HI EVERYBODY!! Miss me? This is the sequel to Come Back To Me! Hope you enjoy it!
Disclaimer: I do not own the twilight series in any way, shape, or form! Do not sue me! I'M TO YOUNG TOO BE SUED!
IMPORTANT!!
This first Chapter is a memory that Bella is trapped in. Like a nightmare that you can't wake up from. And when she told Edward she needed time, she sort of went crazy or sort of deadpan and she stays like that for a while, just a heads-up. So, when you see italics it's her old self talking. But the bold italics are her crazy side talking. And the underlined is memories (remember her gift is looking through other peoples memories?). Now that's out of the way:
Ladies and Gentlemen, May I Present You…
Just Maybe.
I was at the super-market for Rosalie. She wanted more make-up, and was busy, meaning she was looking at herself in the mirror again. Lost in my thoughts, I walked into someone.
"Oh! I'm so sorry!" I said, flustered. I looked up and gasped. Looking straight into my golden eyes was my dad.
Charlie...
"No need," he said. "It was probably my fault. I'm lost in my head somewhere," he said with a sad smile. I thought about him. I flashed to a minute before.
I see a girl who looks like me (who is exactly me) looking at the make-up on the shelves. I sigh and walked away, thinking about a small baby girl in my hands. "Oh Bella…" Charlie's voice echoes. "I miss you so much…" a slight jolt takes me away from his voice and I hear a young girl talking. "Oh! I'm so sorry!" I look down and see me. Bella Swan. Supposed car crash victim who died.
I come back and Charlie is looking at me strangely.
"Oh, me too! I just got lost again. Sorry for bumping into you," I put a smile on and walked by him, hearing his heart beat fast. Then it happened. His heart had missed beat. He couldn't breathe, and collapsed right in the middle of the aisle.
"Somebody help!" I cried rushing over to him. His breathing ragged and raw was the only thing I was focused on. Oh Charlie… "Charlie. Charlie it's me," I whispered. His face is masked in pain and sorrow. His eyes shifted to mine. A little light shines through the dark brown.
"Look at me dad!" I said.
"…Bells?" he slurred a small smile on his face. And his eyes drift and the small light fades; the smile still in place.
I sobbed, but no tears. There never are tears. I ran forgetting everything, but some small part of me wanted to slow down. But I ran. I ran into the forest. It didn't look familiar but I didn't care. My head span, my lungs hurt but from what I don't know. I fell clutching my heart. I wanted it to stop. I wanted to go away. To disappear. To be loved and adored. Like I was with Him…Edward. It triggered something in the back of my mind. Memories rush through my head like the wind through leaves. Edward laughing in my head, Alice, bored, wanting to go and shop, Emmett wresting with Jasper, Esme and Carlisle shaking their heads, laughing along with me. The pictures run and run in circles, the thoughts restless, the sounds so full of life and joy!
I sobbed again.
I wanted to forget.
Maybe, I can. I can look into the past…maybe I can get rid of it, too.
So I looked into my memories. Renee came before my eyes. I pushed back on it. She smiled.
The image didn't go anywhere. She laughed.
I pushed harder. She told me to come down to meet Phil.
They blurred. I could make out my seventeenth birthday party with them.
I pushed 'till nothing else exist in my head. They told me they loved me.
Then the images blacked out. Nothing. I laughed. It worked! I tried to remember my childhood and nothing came up. It saddened me, but I didn't care. I could erase memories! I did the same thing with everyone else in my life. Charlie, Jessica, Mike, Angela, Eric. Alice, Rose, Emmett, Jasper, Esme, Carlisle. Anyone and everyone I thought of! Then came the hard one. Edward.
His smile. "Come on Bella! Please? For me?"
I pushed. He laughed.
My heart clenched. I pushed harder. His marble arms around me. Telling me about how he fell in love with me.
His God-like face blurred. My eighteenth birthday…
I pushed 'till I could not anymore. Goodbye Edward. I love you.
He smiled. "I love you too, My Bella."
The image faded, along with me.
Just Maybe I Can Forget….
To Live…
To Feel…
To Move…
To Think…
Just Maybe…
…I……Can……Forget…
You.
It was cold and dark. There was no light. Nothing. Nothing in front of me or behind. Or around me, for the matter. I stuck out my hand and saw nothing. I looked and my feet and saw only black. I grabbed my hair and pulled. It hurt but I still saw nothing. Nothing. Nothing! NOTHING! I panicked. My breath couldn't be heard. My heart was dead but I am sure that it wouldn't be heard either. I yelled. It was swallowed by the dark. I fell to my knees, cried dried and soundless tears. Then I heard a voice. It echoed. I grinned. I got up and started running towards the sound, hope that I might be found was over me. Maybe I can get out of here! But, I stopped. I tried to move but it felt as though I was glued to the floor. My eyes widened. The voice! Maybe it can help.
"HELP!" I cried or sobbed, I couldn't tell since I didn't hear myself. Not expecting I could. The voice rang louder and bigger. The words it spoke mixed and overlapped itself. It grew, louder and louder until it screamed in my ear. I screamed along with it, and even if my voice could be heard, the other voice would surely drown out. I felt weak and tired all of a sudden. And before I could do anything, I fell into the darkness, the voice saying the same two words over and over in my head.
JUST MAYBE
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