don't know if I am supposed to cry or laugh but I decide to answer my friend from the 1900.
To: Christian
From:
Subject: Oh, please do share
Well hello to you too Mr. ?
You seem to know more about what I aim than me, so please share.
But as this e-mail is sent from your gmail and not from your personal e-mail, I am quite sure that this is all some big creepy prank to make me jump up on my feet.
So if you are going to play this game I will of course play along.
I guess there is just one thing that I could be aiming that is in your possession, you know it I know it. Of course it is your big beautiful cock that I've been aiming for so long and never really understood that was missing in my life , but now I do.. And everything is so, so clear. If that isn't going to make him jump on his feet I think nothing will! If you are going to play with fire Christian you know you will get burned.
Thankful and so very satisfied regards.
Anastasia Steele
As I clicked on send I wasvery happy with myself, read it over.. Smiling as I brushed my teeth, It was kind of awkward that I found myself this funny... For a girl who just broke up with her boyfriend and lost her phone, I went to sleep surprisingly happy.
