Takes place after the episode "All I want is You." Jude is deciding on going with Tommy to Thailand or choosing the "safe" option, and dating Jamie, the nice guy, and working at his and Paegan's new record label.
I will work on my other story eventually…but I wanted to go ahead and start this one while it was fresh in my mind. I promise I won't give up on "We Belong Together."
CHAPTER ONE
Jude's POV
I walked up the three stairs to the door that might determine my future. I was still red in the face and out of breath from running. Impatient Jude Bad Traffic Trouble. Before he even had a chance to say something, I blurted out "Let's do it…all of it."
Expecting him to be excited, I had a huge smile on my face, but it quickly turned into a frown seeing the look on his face.
He invited me in with the least bit of emotion. I sat down on the chair closet to the door. "Jude we need to talk…I'm ecstatic that you chose me, but I have to ask you…is it really what you want?." My face absolutely fell to the floor. First of all, he was the one that usually was criticizing me of going for what I want instead of thinking it through, and now he telling me to think about what I want and not to think it through. Talk about mixed signals.
I stood up and walked over to him. "Maybe I was wrong about what I wanted. Maybe what I want is the ability to be independent; without someone telling me what they think is what I want." I said, emphasizing the "think". He looked at the ground, not expecting me to be offended. Well he thought wrong. "I don't believe you! Where do you get off thinking you know what's best for me? Huh?
Why was I getting this upset? I care about him; I shouldn't be talking to him like this. "Where do I get off, Jude? I should have told you this two years ago. You are never good at making up your mind, you always pick the wrong guy! I just don't want you to do it again. I am the right guy for you, Jude, it's just, you don't know that yet!" he practically screamed at me. I take back what I thought earlier, he totally deserves being yelled at. "You're just jealous. You think I love him more than you, don't you?"
"How could I not think that, Jude? You've always loved him but never wanted to admit it, even when you were just a kid writing songs in your bedroom."
"You're right, I've always loved him. And I've always loved you. That's why this decision is so hard." I almost broke down there. I didn't know it was going to be this hard to choose between Jamie and Tommy. Am I making the right decision?
"Are you absolutely sure this is what you want, Jude? If it's not then I will leave you along to be happy with him…I promise that I won't get in between you two if you choose him"
"I don't know who I want right now…but at this very second, it's not you. I'm so sorry, Jamie"
I felt so bad about what I did. I walked out of his apartment (which he had bought a couple of weeks ago) and down the street. Maybe I should choose him, he is a safe guy who won't hurt me like Tommy has. I don't know…I need to go home and think about it. I caught a cab and headed home. I hated the traffic, but I deserved it because of the way I treated Jamie.
So what did you think? Please post a comment if you liked it, heck, post a comment if you hated it. I have a lot in mind for this story so even if you liked it…expect more!!!
-Jennifer
