It was late in the afternoon when Kara was sitting at her desk at Catco. She was supposed to write an article about the latest Technology Development of Lord Technologies, but it was awfully boring. She couldn't concentrate. Every time she tried to focus on her text her mind wandered to raven hair and shining green eyes. Kara shouldn't feel like this about Lena. They were best friends and Kara doesn't want to ruin it. But she can't help it. It all started a few weeks ago.
They were invited to a Gala and needed dresses, so they went shopping. Everything was fine. They talked and laughed and enjoyed the time they've spent together. It was so easy with Lena. When she was around her, Kara could be herself and lower her defensives, although Lena still doesn't know that Kara was Supergirl. And then came that beautiful night blue dress.
The dress covered only one shoulder and the flowing bottom was covered with hundreds of sparkling stones. It fit perfectly and Lena looked like a princess straight out of a fairy tale. Kara had never seen something so beautiful. And then Lena called her in the changing room because the zipper was stuck and Lena couldn't unzip the dress.
It wasn't a big deal until Kara pulled down the zipper and her hand accidentally touched Lena's flawless pale skin. In that moment, it felt like the changing room was way too small for two people and a compelling heat rushed over her. Kara's heart rate rose to the immeasurable and she could feel her face turning dark red but she couldn't stop starring at Lena's ivory-colored skin.
"Kara? Are you okay?" Lena asked worried. Kara could see her concerned eyes in the mirror. Beautiful green eyes looking at her with honest care.
Kara managed to let go of the dress and made one step back to get some distance between Lena and her. "Yeah, sure. Of course." Kara stammered and fiddled with her glasses. "You are beautiful… the dress. I mean. I mean you look beautiful in that dress." Kara blurted out and hated herself for her stammering. Kara didn't know what to do with her hands. In whatever way she held them or played with her fingers, it always seemed weird, so she decided to fold them in her lap.
"Thank you, Kara" Lena smiled at her and Kara felt like she couldn't breathe anymore. Kara tried to smile back but it came out a weird grimace. "I'm goanna go." Kara pointed with her thump to the door of the changing room and slipped quickly out of it.
"Oh Rao!" Kara whispered to herself. What did just happen in there? Kara had no idea. The rest of that day Kara had been unusually quiet and absorbed in thought. Kara shook her head trying to get rid of the memory.
The Gala was just a few days away and she hasn't spoken or seen Lena since that day they went shopping. Kara was confused and insecure. She never felt like that for a girl before not even for a guy. Her feelings for Lena were… overwhelming. Kara sighed and decided to call it a night. She wouldn't get far with that article anyway when her head was spinning around Lena.
Kara took her phone out of her pocket and texted Alex. She wanted to see her sister. Maybe she could help her. It didn't take long for Alex to answer. Alex texted her she'd be at Kara's Apartment in half an hour. And that she would bring pizza. Kara's mood suddenly brightened up. There was nothing that pizza couldn't make better.
Alex arrived just a few minutes after Kara. As she had promised, Alex carried a box with a huge family size pizza in her hands. Since Kara could eat like a giant it wouldn't been enough to show up with a smaller pizza. "Hey Kara!" Alex greeted her when she entered Kara's apartment. Kara smiled at her sister and hugged her firmly. "Did you miss me so much?" Alex asked breathless.
Kara hadn't realized how tight she really hugged her sister.
"Oh, I'm sorry!" Kara apologized and let go of Alex.
"Is everything alright?" Alex asked when she walked over to the couch and placed the pizza on the coffee table. Kara followed her and let herself drop on the couch.
"Yeah. I'm good." Kara wanted to tell Alex about her feelings for Lena. But she didn't know how to start or if it was the right moment. Alex looked at her with a stern look but didn't say anything. She sat down on the other end of the couch and grabbed a slice of pizza.
"How was your day at the DEO?" Kara asked. She got herself a slice but noticed soon that she wasn't hungry, which was weird because Kara was always hungry and could eat all day long. Alex sighed. "J'onn and Winn had an endless argument about getting new computers. Winn wants some high-tech Equipment which is "out of the world"." Alex made some quotation marks for Winn's quote. Kara chuckled and picked at her pizza. Alex noticed Kara's absent mind.
"Kara are you really okay? Did something happen at the office today?" Alex tried again. Kara shook her head.
"No. Everything is fine at work." Kara took a bite of her slice. She was still eating her first which was very unusual for Kara.
"Come on, Kara. I can see that something is bothering you. You know you can tell me anything." Kara sighed and gave up. She threw her half-eaten slice of pizza back in the box and sunk into the couch. Alex looked at her worried.
"Do you remember when we were sitting on that bench and you were telling me about Maggie and your feelings for her?" Alex furrowed her brows but nodded slowly. "You said you had never felt something like that before…" Alex nodded again.
"How did you know that your feelings for Maggie were serious and not just some random crush which would pass by?" Kara asked and fumbled at the hem of the sleeves of her cardigan. Alex straightened up in her seat and faced Kara directly.
"Well, I guess I just knew. I mean I was really confused at that time and it made me question myself and how I wanted to be. But you should take your feelings always serious." Alex said with a serious look on her face. "But I think you know that already because you were the one who gave me the strength and the confidence to admit that to myself and everyone else. It was you who told me to confess my feelings to Maggie and that you would always have my back." Alex grabbed Kara's left hand and held her softly in her own hands.
"So why don't you tell me what this is really about?" Kara could see all her sisters love for her in her eyes and it made her crack. She sighed and rubbed her neck nervously.
"It's about Lena. I can't stop thinking about her. Every time I close my eyes I can see her beautiful face and it won't let me sleep at night because I don't want to spend a moment not seeing her. It drives me crazy, Alex. I shouldn't feel like that for her. She's my best friend." The words were rushing out of her mouth and Kara couldn't stop them.
"I don't know what to do, Alex." Kara could feel Alex' grip tightening around her hand.
"I know." Kara looked up to Alex in confusion.
"What do you mean?" Kara asked. Alex chuckled and Kara took offence.
"Are you laughing at me?" Kara asked her sister hurt. She tried to pull back her hand, but Alex won't let her.
"No! No, of course not." Alex assured her. "I'm sorry Kara, I didn't mean to hurt you. It is just kind of funny how oblivious you are to your feelings sometimes. And how you don't notice when someone is interested in you." Kara looked bewildered at her sister.
"I don't understand…" Kara's voice trailed off and Alex decided to take away Kara's blinders.
"Look, Kara, at the beginning I thought you and Lena were just really good friends but soon I realized there was more between the two of you." Alex smiled at her indulgently. "You talk about her all the time and your face light up like the rising sun in the morning when you see her. You get all excited when you meet for lunch or must do an interview with her. It is obvious how much you love Lena Luthor." Kara looked a bit shaken. "And Lena is head over heels for you too."
Kara blushed at the pure thought of Lena being in love with her.
"No, Lena is not in love with me. She never mentioned anything or made any attempt."
Alex rolled her eyes. "That is the point with you two. If you weren't so blind, you would see how much Lena cares about you. You never saw the longing looks she gives you. Or the pain in her eyes when you were kissing Mon-El. Lena and you are like the earth and the sun, circling around each other, inseparable but not able to approach one another."
Kara thought about Alex' words. Maybe Alex was right and Kara loved Lena way longer than she thought. But she still wasn't sure if Lena really could feel the same. Lena was always controlled and elegant. She never looked nervous when Kara was around. Kara on the other hand was flustered and a total dork in Lena's presence. Kara was about to say something when Alex received a message. She took her phone out of her pocket and looked at it.
"There is a rogue alien downtown." Alex sighed. Kara stood up from the couch and wanted to get her suit when Alex grabbed her arm.
"Hey, are you sure you're up for this? I'm sure J'onn can handle it too." Kara smiled at her sister. "Yeah, I'm fine. Now that I told you everything, I'm feeling a lot better." She quickly changed and flew downtown to the alien. Ready to kick some ass.
