Title: Up Against the Wall
Disclaimer:All Transformers Characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The plot, however is mine. I am in no way associated with the owners, creators or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended. The same goes for the song "Up Against the Wall" by Boy likes Girls. I make no money from this story.
Warnings: het, pre-slash
Pairing: Will + Ironhide, passed Will/Sarah
Summary: It was there in the back of his mind. He just refused to see it until he got hit by a bombshell.
Author's Note: This deals with the break-up between Captain Will Lennox and his wife, Sarah in the "Cover Me Universe". Sorry I can't stand het in certain fiction. -_-; Sorry for the ones who likes Will with Sarah…
"…" Denotes "talking"
' … ' Denotes 'thinking'
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It's over
Look out below
And I'm wasted
I still taste it
Yeah it's so hard to let go
He should have guessed after the first time that despite his wife's soft assurances that she was dead set against having Ironhide living with them. He couldn't take it when he had to order 'Hide to stay at the outskirts of their property because his wife was afraid he'd somehow harm their baby girl.
So breathe in now
And breathe it out
The forecast
A car crash
It's looking like another...
Despite his pleadings and reassurances that Ironhide would never harm a living thing, much less his own living flesh and blood, she wouldn't budge. Then things would get so out of hand that there would be shouting matches and broken glasses everywhere.
Breakdown, rebound
This could be my last goodbye
You cross your heart, I hope to die
It was there in the back of his mind. Ever since he came back from his mission from Qatar and following the attack in Mission City and coming home with Ironhide in tow, things were different somehow. But Will was too overjoyed with having just saved the world and managing to not die in the process. Adrenaline was still pumping through his system; he was too hyper to take note of his wife's pinched expression while introducing Ironhide.
And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning signThe first time they made such a commotion Ironhide came running across their property to the house with guns blazing and pointing at the kitchen window, where coincidentally Sarah was standing in front of. He could still remember hearing her bloodcurdling scream and rushing to 'Hide instead of his wife, trying to assure the Autobot that they weren't under attack. In the weeks after, Sarah was still smarting from the event.
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all
It didn't help that he'd try to avoid her nagging by visiting the army base. More often than not, he spent too much time there than at home. He tried to explain it to Ironhide that he was there for his work and making sure Cybertronions got settled in nicely. But even he couldn't hide his shame every time 'Hide or Epps mentioned Sarah. Who knew that Sarah Lennox could be so xenophobic?
No rewinds
No second times
And I won't break
I won't waste, everything you left behind
He could understand Sarah's point of view but he couldn´t warp his mind around that strange concept. Ironhide was his friend. He couldn't just abandon him either, the ´Bot appointed himself as his guardian. He felt honoured to have Ironhide at his side. Despite his rugged appearance Ironhide had a heart of gold.
Will remembered his heart skipping a beat when the gunner had leapt to dodge those rockets of the Decepticon named Devastator. Ironhide may have been the same species as those Decepticons, but he was nothing alike. Sarah wouldn't listen and just snubbed him and after awhile he stopped the comment. It was no use anyway. The woman had a stubborn mind of her own.
So don't follow
Just let it go
The weather's, been better
Don't let it be another...
He shouldn't have been surprised that she wouldn't come with him to the base following the attack of Sector Thirteen against Sam Witwicky. She ignored Ironhide, would address the Autobot as a 'thing' with a sound of distaste and a look of disdain. As if the near mention of his name was an insult.
Breakdown, rebound
This could be my last goodbye
You cross your heart, I hope to die
He tried to mend their relationship. He didn't understand how they could grow so much apart in such a short span of time. It was mind boggling and disturbing to him. Everything he did was aggravating her instead of being calming until he couldn't take the stifling silence that wedged itself between them.
Will's heart was in his throat forming a big lump after her refusal to come with him. Despite Ironhide's assurances that she wouldn't come to harm when Sector Thirteen arrived he still wanted his girls to be safe and near him; where he could keep them in his line of sight. Except he knew that the likeability of Sector Thirteen taking his wife and daughter as hostages were slim.
All the nights you spent sitting nowhere out there on your own
All the nights I waited by the phone when you were going in alone
And all your different faces and all your different ways are making everything a mess
And all I'm saying is that all your different places and all the complications led to this
Sarah never tried to include Ironhide as part of their family, seeing the giant as nothing more than a dangerous nuisance and trespasser than as their guardian. She never affiliated herself as part of their group; always silencing Will with a mere look at the mention of either Autobots and Decepticons.
It was little things as leaving Ironhide at the edge of their property in the middle of a rainstorm, knowing the gunner hated the rain, because Sarah didn't want him anywhere near them because the shed faced Annabelle's room, that made Will heart grow heavy. Ironhide didn't deserve this treatment. Despite their difference in species they were very much alike. Ironhide was no fool he knew what was going around him. Knew that in some way he was at fault, but Will refused to place the blame at him. Sarah just had to get over whatever her deal was and see 'Hide the way Will saw his friend.
And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
He thought he could make things better. Ironhide was no valid reason to break up. The looming divorcement papers blindsided him though. He'd never thought he'd get divorced so quickly and without any rhyme or reason. He was one of the good guys for crying out loud.
Will never thought of having his life consists of nothing more than a few bags and a gaping whole in his chest. He should have figured it out, seeing as he was the only one of his unit that was still married. The life he created was too dangerous and he loved Sarah for sticking to his side after all those years. But he never thought she'd be giving up like this; giving up on them.
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved
And I can't deny your eyes
He knew she was right. They were both destroying each other by attempting to pretend everything was alright. He admitted to himself that they haven't been alright for a very long time. It wasn't just Ironhide, the rest of the Autobots and humankind. In the end it wasn't about the both of them. Ironhide was just the straw that broke the camel's back.
Will had to let go. He had to force himself to let go; burn his bridges. It was for the best for everyone's sake. It wasn't fair to Sarah, wasn't fair to Will and it especially wasn't fair to Ironhide. It left a bitter taste in his mouth and when the Topkick drove off he couldn't stop the cracking of his heart into tiny pieces.
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all
(Never loved at all)
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