Amrâlimê

This is a fanfiction I have written about Kili x Tauriel just for the love of it. I do not own any rights to the characters or storylines in the Hobbit (duh) and are simply writing this to unleash one of my favourite ships. Btw before you get all pissy on me Peter Jackson went off canon first so this is how I really wanted the film to end…with lots of R rated sex scenes….err I mean with Fili and Kili and Thorin living…I mean for F# !s sake Fili and Kili's deaths were one line in the books - "they died protecting Thorin" BLEH I say BLEH! No reason for them to die. L anyway that's my rant. AND HERE IS MY STORY :D IT IS R RATED, NOT FOR CHILDREN!

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"If this is love, I do not want it. Take it away, please. Why does it hurt so much?"

The words echoed from her lips, tears pouring down her face.

"It's because it was real" Thranduil whispered back to her with the only compassion he had ever mustered towards her. In that tender moment she could see the pain of his own loss and the pain he felt for the goodbye he never got to say.

As Tauriel gazed down at Kili's face the pain overwhelmed her.

Thranduil slunk away back into the shadows as she said her goodbye to the man she loved.

The man who had called her Amrâlimê.

The man she never told how much she had loved him.

How much she had wanted to defy her race and her duty for him.

She knew in this moment that she would have forsaken all others to have him.

To have shared a life with.

She leaned into his face and pressed her lips to his own. He would leave this world having known the touch of her lips.

But as their lips met a shockwave entered her body. A memory left in her blood.

Tauriel's parent were once high elves, those whose rankings had been close to that of Thranduil. One act, however had seen their fall from grace. Her mother had used forbidden magic to raise her husband from the dead. Before her birth, the elite squadron they both served in had come under attack during an Orc raid. To protect her mother, her father had pushed her out of the way of an oncoming arrow. Saving her life.

At the point of death, her mother used a forbidden technique. She sacrificed half of her remaining life to him. Being that elves often live to well over 1000 years this was an incredible sacrifice. It would forever tie their life forces together, and it would allow Tauriel's father to live. But at a cost.

When Thranduil found out about the use of their dark magic he stripped them both of their rank and privilege. Outcasting them from Elfish society.

Yet as horrid as the punishment was, it seemed not to matter to them. For the short time that Tauriel knew them their lives were filled with happiness. Even as people around them talked, all that mattered was their love and the joy that their little family brought them.

It only came to an end during that Orc battle. Her mother had fallen first. Thus ending her father's life as well.

Thranduil had raised her. But she owed him nothing now.

She owed all of the elves nothing now.

She had been banished, outcast, stripped of her rank and privilege.

She had nothing left to loose.

The only place she had found love and home with was in the eyes of Kili.

And this was not the girlish puppy-love she had once held for Legolas. This was real, more real that the love she had ever held before in her life. And in that second she knew she would give it all up to have him back.

In her mind's eye she saw his life-force. Fading and dwindling as the tethers to life snapped and broke away.

With a deep breath she connected. Forcing the bond between her and Kili's life-force, dragging him back to the real world and away from the place of rest.

She felt the penetration of the sword in her chest. She had not expected that she would have to take half his injury in this process. But as the searing pain flooded through her she willingly accepted it. It was going to be worth it. She placed each of her hands on their open wounds and used what little power she had left to heal them.

Slowly the pressure of her lips shifted as Kili began to respond to her tender kiss. Tauriel's eyes shot open as Kili's slowly fluttered open to meet hers. His gazed focused gently into her eyes as she pulled away from their kiss.

It had worked.

"I'm out for a minute and you already take advantage of me eh?" he managed to cough out. He still struggled against the pain of his injuries.

"Kili" she gasped, pulling him tight up to her body. Tear streamed down her face.

"I thought I was gone," he whispered softly as he pulled his face into her hair, "I thought I was finally going to walk in the starlight in another world. That I now could be in the dream. But I could not see you there"

Tauriel began to sob uncontrollably before managing to blurt out "It's because I am here!"

His strong arms wrapped around her and held onto her tight as she sobbed.

"Amrâlimê" he whispered as his lips met hers in a kiss that she wished would never end.

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"What have you done?" Gandalf uttered completely aghast.

Tauriel's head whipped to the side where the words had come from.

By the look on his face, he knew what she had done. The shock slowly turned to fury as a deep growl formed in the old wizard's throat.

"You have defied all things that are natural on this earth. You have used forsaken magic!" He bellowed.

Tauriel was about to whisper a soft "no" in defence. Anything to protect the man and sacrifice she had made. Had it not been for Radagast the Brown appearing from the ledge above she knew he would have unleashed some kind of arcane fury.

"Gandalf!" Radagast hollered, "Fili lives, he is gravely injured, but if you come now we may yet save him"

Though Gandalf's teeth were tightly clenched he turned towards the greater need. Storming up the stairs to where Fili's body lay.

Tauriel could see the pain of hope cross Kili's face as the news of his brother's survival could be imminent. But as he turned back to Tauriel Gandalf's words were echoing in his brain, and his face filled with pain.

"What did Gandalf mean?" Kili asked.

"N…nothing" she lied, not sure how she would even begin to explain what she had done.

Or how she had betrayed them both.

"I will tell you later" Tauriel promised

"I don't care" he declared, suddenly with power in his voice, as he forcefully pulled her in for a deep and passionate kiss. "All I want is you"

She was filled with too much joy and love to even say the words back.

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As they reached the large stone gates of Erebor the mood had changed drastically for Tauriel.

Tauriel and Kili had let the rest of the company to go on ahead.

Although he had fallen unconscious, Gandalf had managed to resuscitate Thorin Oakenshield, much to the relief of Bilbo Baggins whom had thought he had all but lost his friend. Fili too had been saved. He had lost a lot of blood, but the stab wound was not fatal according to Radagast. The real issue was the leg he had broken in the fall. That would take much longer to heal. Muscle and blood can be fixed with his magic – bone of the other hand would have to heal normally.

She also now knew Radagast's magic would not have saved Kili either, a heart cannot be fixed with regular magic.

Even worse she had encountered Legolas on the walk back to the gate. She had attempted to circumvent him by walking behind a crowd of soldiers, but he ran to grasp her anyway. He had grabbed her roughly by the arm as she walked past. She knew the words that were coming.

"Once you are done with the dwarves, my father wants to speak with you" he gasped upon reaching her, his face twisting into a small smile "I believe he wants to pardon you". Tauriel felt Kili's grasp on her hand tighten as jealousy surged through him. Everything about Kili showed how threatened by Legolas he truly was. So in turn, Tauriel quickly nodded towards Legolas and kept walking.

After a few minutes of silent walking, once Legolas was out of earshot, Kili couldn't hold it back any longer.

"Are you truly going back to them" he spat out.

She flicked her head towards him, meeting his eyes with her own so that he knew her resolve.

"No"

"That is why we need to hurry up"

Although she had the man she loved, there were no other certainties from here.

She did not know if Thorin Oakenshield would even let her be with Kili.

She was sure of it now that Kili would forsake his people and leave them to be with her.

But it is not what she wanted for him.

She wanted to be with him amongst his people.

But how would she even begin? How could she even ask for such a thing? The grudges and rivalries between the dwarves and elves had gone on for centuries now. How could she even begin to mend that much pain?

Now that she stood in front of the giant stone dwarves that guarded the gates to Erebor, her determination was beginning to waver.

She turned to look down at Kili.

"What should I say" her eyes pleading him to give her some kind of guidance.

He straightened up his back, seemingly unsure himself of what should be done.

"Thorin…Thorin will understand. He knows my love for you. He knows I will leave if he rejects you. We will ask him together. Surely after everything, especially this war, he will make an exception. He owes me as much. I did almost give my life for him."

She had given her life for him, she thought. But all the same she gripped his hand tighter as they entered into the Great Hall

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The Great Hall went completely silent as they entered the room.

All eyes turned on the dwarf and elf that had entered the room hand in hand.

Whispers rippled as they approached Thorin Oakenshield.

Tauriel could feel the hairs on the back of her neck stand on end as she ascended the stairs toward him. The feeling in the room was eerie with uncertainty.

Thorin's eyes too were filled with delight at seeing his nephew and wary surprise at Tauriel's.

As she reached his level she was overcome with desperation and found herself dropping to one knee.

Kili quickly kneeled down next to her.

Silence echoed through the great halls as all who witnessed fell into stunned shock. An elf bowing to the Dwarf King? It was unheard of.

But Thorin, with his new found wisdom, knew what was about to take place and decided to shatter the silence with his words.

"So this is the elf Tauriel that my nephew Kili has fallen in love with" he bellowed so all around could hear.

Gasp of outrage encircled the halls for what seemed like an eternity until Kili yelled out on top of them.

"It is true!" He yelled, more to the crowd than to Thorin.

Tauriel's heart was so overwhelmed with joy at Kili's words but she knew she had to remain composed. Kili was so determined in his love for her. He was unafraid.

She would have to be as determined.

"King Thorin Oakenshield," she began, keeping her voice steady "I have come to swear allegiance to you and your kind and ask to be allowed into your great halls so that I may be with the Man I love"

Silence echoing after her words.

She now understood why the dwarfs commanded such respect. Every word uttered in these halls were multiplied and carried great weight. Every sentence given extraordinary power, as if what is spoken could never be unsaid as it echoes onwards for eternity.

Thorin stood tall for a moment and gazed down at her. She carefully lifted her head as to read his expression in the ever growing silence.

"We both ask you for this, my King" Kili cut in after a time.

Thorin chuckled.

He began to pace back and forth in front of the kneeled couple.

"An Elf would like to join us in our kingdom under the mountain" He yelled out to the onlookers. But his words were met with no response. As if every eye was too focused on what would happen next.

Thorin nodded his head at this as if granted the response he was looking for.

"If I would grant you this would you swear an oath for all the remaining days of your life to serve the Dwarf people, its King and the realm of which you are now entering" he bellowed

"I would!" Tauriel gasped, almost exacerbated by the tension.

"Would you swear," Thorin continued "To obey the laws by which all Dwarves are governed, and hold true our customs and belief"

"I would" she replied, now firmer in her words.

"And do you swear" he began once more, Tauriel almost clawing desperately for his words to come out so that she could swear to all he asked. Anything to be allowed to stay with the man she loved.

"…To love Kili for all of his days"

She felt her heart lift

"As long as there are stars in the sky, my king, I will love him" She whisper to Thorin

Kili took one of his hands off his bent knee and wrapped it warmly around hers. She turned her gaze up to meet him. Gentle tears rolled down her face and she realized that this was the first time he had heard from her the depth of her love and conviction to him. It took her a long time to realise what a gentle soul he truly was. But now she knew she had chosen the right man, that she was willing to fight for them to spend the rest of their days together.

Thorin stroked his beard thoughtfully.

After a few more steps he stood close to Tauriel and bellowed "I swore to my father and on the graves of my ancestors that I would never allow an Elf to reside in the Kingdom under the Mountain."

Tauriel felt her world shatter as her brought his face close to hers

"Therefore I must say that you are the largest Dwarf I have ever seen"

Tauriel's head hit the flood as a flood of tears rushed from her face. She didn't even realise the hall had erupted into cheers and bellows at the kings words. Kili had leapt to his feet and wrapped his arms around the king and cried out "thank you, thank you" over and over again.

Once able to compose himself once more. He reached down a hand and lifted Tauriel to stand. When she finally met with Thorin's eyes once more he had a large grin on his face. He turned to the great hall and declared loudly "From this day forth, she will be known as Tauriel of Erebor!" Which instigated another round of cheers and huzzahs that filled every room in the mountain.

The celebrating continued around them as Thorin pulled Kili aside and mentioned that he should "Probably go get her something a bit more 'Dwarfish' to wear"

Without another word, Kili excitedly grabbed Tauriel by the hand and dragged her off towards the storage rooms that held clothing from before the fall. Leaving the dwarves behind to continue in the celebrations of the victories and conquests of the day.

But not all were in as much cheer.

Fili sat in the back of the great hall, his leg being fitted with a flexible splint to heal his broken leg. Dwalin sat next to him knocking back a pitcher of Ale and uttered under his breath "I don't know what that boy is thinking"

Fili sniffed at Dwalin's comment.

"I don't trust her at all" he grumbled in response.

He shifted his now splinted leg down by his side and stood up with the aid of a crutch he had fashioned from two broken bows.

"Even with my leg broken," he said to Dwalin "I can still sneak about these halls better than anyone"

Rage was spread across his face.

"I will find out what her true purpose is. No-one will bring harm to my brother"

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So that ends Part 1. No sexy stuff yet. But hopefully I will have the next part up soon. Like very soon. Like next page will just be sexy stuff too mwehehehehehehe