So, this is my first story on here! I've been reading fanfictions on here for a long while and I love writing so why not give it a shot? What better way to start things off than write a Pezberry story?
Summary: Rachel was tired of all the abuse. She was tired of it at home. She was tired of it at school. Santana notices the change in the diva but will she be able to pick up the pieces and fix her before it's too late? Eventual Pezberry. Warning: Contains abuse.
Here's all you need to know. This story is set at the beginning of season 3. Quinn and Finn didn't break up meaning Rachel and Finn didn't have their kiss at Nationals and didn't get back together. New Directions still lost because they were too busy goofing off in New York instead of rehearsing much. Sam didn't leave and Quinn didn't become a Skank.
I don't own Glee or the characters used in the story. All rights belong to Ryan Murphy. The only thing I do own are the ideas used in the story.
I'll stop my rambling now and let you get to the story. Enjoy!
Rachel Berry was tired of being abused everywhere she goes. She was tired of everyone abandoning her. She was tired of getting heartbroken every time she trusted or cared for someone. She was tired of being laughed at. She was tired of no one noticing how much she was dying inside. She was tired of pretending she was okay and nothing was wrong. But most of all, she was tired of being alone.
But then again, maybe she deserved it. She often wondered if her life falling apart was her fault. Shelby was all for meeting Rachel at first but rejected her the second she got to know her. Finn has never wanted her for her entirely. The only reason he stuck around for as long as he did was because of her voice. He made that pretty clear when he told her she freaked him out but he felt something when he heard her sing. Without the voice, he wouldn't have stuck around for a second after meeting her. It's not like she really cared. She played for a different team but never admitted it out of fear things would get worse for her at school. They were already bad enough.
The Glee club stuck around this long for the same reason Finn did; her voice. They only kept her around for competitions. They needed her to win. Even Mr. Schue barely tolerated her. That club was supposed to be her family. It was supposed to be a safe place for anyone to confide in. Well, it was. Just not for her. Sure, she could be annoying at times but she actually had a reason. Besides, most members of the club have done worse things than her but always seem to forgiven and supported when they are harassed. But when it's her who's being picked on, they just add to the bullying.
The abuse at home started ever since her first year of high school. Hiram had always pressured her way too much to do better before but Leroy was always there to balance things out. At the beginning of Rachel's freshman year, Leroy noticed how mature she had become and figured she could take care of herself. That's why he started working more and that's when Hiram started abusing her. He pushed her even more since Leroy wasn't around much to stop it. He made her promise to keep her mouth shut or else she'll regret it.
Hiram just wanted her to be the perfect little daughter who would do whatever it took to be a star. She was only allowed to date boys he approved of because he didn't think she had earned the right to date whoever she wanted yet. When she asked if she could date girls, he told her she wasn't allowed to because she didn't deserve it. When she asked him if she could be with Puck, he refused because he thought he was a bad influence. That's why she broke up with him during sophomore year. Finn was the first guy he approved of and things went bad when they broke up. That's why Rachel was so desperate to get him back.
It was only verbal abuse until they lost their first Regionals. What was on her mind after the competition wasn't the fact she failed to stick it to Jesse. It was what her father was going to do to her after he roughly yanked her by the arm out of the car when they got home. He could do whatever he wanted without having to worry about Leroy coming home because he was on a business trip. As she lied in bed the last day of summer before her senior year, she closed her eyes and thought back to that unfortunate day.
Hiram opened the door to the house before aggressively shoving Rachel to the floor. She hit the ground with a thud, not crying out in pain just in case it angered her father even more.
"What the hell was that?!" he shouted angrily.
"I-I'm s-sorry. I t-tried my best." she answered in a voice barely above a whisper.
"Your best isn't good enough!" he yelled back before kicking her in the stomach. Rachel cried out in pain as tears already started to well up in her eyes. "Don't you even dare shed a tear! I should be the one crying after your pathetic performance out there!" he mentioned before continuing the same process as before, each kick worse than the next . Rachel bit her lips to prevent herself from crying out again and struggled to hold back tears. "I sign you up for singing lessons and dancing lessons and this is how you repay me?!" he said before delivering his last kick.
Rachel heard footsteps walking away from her before sighing in relief. She composed herself before beginning to slowly get back on her feet. Once she did, she clutched her aching stomach. She was sure she would wake up with a bruise the next day. She was about to walk up the stairs back to her room until she heard footsteps and froze when she heard her name being called out by someone she was too tired to deal with anymore today.
"Rachel! Where do you think you're going?!"
All of her instincts were just yelling at her to just run away and never come back but she couldn't bring herself to move once she heard her father's voice. She slowly started to turn his way, too afraid of the consequences if she ignored him. When she was face to face with him, she felt her heart stop once she caught sight of the belt in his hand. She closed her eyes and prepared herself for the painful blow. Hiram lifted the belt up and smacked her on her side with it. Rachel didn't have time to fully register the amount of pain that caused her as she instantly fell and knocked her head on the edge of a table. She felt unconsciousness slowly take over but she heard her father say something before everything went black.
"You're always going to be a failure."
Rachel didn't notice the tears leaking out of her eyes until she opened them. She thought back to how she woke up a few hours later on the floor that day and had to crawl her way to the bedroom. She will always remember those last words. The worst part is after everything that has happened to her over the years, she believes they're true.
That was the first time her father beat her. She had to hide the abuse she was going through at home when she went to school but she didn't think anyone would really care if they found out. They would probably praise her father or make things worse. She didn't think things could get worse anyway. That was until Leroy died over the summer in a restaurant shooting where he tried to protect Rachel. Hiram blamed her for his death and the beatings and insults got worse. It was time to start her senior year. How the hell would she be able to hide everything now?
This is shorter than what the other chapters will be like since it's only the introduction. That's obviously not the whole story to Rachel's past but it's a little something and I'll reveal more as the story unfolds. I'll try to update as much as possible considering exams are coming up. Hope you enjoyed. If you did, please leave a review!
