You're Gone

Summary: This story about how Naruto deals with the death of his best friend. And Kakashi helps him get over it. Warning: includes suicide attempts and heart breaking moments. I even cried while writing this.

Naruto's POV

You know that saying when you don't know what your missing until they are gone. Well I experience it first hand once he left me...

My heart pumps my blood slowly as my liver slowly dies as I drink my sorrows away. I wish for death to come and take me.

I missed him to death. I wished that I could forget him. I wished he would come through the door right now and be smiling at me as he gathered me in a hug.

Saying that I was a dobe for missing him and trying to kill myself by drinking. However I knew that would be just a silly thought, he's dead.

He's not coming back and I'm left here to suffer. Tears poured down my face.

I wanted him here with me. I wanted him to come back from the dead and stay with me forever, but that wasn't God's plan. That was never God's plan in the first place.

I don't know what I should believe, all I know is my best friend died and now I'm alone.

I dearly miss him and I wish for him to come back. I see him every night in my dreams, I yearn for him to come back.

Sometimes I see him and my friends have to snap me out of it. Telling me repeatedly that he is dead, Sasuke Uchiha is dead. He's not here anymore.

I soon crumble down to the floor, crying for him. Hoping that one day, I can turn back time and stop him from dying or if I couldn't stop him from dying... Then I would tell him how I feel about him. However, I knew traveling through time nor was he living real.

I slowly get back up, wiping my tears away and pop several pills in my mouth before drinking a large gulp of sake.

Overtime I became a alcoholic, I resorted to drinking away my sorrows. The hurt never goes away. Sometimes I think living without him isn't what I need or want right now. He's gone and I'm left with a broken heart to fix.

I heard yelling and whining in the distance. I heard familiar voices like "Is he okay? What happened?" "He tried to attempt a suicide attack on himself, we had to pump his stomach to get all the pills out of his system. Also he has a bad liver, we have to replace it, right now the only thing keeping him alive is the ivy."

I slowly opened my eyes, bright light shined in them. I muttered, "Sasuke..." I wanted him by my side, not this doctor. I wanted him here with me, running his pale fingers in my blond hair and his sweet voice whispering that everything was going be okay.

I blinked away my tears once the doctor and Kakashi noticed that I was awake. I soon was surrounded by my sensei warmth, "Don't you ever do something like that again." My faded blue eyes lifelessly stared up at him, "I want Sasuke, where is he?" Again I wished him to come back. Some say I was in denial of his death, but somewhere in my heart said that he was dead and will never come back.

Kakashi only shaken his head at me and held me tighter, crying with me and said he was sorry repeatedly. I understood what he meant, I knew that I wouldn't forget.

I wouldn't forget the way he brighten my day even with his insults. I wouldn't forget the way he responded with so much negativity towards others, but never towards me. Only teasing between us was shared and the ongoing rivalry to the day he died.

The doctor agreed that I wasn't a person to be trusted right now and agreed that I should live with Kakashi. He didn't want me be alone in my house either. It didn't really matter much to me, it wouldn't take away the nightmares of him. I'm afraid to say his name because I'm scared I will cry.

I don't like to show my feelings to anyone except him. He's the only one who understood me. Was it that wrong to not bring up my emotions? I don't know anymore.

Word of the day: Dobe means Idiot