I'm bored , so I'm just writing this out since inspiration suddenly struck. Please don't flame me if it's bad ! ;-)

P.S. I'm writing this in Edward's POV.

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I watched her stir silently in the folds of her sheets and whisper my name. I smiled as I stroked her hair softly , admiring her cute cheeks that would be amassing pools of blood each time she blushed.

Ahh…… Bella……

She was my own angel , sent from the highest level of heaven to fill the space in my undead heart. She tossed about softly , letting out a small whimper - almost as if she was having a nightmare. I frowned. It was times like this I wish I could read her mind. It was unjust for the heavens to send me an angel that I couldn't read - I would trade my immortality just to hear what's going on in that pretty head of hers. I twisted my fingers under her thick mane of mahogany , calling out her name ever so softly.

"Bella , I'm here for you ," I whispered mildly , watching her slightly pained features turn serene once more.

I sighed , watching her snuggle into the folds of my cashmere sweater. A sudden breeze blew from the window , causing her to grapple against me closer. I chuckled silently to myself. I didn't know why she was seeking me for warmth , considering my body was as hard as marble and just as cold as ice. Perhaps it was the untold fascination she found in predators such as myself ?

The wind picked up once again and this time I felt her pulse quicken as her body began to shiver. I tried to stand up to shut it , but she grabbed my midsection tightly , crying out , " Don't leave me."

"Never ," I reassured her , hugging her as softly as I could without fracturing any bones in her body.

This is wrong , I told my self countless times.

You're a vampire , she's human. You're a predator , she's prey. You're a lion , she's a lamb.

Great , my conscience is finally getting to me , I thought bitterly.

Wrong ! Wrong ! Wrong !

I ignored the hounds of guilt and concentrated on the crystal vase that stood by her bedside. It held a single rose - the one I gave her last week as a sign of promise that I'll return from my hunting trip as soon as I can to embrace her. The tips of the petals were slightly withered with age , even though the ruby still shone in the moonlight. I frowned once again as I held the vase in my grasp and surveyed the dying rose.

Age……………………

Something I'll never attain because of my cursed immortality. Something Bella was seeking just to be with me. Something I've denied her numerous times - because I refused to damn her to the shadows. Before I knew it , the memory of our last argument resurfaced in my mind.

"Edward , I want to be with you ," Bella stated suddenly , picking the petals of the daisy I just gave her.

I sighed. " Bella , we've already discussed this. My answer is still no."

"Are you going to change your mind ?" she asked , blowing away the scattered petals from her palm.

"No ," I replied instantaneously.

"But you love me , right ?" she questioned sullenly , avoiding my gaze.

I leaned forward and cupped her chin gently , tilting her face so that we could make eye contact.

"Don't ever doubt for a second that I'm not in love with you Isabella Marie Swan , because I truly am."

She turned away , mumbling softly , " Then why wouldn't you change me ?"

Boy , was she one adamant little human.

"Bella , you know -" I began tiredly.

Her coco eyes glazed with determination as she cut me off , "I would spend three days in hell to be with you , Edward. Forever and always. Three days of fire will be nothing to me Edward !" She began screaming , her tone getting higher and more frantic, " because I know that'll I spend the rest of eternity with you ! You're my light Edward ! I don't mind being some sort of animal trying to eat others as long as I can be with you ! Damnit Edward , don't you see ? I LOVE YOU ! I LOVE YOU EDWARD ANTHONY MASEN CULLEN AND I FOREVER WILL EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE A BLOOD SUCKING VAMPIRE !"

She began panting , looking at me hopefully.

"Please Edward , I- I love you ," she cried , warm tears gushing down her cheeks.

Anger and fear began bubbling in my stomach. I knew my eyes were flat black now , I saw her cringe slightly. Before I knew it , my temper and greatest fears flared to life.

"You don't understand do you ? I was dying Bella ! I had no choice ! Carlisle saved me on my mother's request - you , you ! You have a choice ! You have a family , friends , a life ! Why would you want to travel through the shadows with me ? Do you want to feed and murder - the endless guilt of crying women and children tormenting your soul , unceasing because you're unable to perish ? Do you want to live with the memories of your friends and family aging and dying , while death avoids you ? DO YOU ? ANSWER ME !" I yelled back.

What she said next was chilling , " Yes , I would."

The vase exploded in my grasp - sending sharp pieces of crystal to tear through my clothes. Mercifully , none of it hit Bella. She seemed unperturbed by the noise. In fact she just muttered mellifluously.

"I love you , Edward."

I flinched as her words sliced open a deep wound in my heart.

How could I harm such a petite creature ? How could I condemn the one I love to eternal darkness ?

I caught my reflection in the large piece of shattered crystal. My eyes were obsidian - an indication that I needed to hunt. I stood up graciously and pecked my love on the cheek before settling her gently on the bed. After discarding the remnants of the shattered vase , I laid the rose on her bedside and headed towards the open window. Just before I left , I turned and stole one last glance at her peaceful form.

"I love you Isabella."

With that soft mutter , I jumped and headed home at top vampire speed. It was time to hunt.

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I hunted around for Jasper - I was desperate to seek his advice. Plus , I wanted a companion as I fed and I knew Jasper was aching with hunger - I caught his eyes turning onyx as Jessica Stanley handed him a flyer for the Winter Solstice Dance during lunch today. Alice kept a close eye on him the whole day , obviously foreseeing some untold massacre with him as the main star. I felt pretty sorry for him , I've heard his innumerable internal struggles to resist human blood since the day he arrived at our doorstep. Let's just say it wasn't a fairy tale which ended happily.

"Edward ? What are you -" An awkward pause , " -Why is your sweater torn ?"

I turned sharply and met Esme's stunned gaze. Just as she was about to ask what I was doing here and not watching over Bella , Emmett came down the stairs.

"Hey , aren't you suppose to be on 'Bella Watch' or something ?" he quipped , earning a disapproval look from Esme.

I growled under my breath and he chuckled.

"Chill bro , I was just joking."

Just as I predicted Rosalie was down in a flash by his side , eyeing him lustfully. I got the most awful , heinous mental images regarding a nude Emmett covered in chocolate and whip cream and I cringed , shutting out the gory images. Rosalie huffed as she caught my expression and shot me an accusatory , 'That-was-private-you-little-peeping-Tom' look. I returned her glare with a , 'I'm-so-sorry-but-in-case-you-haven't-noticed-I'm-a-freaking-mind-reader!' stare. She dragged a glassy-eyed Emmett upstairs - I knew with precision what was to ensue next.

Alice suddenly came from the back , looking confounded , " Esme , why is there a can of whip cream and a tub of chocolate on the kitchen counter -" she stopped as she saw me , " - Hi Edward !"

Her gaze swept over my frayed sweater and her mouth turned into a slight 'o' of understanding. No doubt she saw what had happened. She instantly replied to my unasked query.

"He's at the back with Carlisle , he's coming now ," she chirped , smiling.

Right on cue Jasper appeared , with Carlisle trailing closely behind.

"I do realise it is subjective that cloning might be a step to scientific excellence Carlisle , but even Shakespeare has predicted the repercussions through his -"

He stopped abruptly , obviously catching wind of my fear , hunger and desperation thanks to his empathic senses. His dark honey eyes met mine.

"Need to hunt. Want to come along ?" I asked shortly.

He smoothed his long blond locks backwards before eyeing me prudently for a second. He gave a curt nod and within milliseconds we were tearing through the forest that encircled our home , locking on to the scent of wild game that lingered close by. After we sated our hankering , we settled down in a nearby clearing looking at each other.

"So , what's going on ?" Jasper asked tenderly , his refreshed topaz eyes glinting.

"It's -" I paused for a full minute , my brain racking with confusion as to what to spill out now.

Sensing my answer , Jasper spoke , " It's Bella. She wants to be one of us , doesn't she ?"

I sighed , " I don't know what to do Jasper , I really wish I could change her but - I'm a monster and she's human ! I could hurt her !"

"Maybe. Maybe not ," he stopped , before looking at the distance , " We're vampires Edward , we kill - murder - it's our nature. All of us understand that. We may not be akin to those of lore but the one thing I know , we can have salvation."

He looked back at me.

"Alice is my light Edward. Without her , I was - lost. I was an empty shell , prowling the streets for hoodlums and vagabonds to feed upon. As much as I was satisfied after every drop of blood , I was still hollow - unemotional , unfeeling , uncaring."

His face was suddenly aglow with hope.

"But after I met Alice - she was the most beautiful creature I've ever seen. She showed me what is was like to feel , touch , to live again. A silver lining on a cloud , a gem in the night sky , a compass in a traveller's grasp - that was Alice - my saviour."

He edged closer , until he was standing a feet away from me.

"Bella is your light , Edward. I know you're afraid , as I am when I smell her enticing blood - but this is the life she chooses. It's her decision , she just wants to be with you - no one else matters to her. Grant her desire and your life will be fulfilled."

"But I'm dark and she's light ," I whispered softly , ignoring the choir of cicadas and the rustle of leaves.

"Yes , you are. But you forgot ," he implored , smiling grimly. " Light and dark does merge - even if it is rare and takes a few decades."

I stared at him , befuddled.

"Eclipse ," he answered simply.

I smiled as I understood his meaning.

"Eternity is long and dark but with light to guide the way - the years won't matter anymore. And the best part is , you'll see plenty of eclipses during eternity ," he stated , eyeing me carefully.

I chuckled at his intelligence and acumen. Jasper was easily one of the wisest vampires I've came across , besides Carlisle.

"You should do a PhD in philosophy , you're really good at it ," I chided.

He tilted his head thoughtfully. " Good idea. After all , I delved in psychology before - philosophy wouldn't be too difficult."

I stood up and brushed off the bits of grass clinging on to my trousers. Jasper suddenly acquired this sneaky look , one which I recognised all too well.

Race you home !

He took off in a blur and I sped after him , hot on his heels.

All the way , I couldn't help but think , Bella was my light and my heartbeat , - eternity couldn't take that away from me. Why ? Because there was always the eclipse to look for.

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P.S. I hope the ending wasn't too lame !