[A/N] I own neither the song, Her Voice Is Beyond Her Years (that belongs to Mew and/or the song writers) or Death Note (that belongs to the Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata. If I owned Death Note, guess who wouldn't have died).

If I could look you in the eyes

What would I see? What would I feel, if only I could look into your eyes one more time? What would life be like if I could only see the life shine once more?
I look up at the sky. The cloudless sky. A sky that I saw reflected in your eyes everyday. A sky that grows darker with each passing minute. The sun inevitably setting, as unavoidable as death to the mortal and never-ending pain to those left behind.


If I could look you in the eyes

How would life be right now? Would you smile like you did back then, before all this happened? Would you laugh like you didn't have a care in the world?
I look down towards the ground. The cold hard earth that now carries your body. I crouch down and touch the damp green grass. The green that is nothing compared to the inconceivable shade of your eyes.


Her voice is beyond her years

She's trying to move you

She did not know where to go
And soon it was dark

I wander through the deserted graveyard. It is at least midnight. I sit down and lean against the back of your headstone. It sounds ill-mannered but being this close makes me feel somewhat whole again. Knowing this is as close as I will ever be to you again, I savour every moment.


If I could look you in the eyes
If I could look you in the eyes
I couldn't let you go

I try to pull myself away. I try to hold back the tears that threaten to fall. I can't leave you. I can't pull myself away from you. I lost you once already and now, to leave of my own free will, the idea itself destroys me. Although you're no longer here, I want to stay with you forever, just like before.


I couldn't let you go

I could never let you go. You were always there for me. You were always the one I would turn to. You had life experience and knowledge far greater than my own. Logic means nothing in the real world.


Her voice is beyond her years
Please try not to move her

At least it was her mistake
Hers alone to make

You made your own choices. You decided to ride with him. You decided against the guarantee of safety. You knew if you stayed you'd end up dead. You knew it was coming. Death is to life as the night is to the day. The only true mistakes you ever made turned out to be the worst mistake possible.

If I could look you in the eyes
If I could look you in the eyes
In the morning I can see you


"See you tomorrow in class Matt."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah."
"We have that test tomorrow."
"You wanna help me revise?" you ask, mischievous as always.
I look into your eyes. You're astonishing green eyes.
"I'll see you in the morning, Matt."


Can you see me when you're talking?


I watch your mouth move. I hear your words but I'm not listening. You're speaking but not to me. You're talking to me but you're looking past me. You're looking at him.


Even your lies will do
If they're spoken by you


"I love you," you whisper as we sit together under a window.
I know it's not true, yet I feel compelled to reply. "I love you too."
"No, I really love you, Nate."
The way my name sounds, rolling off your tongue, it sounds so sweet on your lips; you're faultlessly soft lips. The way the lie sounds, effortlessly smooth and velvety.
But now, it is my turn to lie. "I know."


[A/N] I don't write Near much so I hope if you are a fan of Near, this has pleased you. If not, let me know what I've done wrong. Reviews are like gold to me people.