Nymphetamine
By SMYGO4EVA

Everyone wishes they would erase the past, take the events of what happened and start over, so that certain happenings never even occurred. Well, while that is a comforting wish, it would only occur in dreams. This would only measure one's ability in a chaotic world, where nothing was impossible and your fate would be sealed.

Rangiku had thought of wishful thinking. The fact that she begun an affair with Squad 11 Captain Zaraki, the fact that they had been in secrecy until it was too late, the fact that she had betrayed her captain's trust, and the fact they she carried on with the sordid trysts. But what hurt most of all was the fact that she had wondered if she was just replacing true love with physical lust and silent emotions, replacing what she had lost from the past.

She would forget that she even began to have feelings for Zaraki and her own captain Tōshirō Hitsugaya. When she was with either one she could erase everything that had happened in the past – as far as she was concerned she was just a lieutenant to one of the more powerful captains in the Seireitei. She wasn't married to Zaraki Kenpachi, she hadn't begun to reflect on her mistakes every second of the day and her captain wouldn't be up to the ceiling in concern, worry and doubt because of her actions. Yes, that is just wishful thinking, but that dream would be beautiful as the clear blue skies in the Soul Society. They would never be as bloodstained as a blood-red zanpakuto and the current future that was in front of her now.

All that was done was done; nothing could change what has shaped the present and the future. Rangiku knew that, as both Tōshirō and Zaraki. She was Zaraki's nymphetamine and Tōshirō's loyal lieutenant, but the future would have to wait to be repaired once more.

(A/N: Inspired by the stories "Different Circumstances" and "For the Love of a Friend" by Orionshadow. Read and review!)