Harry really didn't know why it affected him but it did. Oh it affected him very much. "RHG" he actually yelled out loud in frustration—well actually it was just a loud grunt but it earned him a few looks from the other few people in the common room. Ginny sat next to him, Harry liked that she never made things awkward, even after they broke things off. He never really realized why they initially broke things off... just didn't—feel right. Everything has changed, nothing was the same anymore. Not even Ginny. No one was really... most definitely not Draco. Ginny put a hand on his shoulder taking him out of thought, "Harry, what's wrong"

"School" he replied knowing that was a lie because he wasn't doing any homework and that day was one of the smaller workload days. "That's a lie, you know it is."

"Fine er- people at school"

"Liar"

"I'm not!

"Lying again!" She looked at him impatiently, waiting for him to tell the truth.

Technically he really wasn't lying, it was people at school. Just not in the way he said it.

"Malfoy!" he just sort of blurted it out. He didn't really mean to... it just sort of—

"What?! Did he do something? I will kill him"

"No stop Ginny" he groaned because she stood up and bolted away then came back a second later with Hermione, and Ron. God Ginny, he just shouldn't have spoken.

Really though Malfoy was what was bothering him...

Malfoy like died- okay so that was a little dramatic but that's how it looks. He has the same face, hair (even if it isn't as gelled down now) and clothes but his eyes are gone. That sounded stupid. No not gone just not seeing? God he sounded crazy! People were being terrible in the hallways, hexing him, cursing him, bringing up terrible memories for Malfoy ... and not just Malfoy but the whole Slytherin house in general. Harry just wanted the war to be over- over over. Voldemort might be gone but the reason it all started is still happening. Harry's gotten over what happened in the war--that was a lie, he hadn't gotten over all the deaths and the things he had to do, but he meant old fights. Well old fights don't seem to matter much when you have gone through everything the Hogwarts students had gone through. It was like Harry was living at a different Hogwarts... he had gone back to Hogwarts because he wanted something. He wanted a home, the closest he'd gotten to one was the burrow but it held terrible memories. The whole Weasley family did and Harry knew it was his fault. Everything he ever wanted was snatched out from under him by Voldemort, all his fault, Harry's fault, it had always been Harry's fault hasn't it? No. A voice firmly sent that message through his mind, it was Voldemort's fault all Voldemort's fault. Not his, not Malfoys, Voldemort's. Harry didn't blame Malfoy at all for anything, he knew he had no choice with Voldemort and their childhood fights seemed like little disagreements compared to what they each had gone through. Could no one get that through their heads?! This wasn't Hogwarts and this wasn't the place he had gotten so much comfort from... This wasn't home... He was only snapped out of his stupor when Ron hit him with a book over the head.

"Hey!" He yelped and rolled forwards off the chair he was sitting on.

"Sorry mate but you weren't listening" Ron smiled sheepishly. Hermione didn't wait, she asked him with a sharp tone

"Harry what's this I hear about Malfoy, what did he do?"

"Nothing Hermione!"

"Harry... why are you so upset then what's happening?

"I'm not upset! Merlin's beard! Nothing is happening"

Harry just wanted to go to sleep and not think about anything til morning. It was all too much and it had been like that for a while. He wanted to do something but he didn't at the same time. He just wanted a normal year, a year without Voldemort looming over them even when he's gone! Ron started speaking,

"Harry just tell us, we're your best mates and we won't do anything to the ferret if you ask us not to"

It wasn't until Ginny started speaking that he lost it

"Nothing! Malfoy did nothing and I'm not upse-"

Ginny spoke

"You are upset and you're going to tell us why! You're at Hogwarts and nothing is wrong, at least there shouldn't be anything wrong!"

"I'm not at Hogwarts! This isn't Hogwarts! This isn't the Hogwarts I knew! This is insults there and insults here! This isn't the place I wanted to come back to! This isn't the place I seeked comfort from! This isn't the castle I walked around for 6 years! This isn't Hogwarts... this isn't the Hogwarts where I finally felt like I fit in! These aren't the grounds I walked with Ginny! These aren't the hallways I walked... these are duels and hexes. This isn't the Hogwarts I know! This is the reason Voldemort ruled! Singling a group of people out and hating on them for one reason!! I'm done! I don't hate Slytherins! They're just like us, childhood fights don't matter! I didn't defeat Voldemort for this stupid sh*t at Hogwarts! A place where everyone should be safe! Not afraid about their house or blood or ANYTHING! This isn't Hogwarts Ginny... I don't know where I am but I'm not sure I want to be here."

And with that he ran up to the boys dormitory, well aware of the eyes that followed him up and the arm belonging to Hermione that reached for his. He knew this news would spread like a wildfire, it had been quiet in the common room as people were working on NEWT work. His sudden outburst would be all that was talked about for a few days now.

The three of them sat stunned for a moment, none of them really knew what to do and just sincerely hoped Malfoy wasn't in the room at the time because they had a shared common room now. They didn't think he was, but that didn't matter... Harry's outburst would be news for days. Maybe weeks.

Ginny thought of what Harry had brought up, "the grounds I walked with Ginny" It echoed in her head and she wondered...did he really treasure those moments? Is that why he brought them up? Because those are happy memories...

Ron just wondered how... he didn't know Harry felt like that, he knew something was up, had known for a while now but that— that was unexpected.

Hermione was contemplating what just happened. Going over every word, figuring out what each one meant and what she could do.

Then tomorrow came... and it was bad.

Disclaimer: all characters belong to JKR!

A.N: Sorry for such a short chapter but I try to update every day and longer chapters will come soon! This is my first story and feedback would be appreciated!!!! This is a Drarry story where Harry tries to get Hogwarts to be normal again and Draco finds him and ahhhhh! That's just the theme and I don't want to spoil anything!