After watching 'Abyss' I really needed to do a story on what had made Kanan decided to go after Shayla in the first place.
Set before Abyss
Never Leave People Behind
He hated snakes he really truly did. In fact he'd only meet one snake that he liked and that had more to do with the host body then the actually symbiote itself. He was grateful for Kanan for saving his life but that was as far as it went. All he wanted right now was to get this thing out of his head.
I can hear you the thing said inside his head.
'yeah yeah whatever'
The thing remained silent.
'I only agreed to do this so the Tok'ra could get their intel, I never would have had you put into my head if it had just been to save my life.' He thought bitterly.
It's not that he welcomed death, but he just liked being himself. And he hadn't been able to disappoint her, or leave her for that matter.
Jack felt Kanan perk up when he had thought about Sam. And then he could feel the snake start to go through his memories that he had of her.
'Stop that right now!' The snake wasn't listening.
Jack in his mind saw what Kanan was seeing. Sam in that long blue dress on one of their first missions. Her kissing him passionately when she had been under a virus. Sam lying on the floor of the prison cell after her encounter with Jolinar, and his thinking her dead. Him comforting the other Sam when she had told him that she had lost him in her reality. Him being stuck on a planet for a hundred days, wanting only her by his side. Him refusing to leave her when she had gotten stuck behind the forcefield, which had made him admit his feelings to her. Him kissing her during the time loop multiple times. Sam curled up by his side when she had been Thera. Having to shot her twice with a zat. More recently her being kidnapped and him being willing to do anything to get her back to him.
You love her Kanan said suddenly
'None of your business.' Jack thought bitterly.
If you don't love her then why did you refuse to leave her, and why would you go all the way to Washington for her? Kanan asked.
'We don't leave our people behind.' He thought.
Jack was suddenly struck with a mental picture of a very pretty woman who he didn't recognize. At first he was confused and then he realized that the picture in his head was from Kanan.
I left her behind the snake told him.
Jack tried to feel sympathy for him, but all he felt was disgust. They never left people behind and that was the one thing that made him who he was. And you especially didn't leave behind the people you claimed to love. And people wondered why he didn't like snakes!
I was not allowed to have a relationship with her, just as your not supposed to love your Samantha, I was not supposed to love my Shayla. Kanan told him bitterly.
'Why not?' Jack had regulations standing in his way but what possible reason could this Tok'ra have?
She is a Goa'uld's most trusted servant. Kanan filled in the blanks for Jack.
'Not only do we not leave our people behind, we never leave them in enemy hands.' Jack thought angrily.
Jack was bombarded with images and feelings for Kanan's woman for several long minutes.
I must go back for her Kanan said apologetically.
'I know.' Jack thought as Kanan was already planning a way to sneak out of the Tok'ra base.
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Author's note-Thanks for reading! Let me know what you think. And there will be two more parts to this story, which I should have up in the next few days. They should be longer as well!
