Prologue:
I never thought I would see a human disguised as an angel. He appeared to look like one the way his blue eyes pierced through my soul. There were no scars on his fragile pale skin which would make you think that this man was an angel. His aura was astonishing to others and it has consumed me completely. His silver curly hair had me in a trance. It's amazing how someone so beautiful can leave you speechless.
I soon realized that his aura and angelic appearance was only a shield to hide who he truly was. This man was no angel… he truly was a white fanged snake. He wrapped himself around me, crushing me entirely so that I couldn't leave. I cried out in pain as he overpowered me. His glare, his intense blue-eyed glare had paralyzed me to the point where it felt like he was crushing me.
"Guts" he cooed my name in my ear. I could not respond and listened to him repeat my name over and over. I wanted him to stop. I wanted to push him away mother. I'm scared mother. Mother?
Chapter 1
I open my eyes to the blue light sky. It seemed that it was going to be a rainy day. It was just me and my Azul. Azul's elegant black silky fur and green intense eyes were all mine. She was the love of my life and my only companion in this lonely apartment. This was the only great treasure my mother had left me before she passed.
Was it weird to love an animal this much? She is the most elegant creature I have every laid eyes on. How could l not love her? I'm sure other people are like me when it comes to the love of their pets. It was an unexplainable love that I had with Azul and I did not care if she stopped giving me the time of day as long as I could stare at her beauty.
Azul licked her fur and afterward gave me her usual routine cat stare. I loved it when she stared at me. It felt like she was trying to communicate with me by just her eyes. "Azul why can't you speak missy?" Azul kept staring and tilted her head a little by my question. I decided to talk for her. "Who would want to talk to you doofus?" I laughed at my attempt to speak for her and replied, "Hey! I feed you young lady now come over here and greet me!" Azul stretched her back and rubbed against the bedroom door before proceeding to jump next to me to rub her head against my hand. I held Azul against my chest and started to rub her tiny paws. She purred with satisfaction and grace.
I don't know why but as I held Azul, a sudden rush of sadness overwhelmed me. I thought I was content with myself just having Azul. "Azul… why can't you speak my Azul?" I sighed knowing that she would not respond and looked around my room trying to collect my thoughts.
I was lonely, plain and simple. I've been alone ever since my mother passed and my father had left me behind to fend for myself. I wonder if he blamed me for her death? He didn't say a word and just left… I thought I would be ok with my Azul. But something inside me wanted more than just Azul.
I wanted to have a human companion for the first time in my life. Possibly a lover? I shake my head at this thought knowing very well that that was a less likely event to occur. I felt no desire to be in a sexual relationship with anyone. Was it fear? Or do I not feel sexually attracted to anyone? I didn't want to pursue further questions in my head and I made up my mind to take a risk. I look towards Azul as I held her closely to my chest. "Azul I think it's time that I went socializing don't you think?"
After a few minutes of deciding whether I should leave or not, I looked through my closet to find something decent to wear. Though everything in my closet was full of a bundle of clothes that I never wore since I do not go out much. I watch Azul scurry to the closet right when I opened the door. "Do you want to help me look for clothes Azul?" Azul's tail was swaying back and forth by my question and I thought it was a good time to talk
"Do you want to help me look for clothes Azul?" Azul's tail was swaying back and forth by my question and I thought it was a good time to talk
Azul's tail was swaying back and forth by my question and I thought it was a good time to talk for her again "Of course
"Of course Guts! You need to get the hell out of here, I need some alone time."
As I spoke for her, Azul climbed on top of the bundle of clothes and meowed directly at me. I smiled weakly at her adorable meow and picked her up so I could get to the clothes. I picked out a nice black soft sweater along with some black slacks to match. After I got done dressing up, I went to the bathroom to adjust changes to my hair so it wouldn't seem like I didn't take care of myself which was sometimes true. I looked through the mirror at my light caramel skin and black short hair. I touched my eight-year-old scar that was inflicted near my right eye. I stared at myself for a long time and repeated to myself "I can be loved… I can be loved."
If people around me can find someone then I can do to is what I thought to myself. I looked away from the mirror and took out some cash from my drawer then headed towards the door.
Azul follows me which seemed like she was escorting me out. I put my hand on the doorknob with hesitation. I don't want to go but my conscious was telling me that I need to. I can't stay cooped up in this apartment forever, as much as I wouldn't mind staying with Azul all day didn't bother me but only the silence of this place scared me.
Azul stared at me and she seemed impatient while I stood in front of the exit. Azul rubbed her head against my leg which made me think that maybe she sensed my loneliness and my need to socialize with the outside world. I looked at Azul and gave her one last pat on the head as I exited the front door. Little did I know that this would be the biggest risk of my life.
