Prologue
I jumped. I tumbled down as a beautiful autumn leave. But I wasn't. I was a human, made of flesh and blood, and a thousand different emotions. I could change the world with a single blow. I did, but not in the way I wanted to. I just jumped, jumped of the cliff near the beach I used to go to. Where I used to play with my granddad, with my mum with all the people I cared about and loved. But now the love was gone, this beach no longer held beautiful memories. It now became the place I died. The place where I committed suicide. I felt the wind in my hair, around my body. Life felt like nothing, like it was all an illusion, I could feel right now how easy it was to escape it all, just one more step. Just one pull of the trigger, just one more pill. And then I hit the water. My eyes where wide open, my arms where fighting the wild waves of the water. I held my breath, I moved my arms around wildly in the water, trying to swim down. Down to the dark deep unknown places of the ocean. But then I couldn't hold my breath, I opened my mouth and felt water coming in. I started coughing under water and my whole body tried to get to the surface. But my mind kept fighting me, my mind kept pulling me down. I tried so hard to get out of the water but my mind won. Well not exactly like that. When I was in the immense fight with the water I felt a hand grabbing my ankle, and it pulled me down and then just like that everything went black. I opened them once and saw to faces leaning over me, I felt hands touching my body. Holding my body down. At first I thought I was rescued and I was on land again, but no. I was under water. Those where not men, those where mermaids…? My eyes closed again and my mind relaxed. Every thought slipped away, and I fell asleep, peacefully.
