Prologue

"Mother, mother! I saw someone in the lake!" I immediately search for my sword just in case something happens. I saw Etalia rushing towards our home, our small house that is hidden to everyone, especially the olympians. It's been years since I decided to turn my back on them, on him, on every one who've hurt my feelings, who broke my heart, who made me feel..worthless. It's a suprise that Etalia saw someone in the woods. I hope it's not a god, because if it is..I honestly don't know what to do.

I open the door and let my daugther in but before I can close it, a familiar face shows up.

"Eris."

Oh no, this is not good.

"Holy styx Eris! We've been looking for you for ages." the familiar god is still looking at me, shocked on his face but nevertheless, smiling.

"What are you doing here Hermes?"

I look around to check if he is with someone.

"I'm alone don't worry."

I rolled my eyes and let him in. I don't really want to you know, but I don't have any choice. Hermes sat on the small couch facing me and Etalia. He stared at me for a moment and then stared at my little one, obviously he knows whose the little one's father is, its not a secret to everyone especially when she looks exactly like him.

"Why?" Hermes asked. He doesn't need to elaborate the question, I get it.

"I'm not sure if this is the right time to talk about this, Hermes. What are you doing here?"

"Well I'm just roaming around when all of a sudden I saw your daugther on the woods and then here, I saw you, after how many years of searching..I saw you."

"Well then congratulations, Hermes"

I asked Etalia to go to her room as I need to talk to Hermes. I told her Hermes is her uncle, I don't want to lie about that. She's happy to meet her uncle, the first god she met ever since she was born. Hermes is happy to meet her as well, he thinks she is very smart on her age.

"Hermes, I'm begging you. I already forgot my life in Olympus, I don't want to go back."

"I understand..but Eris, even if you want it or not, she'll find out, eventually. Its not like you can hide from Olympus forever, especially Etalia looks exactly like her father..like Apollo."

Hearing his name after 7 long years is still giving me all such feelings. Apollo, the God of Sun, the God of Music and the God of Medicine to all is the only God I have ever loved and lost. It's been 7 long years since I saw his handsome face, his sweet smiles, his beautiful eyes..everything about him makes me feel the butterflies on my stomach, and everything about him makes me also want to cry. I just realized that I'm holding my breath when Hermes notices.

"I'm sorry"

"No, It's okay. You are right, I cannot hide forever..but I'm not ready to face him, not today"

"Of course..I can promise you that no one will know about this, not a single soul.. but Eris, its been years..I think your daugther should know everything...especially about her father."

I nodded and Hermes embraced me. Hermes is one of the Gods who I can say that I trust with all of my heart. Hermes is the first God who found out about my secret affair with Apollo. He didnt judged when he found out that I am carrying Apollo's child, he even told me that he's happy that finally, after carrying chaos my whole life, I'm carrying someone made out of love.

"Thank you, Hermes. I'll make it up to you, this, everything. Thank you so much"

"You're welcome. Take care of yourself and Etalia. I should go now, Zeus will be looking for me."

I nodded and let him fly away from me and Etalia. I hope this is the last time I will ever saw an Olympian, but I'm also hoping to see my brother, Ares or Hephaestus, or him, I guess, I miss them so much. I wipe my tears away before facing Etalia who is now waiting inside our little home. I will try my very best to protect Etalia from hurting, I don't want her to experience the pain I've been through.

When I open the door, I saw Etalia sitting on the couch, her eyes open wide and her lips hiding a little smile. I look at her suspiciously and she giggled.

"Does Uncle hermes know whose my father is? Am I going to meet him soon?"

It broke my heart knowing that Etalia wants to know who her father is. I really hate lying to my daugther but I know this is the right thing to do.

"Nope, little one, your uncle just wanted to visit. Come on, you stink, let me wash you up"

Her sweet smile faded as soon as I told her no but nonetheless, she obliged.

"I just want to see him." she whispered, I pretend to not hear anything.

"What are you doing here, Apollo?"

I turn around to see Hermes behind me. I pretend that I'm not suprised. Hermes is my best friend he knows why I'm here.

"I thought you already know." I answered.

"It's a little late brother, come on. We still have duties. Let's try again tomorrow."

When will I see her again? I wonder.