I got your letter.
"I'll be waiting at the Secret Place." Seriously? Of all the places you wanted me to find you... Well, it must mean something since I took the time to respond to you, huh? I will not lie to you. I was happy to get your letter. I was happy to learn that you still had feelings for me. Heh. Past tense there. There shouldn't even BE a past tense anywhere between us. I was a fool to let others control my emotions. I let society control my head, along with my heart, and I suffered greatly for it. I'm realizing this, and you're on the verge of giving up? That's not you at all! C'mon, you know that, right? I never expected such sad words from you. Though... It is my fault. I broke your heart. I took it, and crushed it repeatedly. There are no words to describe how horrible I am. I could not even apologize properly. However, I know you wouldn't care and just take me back, based upon what you wrote.
...I have a question. Why are you so good to me? I had made so many mistakes in our relationship! I questioned what we had on a regular basis. I questioned my own sexuality. Wasn't I just using you? How could love someone like me? You deserve better! I mean, what about Riku? Axel even? And hell, if you weren't gay, there would be Kairi or Namine to consider! But no, out of ALL the people you had to fall in love with, it had to be me. And I fell in love with you as well! I had always doubted it, but it was true. It seems like it's too late, but...
...Society took over my mind, and ruined what we had. I realize that now. I think I really understood that when you had mentioned our memories. You'd think I would forget them? I TRIED to forget them, but I couldn't! Everything you have said, done and even simply implied to me has been embodied into my brain, never able to escape. You have become an important part of my soul, or what's left of it. I couldn't just let every part of you just... go. And, heh, because of you, I had many headaches. I thought about you and what you were doing... Who you were with... It irritated me that I was still so focused on you when I swore to move on and forget about you. Obviously, I couldn't.
Twilight Town... Yeah, my hometown. The place we met. That creepy abandoned mansion... That's when it all started. To be honest, I find myself going there at the most random of times. Once, when I was going downstairs to my kitchen just to get some water, I ended up walking out the front door just to end up in the White Room. You remember, right? It's Namine's favorite room in the entire Mansion, even more so than the Library back in Hollow Bastion. She made all those drawings of us... I stayed there, just staring at those drawings for hours. There was one drawing that I just couldn't take my eyes off of. You know which one I'm talking about, right? We were holding hands in that one. Huh... I wonder why I'm smiling right now. I'm thinking about when you and I were something more than "just friends." Back when things were peaceful with just you and me. When I wasn't so concerned with what others thought.
… I want you back. I need you back. I may have ruined everything, but... You're willing to give me another chance! I no longer listen to society's views and "the path of God" or other crap like that. I think for only two people now. You... And me. We are all that matter now. I can not just let you slip from my fingers... Not again. I swear to you, I'm coming. I'm so tempted to just stop writing now and just go! But before I do so, let me say those words you've been longing to hear me say for years.
I Love You.
Stay at the Secret Place. Sora... Wait for me.
Loving You Eternally,
Roxas
