A/N: New story! i hope you guys like it! its based on the song Remembering Sunday by All Time Low, i really suggest you guys hear it before, during or after you read this fanfic, i will be tweaking the story a bit. tell me how you guys like it, read and review! tell your friends!
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Epov
I woke up with the sun hitting my face and blurred vision. I've been drinking so much lately that I don't get hangovers anymore. I picked up the bottle of Jack from my night stand and took a large gulp, ignoring the burn and hoping that it would numb the pain I felt knowing that she wasn't here.
He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes, started making his way past two in the morning, he hasn't been sober for days.
She warned me, she warned me not to fall in love with her but I did it anyways, I tried not to I really did, but in the end, I fell over my fucking heart for her and when I made that mistake, that one stupid mistake, I lost her forever.
Leaning now, into the breeze, remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees, they had breakfast together, but two eggs don't last like the feeling of what he needs.
I have to find her, I have to beg her to come back to me, I don't think I can live without her in my life. She's changed me so much that I don't know how to be myself without her. She's stubborn as fuck but so am I, and I won't give up until I find her, my Bella.
Now this place seems familiar to him, she pulled on his hand with a devilish grin, she led him upstairs, she led him upstairs, left him dying to get in.
When I woke up that day, I thought everything was about to change for the better, that she'd finally let me in, when I had found her so broken the night before, I couldn't hold back any longer, I held her and she let me, I kissed her, and she kissed me back, something we had never done because of our rules. She thought it was too intimate, and I agreed at the time.
Forgive me I'm trying to find, my calling, I'm calling at night, I don't mean to be a bother but have you seen this girl, she's been running through my dreams, and it's driving me crazy it seems I'm gonna ask her to marry me.
When she started to unbutton my shirt, I took her upstairs to my room, I laid her down on my bed and worshiped her beautiful body before making love to her, for once she didn't urge me to go faster and just reveled in the feel of me.
And even though she doesn't believe in love, he's determined to call her bluff, who could deny, these butterflies, they're filling his gut, waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces, he pleads oh he tries but he's only denied, now he's dying to get inside.
She came the hardest I'd seen her cum, and I soon followed. It was then when I made my mistake.
"I love you" I whispered so lowly so she couldn't hear me, but something in her expression made me think otherwise though she didn't say anything, so I assumed she didn't hear me.
Forgive me I'm trying to find, my calling, I'm calling at night, I don't mean to be a bother but have you seen this girl, she's been running through my dreams, and it's driving me crazy it seems I'm gonna ask her to marry me.
We both fell asleep soon after, both exhausted from the day's events and though what led to us being here right now may not have been pleasant, it was the greatest sleep I ever had. When I woke up in the morning, I was surprised to not see her in bed, I thought she might have gone downstairs for some breakfast so I put on some pajama pants and headed to the kitchen. I found nothing, I started calling for her, checking all over the house, but I still couldn't find her, she had never done this before, she always stayed the night and let me make her breakfast, always.
The neighbor said she moved away, funny how it rained all day, I didn't think much of it then but it's starting to all make sense,
I went back upstairs, intended on getting my phone and calling her, and that's when I saw it, a piece of folded notebook paper on her side of the bed.
Oh I can see now,
I got the paper, not knowing what it would say, but I opened it anyways.
How all of these clouds are,
Two words in her messy hand writing, the two words that broke my heart, the two words that will haunt me for the rest of my life if I don't find her
'I'm sorry'
Following me in my desperate endeavor, to find my whoever, wherever she may be.
She was gone, and she wasn't coming back, she had heard me when I said I loved her. She heard me and she left, I broke the ultimate rule and it cost me the only woman I had ever loved, but I will not lose her, not without fighting, not unless she tells me in my face that she wants nothing to do with me. I had to find her.
Im not coming back, I've done something so terrible, im terrified to speak but you'd expect that from me, I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just washing you out of my hair, and out of my mind, keeping an eye on the world, so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now, I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head.
Well I guess I'll go home now, I guess I'll go home now, I guess I'll go home now, I guess I'll go home.
Bpov
That fucking idiot had to ruin everything. I warned him didn't I? I told him not to go falling in love with me, that I don't believe in it and I never would. Did he think I was joking? Of course I wasn't joking, I don't joke about that shit.
When Edward and I made our agreement to use each other for sex, I only had two rules; No kissing on the mouth, and No falling in love. He broke both of them in one night, though I guess I broke the no kissing rule too.
When I heard him say that he loved me, I felt my heart beat faster. I could tell he wasn't bullshiting me because he didn't say it loud enough to intend for me to hear, and the emotion in his eyes couldn't be faked.
I didn't say anything, I made like I hadn't heard anything and faked sleep. I stayed up for 3 hours, just staring at his sleeping form, trying to decide what to do. I could stay, I could pretend like nothing happened and continue our agreement, he was a good person and amazing in bed, but I could feel myself slowly getting attached and letting him in. That's something that I never do, but with him, I can't help, there's something in him that makes me want to tell him everything about my life, to finally have someone to lean on, to trust.
That realization made the answer to my question loud and clear, I had to leave. I had to get out of here before I got in too deep; if I stayed I was only setting myself up for disappointment, something I had experienced too much in my life.
It wasn't supposed to be like this! Edward and I were only supposed to be sex buddies, he wasn't supposed to fall in love with me, and I wasn't supposed to be letting him in. Damn last night and damn my stupid break down that ruined everything.
I quickly got out of bed and got dressed, I found a piece of paper and a pen, signing the end of this partnership and my farewell, leaving it on the bed I had laid on. I made my way to his beautiful sleeping form and stared at him in amazement. I had never met any one like him, and it was a shame I had to leave, but looking at him only solidified my resolve, If I stayed I could let him im, if I stayed, I could fall in love with him, and I wasn't about to let that happen, not if I could help it.
Looking at him one last time, I softly kissed his lips and made my way down the stairs and towards the front door. I got in my truck and drove to my apartment, intent on cleaning it of my existence and leaving this town.
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